i'm not happy.

had been ap-ing ppl i dunno, being mean and all.

sorry. didnt really mean it.

went drinking on both thurs and fri.

lesson on fri. assignment based for the first unit. talk abt it later.

work was depressing.

bought a cheap cheap dress, $15, a pair of heels, $20.90, and a big big bag, $44. STILL UNDER $100!!!!

mum still dun understand why i shopped today.

didnt bother to tell her wats wrong anymore.

can i have a hug?

I SURVIVED WORK TODAY!!!!!!

lolz.. I sounded like a kid who just started work. haha.

Hey, I have yet to fully recovered and still feeling slight dizziness off and on! Hummpf. I have the right to cheer for something I accomplished today!

Got myself updated with all the information and meetings I missed out on Friday. Re-organized myself. Going to the toilet non-stop to clear my nose. Really got to tidy up my table. Too many papers laying around.

Had fish head curry for lunch. BEFORE YOU GUYS START SCOLDING ME...

Its a fish head worth falling sick over. lolz. Really very nice.

I'm having a love-hate feeling with my life now.. Lots of stuffs to keep me busy with, but yet I cant fully enjoy nor finish something with my full attention.

To-be-workaholic.

At long last I'm feeling human enough to blog.

Had been a terrible weekend.

Was happily working under the stress and unhappiness about my PM till thurs when things turn for the worst. A cough that is supposely to be recovering, turned into a running nose, sore throat and fever.

Having lots of work on Thurs didnt help. Wanna go off earlier but was held back by a last minute meeting. When I finally go off, was already feeling terrible. Went to the doc, but the doc sucks. The med I was given didnt help!!!!

Actually planned to go back office on fri afternoon to tie up loose ends and to attend a meeting but woke up with a high fever and feeling worst than ever.

Simply refuse to take any med last night till my mum got to sweet talk me to it. Imagine taking 18tablets in last then 24hours and yet you are not recovering.

Thanks for the constant sms-es asking how i was.

O ya, Jaren called again. Seems to be good news but he refuse to tell me over the phone! -_-!! Always up to something.

Someone once asked me why I like to blog. For a few simple reasons. I like to write. A way to keep in touch with my friends coze we are too busy to meet up all the time. But what I dun like about blogging is some stuffs cant be written here. O well, at least my blog wont hurt anyone.

And... I got a new shopping list. =X

- bag to carry A4 stuffs
- heels
- skirts + tops
- files!!! i need lots of them
- laptop
- a ticket to somewhere

Good thing for me school was postpone for 1 wk!!!!

I need to shop (now more need than ever coze i'm working), meet up with friends including jaren who owe me an explaination, work, and SLEEP!

i dun wanna take any more med.. not one more.. i'm so sick of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went out of my mind after reading that email yesterday night.

things are fine with boss around.

work piling up.

time reducing.

nice and enjoyable dinner with kenny.

i seriously need to sleep.

BIG TIME.

piss piss piss

why everyone know what i doing but him?!

shouldnt check my email

shouldnt stay

i really like my current work place

but times like this make me wanna vomit blood and quit!!!!!!!!!!

now my mind is all in a mess trying to think how to minimize the damage tomorrow.

what am i to do.

and i hate it when ppl dont reply.

now i'm like a lost sheep running in a circle.

i dun wanna be understanding.

i dun wanna be good.

i dun wanna be smiling and laughing like nothing had happened.

Karyn White - Superwoman

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table,
and make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream..
Your egss are overeasy, your toast unlikely,
all that's missing is your morning kiss that used to great me..
Now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet,
and I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me..
We dont talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting so deep,
I've got my pride, I will not cry, but it's making me weak..
I'm not your superwoman..
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down,
and think that everything is ok...
Boy I am only human..
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

I fought my way through the rush house trying to make it home just for you..
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you..
But when you get there, you just ell me you're not hungry at all,
you said you'd rather read the paper and you dont want to talk..
You like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed,
I'm convinced I know the problem, you dont love me the same..
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair,
I've got my pride, I will not cry, still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman..
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay..
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than ocasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

I'm not your superwoman..
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay..
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than ocasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

Oooh, baby
Look into the corners of your mind,
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times,
but I can't be the superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me
I'm not your superwoman

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay..
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than ocasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

Oh!! If you feel it in your heart and you understand me,
stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet,
but you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me
I need love, I need just your love, I'm not your superwoman...



Surpisingly I heard this song in Malaysia at the stop for breakfast and had been searching for it whole day and I finally found it!!!!

I'm not a superwoman

Yesterday forgotten to blog about my field trip to a company that does testing and repairing of pipes.

But lets not goes into the details, in case I bored you guys. lolz.

Having lots of cockroaches in the manhole/IC means that there is no risk in going into it. 'clean'. The more the better. If there is no cockroaches, means a BIG problem.

This guy here is a CCTV that will enters the pipes to 'see' what is inside.

Fire Extinguisher made of GOLD (i suppose).

Interesting ar? Its only 1kg and is able to extinguish all kinds of fire as its a chemical extinguisher. We were like looking high and low to see what type of extinguisher it is. lolz. FSM ma.. What to do? The guy even joked about telling them to remove it eversince the golden tap from NKF time.

Boss even refer to us (ching, izaeel and me) as the Charlie Angels. -_- But, we happily failed the mission yesterday. =X lolz. There's really nothing we can do!!!! Serious. O well, we will try harder. =)

Anyway.. went to Malaysia today. Wasnt really feeling good about it. First of all, I was like so blur due to the med, on top of that, I had to wake up at 5AM!!! And everytime I gonna fall asleep, someone just have to come wake me up for nothing. Argh.. You guys know how unhappy I get if I didnt have enough sleep.

That aside.. went to this organic farm that has Dragon Fruit. First time seeing the plant itself. Interesting fact is that its flower is called the 'Queen of Night', coze it only blooms at night. Cool man.

Dragon Fruit plant & flower that yet to bloom.

Something that always turns me off in Malaysia or any other countries..

HOUSEFLIES!

They are so ER XIN!!!!!! IRRITATING!!!!! Argh. Just the sight of them make me itchy all over.

I got bored.. so ya.. lolz.

Trying to act 'man'

caught the sun set in malaysia after dinner.

waitng for our boat for the firefly sighting.

at last i got to wear this again!!!

bored me trying to entertain myself..

It was started raining during our dinner time so we were told to wait for awhile before deciding to continue with the boat ride or not because it can be dangerous. In the end, we did. Was so amaze by the fireflies!!!! Wow.. Only saw one pathetic fly in Laos. Though the number today is little as compare to other times since it was raining, it was really beautiful! But I was abit uncomfortable.. Urban girl. lolz.

First time having crab outside my house! Since young my family always buy back to eat, but we had crab for dinner!!! My first and LAST time eating crab outside. So messy!!!! But fun. lolz.

Overdue entry. =X Oops. Been quite busy with both PUB and Sentosa, these two projects really keep me busy, on top of that, been out everyday after work, Wed went for Vincent's 21st pre-celebration, Thurs went to have a hair cut and dine out, had cooking lessons today.. Photos before I go further. =D

Wednesday we went for lunch at Izaeel's mum stall at this coffee shop at Serangoon. 3 cars. lolz. Nice lunch. Then saw the beverage sign board, 'ai xin' bread and its really in the shape of a HEART SHAPE!!!!!

really is bread with LOVE

Vincent's 21st pre-celebration is at this China kind of steambat buffer beside ICON at Bugis. Ok ba... But damn HOT and smoky. =X Abit tired to really enjoy the company.. But had fun still! =)


us!!! as usual.


though the potato is not in, we look better in this pic!!! =) sorry cl.


tong's creation of fry egg.

my pan-fried dumplings

three of them enjoying tong's fry egg.

see how birdy he is?

finally got this two pic right after 3 tries!!!!!

Lesson on cooking shell-food. By the Birdy Co.

1. Place all on the 'hot plate'.

2. When it's hard enough, it will slowly opens.. WAIT!!!!

3. When its fully open, EAT it.

see how hot/red i was.

Hmm... The outlet is still ok... But not highly recommeded ba. No idea why. Just a feeling..

Thurs went to find Jaren and he doesnt seems to be in a good mood. Something seems to be happening. Asked him but he didnt want to say. Hmm.. Hopefully he will cheer up soon. Abit worry to see him like this. Not his usual self.

Dinner was at Asian Kitchen's Teahouse at Raffles City with bro and his gf. Abit not up to standard, might be due to the crowd that day. O well. Can still go try again. =)

Booked a cab home, first to Hougang then to Jurong. Slept through the whole ride, almost 1hour!!!!! Imagine one hour on cab. -_- Had to rushed home to get the cheque from my mum for my school fees. TOTALLY forgotten about it. =X Lucky Jimmy drove me down today to pay my school fees. THANKS!!!

Went for cooking lesson today.. What I learnt:

Everything is really in a mess now. Schedules went haywire, not really feeling well, meetings, projects stuffs, lessons, dinner with friends.. O my.. Now then I realize that my course is 3-4 times a week and not 1 weekday and 1 weekend!!!! I'm going to be so dead.. 3hours per lessons.. Guess I will just go three times per week till I finish my cooking lessons and then I will start going 4times a week. Got to work something out..

So tired mentally. Was telling Ching today, suddely felt so mentally drained.

To CHING: do what you have to do. you know what i mean.

To TONG: JIA YOU!!!!

To YH: just bear with it and jia you. must look towards the $$$ that is coming in.

To CL: hope u adjust to working life soon. =) then can go out more often le.

To VINCENT: HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!

To JAS: nth to say. lolz. coze i know you will always stay cheerful and is doing very fine now. =)

Chatted with Jaren yesterday night on MSN.. WOOHOO!!! lolz. Seeing him on thurs. lalalala *dance around*

Cant sleep.. On top of that had been having nightmares. Woke up tearing.

Today was on 'auto-pilot' mode at work coze Boss not around. Did some paper work and I bth..

her heart wants one thing
her brain tells her no

Out tomorrow again.

Thurs too.

Lesson on Fri.

School starting next Fri.

Results out tomorrow.

Flying off at the end of May for a break.

Okay, FINALLY I sat down to copy the pics to the computer. First of all, the $6.50 apple from Sakae. Coze of this my bro call me his '$6.50 de lao mei'. lolz. Expensive apple. BUT damn nice can? Green apple favour with a thin layer of white chocolate.

SEE!!! Still got seed in the middle! Very bitter. Almost equal to the real seed. haha. Super bitter dark chocolate. O well. At last I taste it. Been wanting to eat it for ages.

Cant help but to keep taking this pic on Jimmy's car

TODAY!

Went Bugis with tong, cl and yh. Love them.

Had kid meal at Yoshinoya, setto, they called it. Didnt feel like having a full meal. The 'toy' was those kind of folding papers, yh started happily folding alway. lolz.

*the product

*all three

happy yh

me and cl.. ages since we took a pic together

happy yh and boring tong

look like Hamburger from Mac family?

always trying to cheer us up

LOVE the top and necklance I'm wearing. (top from queensway from HK) Price unknown. Cant remember.

Cant wait to go shopping again!!! Yaya.. I know I shld be saving. I GOT SAVE K!!!!!!! Dont say I never. If you say that means you dont know me. O well. Doesnt matter.

Random pic..

my med. cute right? the packaging.

*ching and my cardholder (got mine from a christmas party, BIG THANKS to the person. dunno who also. really like it)

Things arent really smooth now. Almost bth at work today, but I REN!!! And I have really good bosses to support me, or rather us no matter how unbearable the things get. Really glad that I stay on and not went to another department or company.

Then that jaren not free tomorrow to cut my hair!!!!! Argh. Have to push to thurs.

Sat went shopping and bought another top. Saw so much stuffs I wanna buy!!! Got to learn to spend less. O well.. Shall get use to it.

As usual Sun rotted at home, getting things done, running, cooking, mask, rest, youtube-ing, and throwing stuffs away. After so long, I finally manage to throw it away. Congrats to me!!!

*I have the BEST hairstylist on earth

(maybe i should start being his agent.. intro so many people to him le. wahahahaha)

A long day for me..

Morning was spent doing Sentosa, which was a headache.

Afternoon had one of the most horrible meeting. Another mega big headache.

Cooking lesson in the late evening. Average.

Hao lei.

I shall enjoy my last days of peace.

In awhile, everything will start. Including school.

Cant wait for them too. I know it will get harder. WO KE YI DE!!!

too much unspoken words.

On the bright side.. I will be getting my lappy SOON!!!

SLEEPY!!!! No idea why. Never feel rested for a long while..

Went meeting, clear alot of stuffs, but really saw the ugly side of human.

Been ages since I had been under the hot sun!! Headache.

Dinner sponsor by my bro!!! Sakae again.

Used to be a once in awhile treat to myself in the past. But now, lolz.. Shall not say anymore.

O ya, I gotten my name card. Technical Exe. -_-

and and.. another company called and asked me down for interview.

Another long day tomorrow.

And.. period finally came!!!! *phew* lolz.

Super sleepy but let me type this first ba.

Kind of busy this week with both projects. Really is till the point that my eyes hurt from looking at the screen and fall asleep in front of the lappy. Horrible right? But kind of like this, but the progress is SO SLOW!!!! Didnt get much things done. O well, when things pick up in like 2 weeks I wont be saying this anymore. lolz.

Now trying to make the office look more homey and cozy coze before us, there had not been any female on the team. Thus, we shall and will start the trend and standard in the office!!!!!! Had been requesting for employment of some better looking guys of age closer to us too! lolz.

Had overtime on monday again. Then yesterday went sentosa. Today is the 'headache' day. Tomorrow going to ATC. Cooking lesson starting on friday night. Meeting up with cl and tong on sat. Packing up my room on sunday. PACKED!!!! But I like. lolz.

Had dinner and went IMM with tong today. Got a pouch with a cat on it!!! Looks jap. Love it. To be my pencil case and emergency kit in the office. lolz.

Shall stop here and write more later this week, hopefully with pic.

Good luck to tong for his interview.

Enjoy your work ppl!!!!!!

Argh.. I STITCH WRONGLY! I ACTUALLY STITCH WRONGLY!!! What on earth am I thinking about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now dont know to get a new one or to redo. haiz. Lets see about it when I have the mood to do it. lolz. Wonder when it will be.

Sat went out with bro and his gf. Pretty boring this time round. But went to sing, somewhere called 'The One'. Think cheaper than Kbox de coze they not count by head but by room. Near cine, always thought its a bar or something. haha. Then dinner at sim lim food court and cab home.

And things start to get even more bored!!!!!! Sianzation.

Today woke up feeling more sian. Cooked dinner, rotted and rotted, went for a short run, youtube and youtube.

Sighz. What a boring weekend.

if you really understand me, you would know the things i want are actually very simple. no one seems to know..

Gosh. Suddenly realize how much I had been spending this week. Around 100!!!! -_- Blame it on Fish and Co, TCC x2, drinking.

O well. Shall start saving abit next week. haha. Plus getting a new lappy soon, all the more reason to save.

Was reading ham ham past blogs.. Bring back memories of those time I spent in JJC. Those fun time. The leg injury wasnt fun, but they are really friendly and nice to me when I go back to school. Skipping of classes, lame time with ham ham, cheryl and kingsley. Those outings. Doing hw at KFC. Love Fesita. Worrying about nothing. Even if dont do hw, also no problem.

Haiz. Those are the days. Had been what? 3years? 4years? Maybe things would be different if I had stayed there instead of going NP.

But going NP, I got to know another group of good friends, tong, cl, yh and the rest. =) Dont think I forget you all. haha. Lene and jimmy too.

Getting old. Always thinking back. lolz.

1more wk to a new laptop!!!!!!!!!!!

Long day today... Work, then went HQ, lunched at Ubi, back to work, off to town..

And.. I so LOVE ELMO!!!!

toys of Jimmy's daughter (one of the big bro there)

Lene was held back at work, so Jimmy, his gf and I decided to go chill out at TCC first while wating for her. Cant help but go TCC. Not to mention, this outlet had a handsome guy. =X They threaten to get his number. -_-!! O well. Was really fun rotting there, laughed and making ourself at home. lolz.

table setting

Latte Mocha

I very much love their Latte. World class. First time having it hot since its really cold there, sitting directly under the air-con aka distributing outlet. Heavenly. Though it has caffeine, it never makes me dizzy.. haha.

Pizza dunno what.. =X

Basically they uses the french loaf for this, tomato, chicken, ham, pineapple and cheese. Good for a bite. And when I ask them to heat it up after lene arrive, they did it for me! Thumbs up for their service. But ended up Jimmy had the share. -_-

Devil's Chocolate Cake

A thin layer of thick chocolate, chocolate mosses (spelling?) and lastly, a layer of brownie. Love it! But didnt go very well with my coffee.

After TCC we walked over to Hereen for a drink at Balcony. Another good place to chill out. But a bad place to go to after a drink at TCC. lolz. Too much water. Nonetheless, we still enjoyed it.

Island Punch

I like the jelly better than the drink. lolz. Even after the ice melted, its not diluted. So ya. Good enough..

Graveyard

YUCKS! The stout taste is overpower and too gassy. Finally know how it taste like. Out of all our drink, this is the only bitter one. So ya, can imagine how terrible it was to drink it after tasting the rest of the drinks.

Didnt wanna go home right away after the drink so went to roam around at the park. Pretty cooling.. Refreshing.. =)

Out shopping tomorrow with my bro..

OT on monday. Again.. -_-

Finally had dinner with tong, cl and yh.. Suppose to go my house, ended up having a heavy dinner at Mac. lolz. Fun to be with them. Really enjoy myself. And surpising, I saw Darren at JP! Goodness.

The project making my head reallll BIG.. Haiz. Face with a different quest each day. lolz. Not boring at all, but well.. lolz.

Need to get more clothes for work, a watch, another pair of heels.

At Mac today, I saw the teddy bear.. Yellow color de. Should have bought it, then I will have traffic light bears..