Simplicity

2012-02-13T22:00:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow, we will be 4years 7months 7 days old.

I can't express in words how grateful I am till today that he enters my life.
Stay by me all my downs and let me enjoy my ups truly from my heart.
Taught me to be a better person, to threw away my spoilt side.

Since school started for him, we had less time to ourselves.
Though we insisted on spending weekends together, but the private time for 'we' got lesser somehow.
But he make sure all the time that he is busy with his assignment, I have something to occupy myself.

That is how sweet he is.

He's not an expressive guy.
At times I didn't notice his intention till the later part.

What I love about him?

Everything.

2012-01-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

Comparing to New Year, Lunar New Year seems more meaningful to me. Typical Chinese I am.

But sadly, over the years, house-hopping had lessen gradually. My family is a really small one, with my mum only having one sister and each of them have two children each. My father's side have one additional brother, but he had not been in contact with us since I was in primary school and had recently moved to a far far away place. Another close relative, my grandma's sister, had also moved to that far far away place a just slightly before 2012. Being Chinese tradition, we can't visit them this year.

I don't really have cousins my age either. There's a group of them, but they formed their own 'group' as my family is not that close to them either. So that only left my mum's sister's family and my father's sister's family. Pretty small ya?

Lunar New Year is like chinese-christmas to me. I love baking cookies to give away and for relatives who come visiting to munch on. It's a Chan-family tradition pass down from my mother. She used to do this, but it had became me now.

That's why home-visiting to Mr Lee's family had always been terrifying! His relatives are in tons! Not numbers. But its hard for him to comprehend because he's already used to that massive amount of people. It's really funny thinking about it. This is how different we are.

Its going to be Dragon Year in 30mins..
I hope everyone will have a smooth sailing year ahead with the Water Dragon.
Regardless school, work, relationship, family, friendship, financial and any other thing..

2011-12-29T22:03:00.003+08:00

Just in case I didn't get to post before 2012 comes knocking on our door.. I'm super determined to post a summary of my 2011.

This year (2011), personally, there wasn't much excitment in my personal life. Work was more 'exciting'. But boyfriend and me did had some new experience with this little small homeland of ours..

Celebrated our 4th year old at MBS. It was both our first time there and we had a fun and expensive time there! But it was pretty enjoyable to be able to enjoy the night lightings of Singapore. I enjoyed it more than expected.

Like last year, the group of us went Malacca. This trip was more relaxed and much more enjoyable.

Boyfriend got his driving license after his birthday this year. And while my brother went oversea for a week, we had a good time with the car. Boyfriend drove me around Singapore, to Singapore Flyer, to B&J, to Farmart and sent me to work!

Lastly, I offically graduated! It was a pretty simple affair, but I finally got to wear the square hat! We (me and the people who supported me) went through a long two years to let me wear this hat! What an experience.

Work-wise, I can no longer take leave as and when I like. It's pretty sad! But I must admit I'm quite a lucky girl to get where I am today in just four years in the company. It will never ever be an easy job. But I'm blessed with good people around me to support and help me.

O ya, how could I have forgotten. Boyfriend and me selected our future love-nest in Seng Kang! It will be ready in 2015. Amazing right? When I look back I really feel extremely lucky to have met him at the right time and be together from then till now and for a long long time in the future. We fought, we argued, but we managed to accept each other's shortcomings and decide we really want to be together. How lucky we are.

Managed to meet up with some friends this year, but not so for some. We all got more busy with age. Work, study, other friends, family. Once awhile I do like to distrub them for updates. But some friends are just so amazing. Having not met for a year, but the closeness never went off.

Health-wise, I'm getting old! Old problems too, the ankle, mirgain, backache, women issue. The usual. Lucky my company have good medical benefits! Lucky me again.

Overall, it was a pretty good year. It's suppose to be a bad year for 'rabbits'. But generally both boyfriend and me had a rather good year. He found a job rather quickly, enrolled in his degree course and got along with his colleagues. For me, promotion, selection of flat, grew up.

Hope 2012 will be even better for boyfriend, me and everyone else!

2011-12-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder..

2011-11-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

Double YEAH today!!!

We selected our love nest today. Its at Anchorvale Harvest (Sep 11 BTO). Level 9. Facing playground.

I can already kinda imagine how our love nest will look like...

Minimum decoration in the living room.
When you enter the door, you will be greeted by a half-height fish tank.
A simple dining table.
Timber feature wall behind the flat screen TV facing the sofa which is also our cozy corner.

Bedroom will be painted with a relaxing colour, e.g. lavender
A queen size bed by the window.
A dressing table by the bed.

Kitchen will be the most expensive part of the nest.
A reasonably good oven.
A reasonably good mixer.
A tempered glass table-top stove.
A spacious fridge
A little corner for wine glasses
A big big sink for easy washing
Lots of cooking and baking accessories.

I'm so HAPPY and EXCITED!!

Estimated completion will be Jul 2015.

2011-11-19T22:10:00.003+08:00

O YEAH!! I finally officially graduated! Worn the academic dress and the square hat which is iconic to degree holders!

I'm so freaking happy! There were a few moments that I almost tear abit - when the staff help me to put on my academic dress and hat, when the council staff march in, when Singapore national anthem is being played, when I collect the 'certificate', when our lecturers congrats us while marching off. After all the tough tme and money spent, it was only for a few months of glory and a day of wearing that square hat on your head. Serious, I know everyone will look good with that square hat on their head. Even without the academic dress.

It's the square hat that is IMPORTANT! lol.

Finally fulfilled my dream of wearing THAT square hat. Not anyone square hat, but THAT.

We FREAKING did it!!!

2011-10-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

Singapore Flyer by Night (i take one ok? nice right? =p)

Its rare for me to blog on a weekday. But here I am because I'm bored.
Boyfriend is having fun time alone playing CS, brother is still oversea.

I didn't waste this week at all! Boyfriend can legally drive now and have a week to 'own' a car, we made full use of it! Boyfriend drove me to work twice, fetched me twice, drove me for dinner everyday and brought me to places that I wanted to but inaccessible without a car.

So sweet right? =D

So guess where is one of the places we went to?

Singapore flyer! On holiday eve as we have a pair of tix that are expiring. Boyfriend got it at $10 per tix via a charity event and he had been planning to bring me there for night view as we did enjoy the night view from MBS.

Pretty love this pic...

And this too... but my eyes look so swollen.. =(

Last but not least, thank you brother for going oversea and thank you boyfriend for driving me around without any compliant. We basically almost went round Singapore. East, West, South. Yet to go North though.

I can't describe the feeling to sit in the passenger seat besides the driver's as a girlfriend. The 'status' is different, so is the feeling. Now I know how good it feels to have a boyfriend drive you around. Its a very good feeling but one I won't wish to get use to. Otherwise, the magic will be lost. I'm truly glad and appreciated his gesture in driving me to places I wanted to go and driving me to work early in the morning (he's not a morning riser). Thank you boyfriend. I didn't take it as granted for you to drive me around. *smiles*

2011-10-23T22:21:00.002+08:00

I'm really having a love-hate relationship with the country I'm born in, grew up in and continue to live in.

HDBs are freaking expensive! Its consider affordable but yet, not that affordable! And the balloting. Its crazy. Paying $10 for each ballot. Ok, I'm just upset with the high living standard in Singapore. Its a battle between having a car and having our own house. Of course having our own house wins hands down. But, it will be nice to have a small little comfortable car to have boyfriend fetch me in. Of course not for me to drive!

Anyway, something nice, finally met up with polymates awhile back. It was really nice to see them after a long time. And from where to shop, we are not discussing proposal rings and HDBs. The topics reflected our age and stage of life. Food was ok. Packed the leftover pizza for boyfriend and he likes it too.

One good news, boyfriend had ORD-ed! No longer the girlfriend of a NS-boi.

Wish weekends are longer. If it is, I can bake/ cook and yet have some time alone with boyfriend.

2011-09-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

Mr Boyfriend is 24!
Celebrated Mr Boyfriend's 24th last weekend. It was a pretty simple and cozy celebration. He even helped in making his own cake! Yes, I made a cake for him. A tiramisu. It's the first time I 'baked' for his birthday and the first time I cooked a full dinner with him - completed with soup, vege and meat. Not really that heavenly tasting, but still passable and he ate quite alot of the dishes. *touched*

Bought him for massage too! Which was his first full body massage locally. =) Nothing amazing, but something that hopefully he will remembers, given his lousy memory.

Hmm... What else...

Altec aka boyfriend's bao bei came over for a little surprise and cake cutting session. Then we popped over to JP for movie. Johnny English was super FUNNY!!!!

Actual day birthday lunch was at Ma Mansion. A wonderful meal that we both enjoyed. The day ended with prawn fishing with Altec.

Simple right? We did a number of stuffs, but nothing amazing. But hope Mr Boyfriend enjoyed his 24th still. =)

Dar, hope you truly like the small little celebration that I planned for you.

I promised you that I will not spend too much on your birthday and I kept my promise! =) These are the littl stuffs I had always wanted to do for you.

Though the dishes were not that great, they are cooked with love.

Though the cake was not perfect, I was thinking about you while making it.

Though the lunch was not the atas place I initially wanted to bring you to, I know it's still a place that you will enjoy.

It's your special little day.

And I'm glad that you are born.

*loves*

2011-09-18T20:33:00.002+08:00

Our family photo rarely appear here. So here we go...

Taken at Tung Lok. Went there twice in a short span of a month! Can you believe it?

First time was for my promotion. Yes, for those that hadn't heard the news, I had recently gotten promoted. It had been a few months actually, but only recently I got settled down and feel comfortable with the new title and job.

Second time was purely to make use of the voucher before it expired!

Both time, we had such a hearty meal! Spending a good 2 hours there and fill our stomach with good quality tasty food.

And of course, here's US. =D

Boyfriend had recently started school and doing his assignment with all his hard. Never know he can be so hardworking! And its only now that I know how bored he is when I was rushing my assignments. Poor boyfriend. Having to put up with me for the past two years. Now its my turn. Gonna find some stuffs to occupy myself with when he's studying.

2011-09-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

I'm duper super happy today. Its like a heavy stone had been lifted off my chest.

Seriously.

For the past 4 months, everyone had been working very hard. And the sudden change in job scope and responsibility for me was a tough switch. It was a good chance - like everyone who knew what happened had told me. A good chance for me to advance.

Initially it was really horrible + terrible. I lost 2 to 3kg in a week or so. Not able to stomach any meals. Life-less - work, home, work, home. It was pretty bad.

BUT! Good news! I can bravely say now I SURVIVED! Though not the best. Still lots to learn. But others are accepting this inexperience me. The toughest had past. There's still many catching up to do, many things to learn. But at least for now, this introduction chapter of this new responsibility of mine had come to an end. A brand new chapter is starting.

Many a times, I had wanted to quit the job. A pay cut is fine. Since my increment in pay is not that much either. I'm glad I didn't give up.

My previous GM once told me - he quit one of his job previously as he wanted to run away from a problem he faced, but in his next job, he faced the same issue again. So lesson learnt - don't run away from the problem. Face it. Be brave. Thick skin. Then you will grow stronger. And everything will be OK!

Everyone Jia You together ba!!!!

Thanks for all the help. It won't be possible without the people around me.

thanks boyfriend.

you are the best.

2011-08-31T10:41:00.004+08:00

One of my uncle had just passed away. I was wondering to note this down or not. I didnt really have much memory of him and his family. Or rather, he and his family and disappeared too long for me to remember his existence even.

After the phone call that came to deliver the news, I slowly started to recall about this person who share the same bloodline with me. Someone that even boyfriend wasnt even aware of.

I remembered we used to go to his house at Queensway.
The cement raw finishing floor.
The pet cage in the living room on the floor.
Cant remember its hamster or bird though.
The simple layout of the house at ground floor.
The family problem that arises which lead to another broken family in Singapore.
After the sale of the flat, he found another job.
Heard from my mum he even helped us in moving from JE to JW.
Then suddenly, he disappeared.
Not a single word.
I briefly remembered how he looked.
Thin, dark, like my father.
Taller though.

Will this lead to another family argument?

2011-08-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

I hate Sundays.
I miss boyfriend.
I wish Mondays never come.

It will be a tough decisions.
Might not be successful also.
But no harm trying.

2011-08-06T19:47:00.002+08:00

I was bored during my week-long MC stay at home due to chicken-pox and since boyfriend is around, we decided to do something. At least to get my mind off and feel abit productive from the stay at home.

Baileys Cheesecake (no-bake)

I couldn't recall where I gotten the recipe from so not posting it online. However, if any interested, this is definitely a must-try. Even first timer will be able to do this. Its simply so simple. The only troublesome part as of all no-bake cheesecake is to do the base one day in advance. For future, I would most likely increase the amount of Baileys and use warm water for the gelatin instead of cold water. Its basically a very light and smoothing cheesecake with a hint of Baileys.

Beside this, I had only been rotting away and watching drama online non-stop for the past few days. According to my auntie and boyfriend, my chicken pox is really little and small. Hope its really due to the medicine because I dont want to have a second time chicken pox. The itch is still bearable due to the anti-itch medicine. However, it will be tough adjusting back to work after this long break. Review on Wednesday to see whether I can go back to work. Most of the 'pox' is drying up. And starting to itch and hurt abit more.

Considering to do a chocolate cake or something next since Tuesday is a holiday. =)

2011-08-02T14:34:00.002+08:00

The never-going-to-get-chicken-pox me finally had my CHICKEN POX!

Come to think of it. The first pox might just so started over the weekend. First notice the mega mark on my hand on Sunday actually. But never really thought much of it. It was only yesterday night that I wondered why I have 7 similar looking marks all over me. And also a few red dots. And there you go, a trip to the doctor and confirmed it as chicken pox.

Now suddenly, Im having all these 'pop-ing' all over me. Mega emo. Im so worry about the scaring.

2011-07-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

One week after our anniversay, we had our second road trip to Malacca with my brother and friends. The trip was WAY better than the last. A memorable trip.

Just the drive over was way better. I didnt have any headache nor feel too digusted by the loads of houseflies. And guess what, I bathed in COLD water throughout the whole trip. Because there's no heater in the house that we stayed in.

Also had a super good shopping trip. The shopping center was having a mega sale, ranging from 10% to 70%!!! My most happy buy is a local designer top that was on 70% sales! Mega happy. Then also a few shirts for meeting.

The trip was also full of heavenly tasty local delights and nonetheless, CHEAP! Its cheap compared to singapore currency. Its only in Malacca that I allow myself to enjoy a pot of flower tea with cakes. Yummy. Just the though of it and I miss the food there.

Cant wait for the next trip. It was a good break from work.

2011-07-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

07/07/11 was our 4th year anniversary. Its the longest relationship we both had. And yes, we are still happily together in our own little world and celebrate more 07/07 together.

Looking back, this was not an easy year for us.

We tripped on some stones, pull each other up, clean up the cuts, hold hand and continue to walk together. Not regretting our decisions and backing up each other through the hard time. I guess this is what it meant to be together.

And so, on this every date of 07/07/11, Darren planned on bringing me to MBS and having a nice international buffet at the hotel lobby followed by a walk at the Sky Park. I was a bit surprised by the planning because it was not the normal boyfriend I know of. He's getting better and better at all these.

It was a rather romantic date if you ask me. A good and enjoyable meal at a classy place and a trip up to Level 56 to look at the night view of Singapore. A stay at MBS on the day would make it too prefect. *haha*

I still remember the day he pops the question. Unlike this romantic date, it was in his room, by the window. Though we was more or less together, that question was very important to me. I was officially his girlfriend. And I have a boyfriend to offically call mine.

Someone that I can call anytime I want.
Someone to complaint to.
Someone to cry to.
Someone to share my happiness with.
Someone to unload my sadness.

He shares my tears
My happiness
My tiredness
My frustration

He gave me more than his heart

Thank you Boyfriend.

I might not be a prefect girlfriend.

But I hope in your heart, I am.

A 100/100 girlfriend.

2011-06-28T11:54:00.002+08:00

Mr XX commented that I hadnt update my blog for a very long time. And since Im having one free day at home due to stomach flu, decided to update here. Fulfilling his reading pleasure.. =)

Work was usual. Crazy but still, getting abit immune and adapting the 'do-all-i-can' tactic. The to-do list is ever growing, how to meet all the expectations? Can only do what I can within my own means. Im no super woman. I only know the solution when I have met with a similar one in the past. O well.

And you know what, hes making me cry every Sunday. Not the sad heartbroken crying. But the touch-your-heart-deeply cry. Somehow, for the past few Sundays, we had been having these conversations on how we wont leave each others no matter what. Having abit of down-ness due to some stuffs but he assured me time and again he will be there. It was important to me. Though I have everything else, he's support meant more than anything. Only he's able to make me secure in this insecure being of myself. He touched not only my heart, but my life too. That stubborn-bad-temper girl is now less stubborn less bad temper.

Dar, thank you.

You made me complete.

Nothing else will change this.

2011-06-05T22:05:00.003+08:00

The past week was bad. Because I have to eat all my dinner x 5days all by myself! Boyfriend was busy with camp due to the new batch of trainees. Felt so lonely. And worst, eating for the sake of eating. Dont enjoy a single bite at all.

Its a first.

I never felt theres a problem with dinner alone, especially since I will just buy home. And having not have dinner on weekdays previously due to school seems pretty normal to not have homecooked food. But this time round was bad. Felt so alone. And life-less. Boyfriend laughed when I told him, because he was my dinner-mate for the past few weeks.

Finally on Friday we had something nice. Refused to OT too!

Went gym on Saturday. Felt better. After sweating and just steaming myself in the steam room. Cooked dinner and pop over to boyfriend's house to rest. The bed is really super comfy! Slept all the way. Phone rang but never got woken up. A rare thing. And slept till 11. Another rare thing.

I drag tomorrow.
There's a 'war' in the afternoon.
Not like each day is not a fight on its on already.
*sigh*

2011-05-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

Its the 4th week this week.

Everyday is still as crazy as ever. But luckily with more people coming in, the burden on me is lessen-ing. Time to concentrate on organizing and preparing to settle down on this. Like what my colleague told me, I still have some time to adjust because I still can use the excuse that I'm new. But how long others can be forgiving and overlook this? Not too long. Being young and inexperience doesnt help.

Today I heard this conversation. Someone in another department was trained for two years before this role was given to her. And two years later, shes pretty successful and comfortable with what she is doing. Its a total different case. I cant help but question whether this is the right choice or not. Its a good experience, but am I really up to it?

So far everyone had been encouraging. But how far will this goes? Eventually one by one, they will not be as forgiving.

Boyfriend had been very encouraging. Without him I doubt I can walk this far. Its the thought of knowing he's waiting for me to end work that kept me going for the past three weeks. And with all the late nights, we both felt sick. Recovering now, but still as tired as ever.

Hopefully everything can settle down soon so that I will have more time for other stuffs. I miss going to gym.

Dar, thank you for being there for me and pull me through this period. I really appreciate and thankful you were there to cheer me up. To listen to my compliants everyday. To tell me to jia you. It was really sweet of you. You didnt have to come down all the way, but you did. Sorry for making you worry. I promise I will take care of myself when you arent around.

2011-05-15T22:26:00.002+08:00

Im filled with tonnes and tonnes of happiness this week.

Since Monday, boyfriend had been accompanying me for dinner every single day. At first I thought its purely because he's free in camp. It was only these two days then I realize its because he wants to make sure I have my dinner as I hadnt been having proper meals for quite awhile and its doing no good to my gastric and weight.

I love the feeling.

At work I would need to handle quite abit of stuffs. But once I stepped out of the office, I'm his. Just his silly girlfriend still. Nothing of that changes. This is what they call 'xiao nu ren' I guess. =)

Happiness is really just so simple.
Little gesture to show you care.

Someone told us he's envious of our relationship.
Our reply to him is this:
'This is what you see on the surface, but underneath it are disagreements and struggles that no one really sess or understand. But we do love each other. And as a respect for each others, we do not throw temper at each other in the public.'

We are really two very lucky individuals.

2011-05-03T23:01:00.002+08:00

My life had been pretty exciting recently.

It was so exciting that Im getting nightmares again.

Work had been crazy since last week. New role, new duty. I cant say I can do a very good job in this, but I will definitely try my best. Thats the very least I can do. Theres many people who are very supportive and encourage me to take this up. I worry about the sudden increase in responsibilities and the well-being of others. I worry whether am I good enough to fulfill the gap. Its an overnight thing which theres no time for response, to rearrange. All theres left is surviving on a day-to-day basis and try to do as much as possible, till I manage to handle things on my own. Hopefully everything can settle down in 3 months. Theres normally how much one will take to adjust to a new environment. Wish me luck! =)

Had a short cooling off period with boyfriend. Dont ask me why, dont ask me what happen. Its over and the why is not important anyway. Whats important is that we are still good and together. It was a painful period for me, but I managed through with the constant sms and dinner dates with friends. Thank you!! Someone just cant be replace easily. I wont say I cant live without him because eventually we all move on, but I will be in pain without him. I guess to him its the same, thats why we are still together. This is what we want. Hopefully we can get what we want too. *cross fingers and toes*

Mr Gastric had been back to bug me, as such, boyfriend had been nagging again. Since Im back from the trip, I'm pretty sick of butter/jam bread, hence, no breakfast. Lunch is a must as I didnt had breakfast. But half the time, I cant stomach enough to last through the day. Dinner was super late recently due to OTs. Hence, Mr Gastric came back. Its not comfortable. Weird eating hours make me gain weight too! I hate it.

Been spending quite abit recently too. Bought some stuffs from Bobbi Brown that already cost me nearly $200, new dresses from Moonriver (1 for dinner later this month and 1 for work and whats-not), new sunglass from Dior which is already $350, 3 months worth of contact lens. All in one week. Shopping make me feels happier. Retail therapy I guess. Thats the only way to tell myself that working is worth it. Sad right?

So ya, basically, my life had been a super happening rollercoaster. Interesting huh? But I doubt anyone will want this. Hopefully 3 months later I can say Im a brave girl because I survived the toughest part already. =)

2011-04-14T16:56:00.002+08:00

I hadn't really think of how to handle it.
Everything happened too fast and before I knew it, I was on the flight to Europe for more than two weeks.
Though its a past event now, but somehow deep inside, it still seems like a present issue. But we choose not to talk about it.
It hurt so badly that I felt so helpless and lost.
I cried and cried. Till I felt emotionless.
Then I lost sleep.
And I cried again.
If he really know me the best, this would not have happened.
Personally thats how I feel.
It hurt most when its the person that you hold most dearly to your heart that is the cause.

2011-03-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

He once told me, think of the happy things, when I was feeling troubled and not able to sleep.

Can I use the same tactic tonight and believe with my heart and soul everything will work out tomorrow?

Please tell me it will. Please...

2011-03-12T08:42:00.002+08:00

Its really busy busy for me. Not with school, but with other stuffs like my patchwork class, baking, spending time with boyfriend, gym-ing and the list goes on and on.

And.. Im flying off to Europe in 14days for 16days. =) Mum paid for the trip, otherwise I wont be agreeing to go. Its freaking expensive! The weather is kinda crazy now, so I still have no idea how much winter-alike clothes I need to bring there. This is prolly the coldest period I had ever went on a trip. Especially to the highest point in Europe. *wow*

I just wish theres more time with boyfriend.

2011-03-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

Chocolate Red Wine Cake

Got this recipe from Food & Travel. A pretty simple recipe, my first time at baking cake though. Yes. My first. Decided to try this since there's a bottle of red wine at my house and none of us drink.

Maybe because I dont like the dryness of red wine, I cant really appreciate this cake. But generally, its a good chocolate cake. Looks and feels heavy, but its actually quite moist. Maybe I didnt use the correct baking tin, hence resulted in the slightly harder edges. Pretty ok for first timer I guess. *comforting self* lolz.

Shall let boyfriend grade this since he likes red wine.

2011-03-06T00:39:00.002+08:00

Tiramisu

I had always wanted to make Tiramisu since we bought 2 coffee liquor from our Bintan trip last Sept. Finally get down to it last weekend. It was a pretty successful first try I must say since its almost gone in one night. But its really not easy nor cheap making this.

Before I decide whether or not to create another blog for my baking collections, shall share the recipes..

Tiramisu Mousse (modified from http://wensdelight.blogspot.com/2009/04/tiramisu-cream-cheese.html)
250g Cream cheese (Philidephia) - thaw for at least 1 hr
40g Sugar
1tbsp Icing sugar
3 Egg yolks
80g Coffee liquor (i use Bailey's)
1/2tbsp Gelatin (soak with 2 tbsp cold water)
250g Fresh cream (otherwise known as whipped cream)
Cocoa Powder for dusting

Syrup (gotten from other recipe) (i had 3 share of this for my 8'' tiramisu and barely sufficient)
100ml hot water with any instant coffee mix of your choice
20g Coffee liquor (i use Bailey's)

For the base, instead of sponge cake, I used store bought ladyfingers. Found them at Candy Empire.

Things to note:
1) Pretty challenging to hand-whipped the fresh cream + icing sugar into cream. Similarly for whipping the egg yolk + sugar into cream
2) A tap too little mousse for a 8'' square tin
3) Any coffee liquor of your choice will be good. Bailey's add a very smoothing effect to the cake that I cant find outside
4) Chilled overnight

This recipe is definitely a keeper. But most likely getting boyfriend to do the whipping for me next time. O ya, for the usual Tiramisu, another type of cheese is used rather than cream cheese. I thought NTUC only carry cream cheese so ended up looking for this recipe, no regrets though as the response are good.

2011-02-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

i'm really happy i found you...

i'm glad i found you too..

2011-02-15T12:52:00.004+08:00

Valentine Day 2011

Its our 3rd Valentine Day together. And like previous years, we didnt really celebrate. Just a simple dinner due to various reasons e.g. poor & rushing service for places that offer V-Day menu. Both of us dont appreciate a rush meal nor under-standard food. No compliant though, as the main celebration for us is our anniversary in July.

But like any couple, I would really love to express my appreciation that Darren makes (and continue to do so) me into a better person.

His endless love
His unquestionable trust
His guardians when I'm lost
His support when I needed that little bit of encouragement
His protection from 'evil'
His familiar scent - Unforgettable
His always warm and assuring hugs
His gentle caring
His nagging that warms and irritates me both at the same time

He also taught me to be more social
More caring
More forgiving
More loving
More happy
More strong
Less emo
Less fussy
Less angry
Less stubborn

And most importantly, to have more FUN!

I never knew I can be so happy.
He taught me the real meaning of enjoying life and living it to the fullest.

Dar, thank you for coming into my life and allowing me to enter yours too.

my prefect man

2011-02-05T14:44:00.002+08:00

I finally bought a pair of boots! From Aldo. CNY shopping.. Its almost half the budget that boyfriend allows me to purchase at. So I'm really happy with the purchase. The original pair I wanted is from Ecco which cost over $300. This current pair is $180. There goes my extra pocket money from CNY. Now I just need to get some leggings and I'm good to go to Europe!

Yes. The sole reason why I wanted a pair of boots is for Europe. Vain right? But how often you will fly to such a fair away country?! Even if I cant buy any branded bags back (though I'm sure to at least get one), I have pretty photos! So I'm determined to travel in style this time. Boots, trench coat, dress, leggings, shorts. The typical style you cannot really enjoy in the warm weather of Singapore.

And boyfriend promised me we will go to a short getaway to celebrate my official graduation in Nov. *happy* Not sure whether we will get any short getaway in the middle of the year though. Malacca? Or locally? Hmmm..

I have mix feelings about the long trip though. Because it means not seeing boyfriend for 15/16 days. Hopefully they have wireless at the hotels.

2011-01-30T21:47:00.004+08:00

I HAD OFFICIALLY ENDED MY UNI PART TIME (NO LIFE) STUDY ON 27 JAN 11 9PM!!!

Officially because I got my final results only on 27 Jan, 9 pm. Though I had been enjoying my life to the max during the past one month plus, but to do it officially from now on is on a totally different level.

The feeling of waiting for the results 1 hour before was too much for me to take. Upon seeing the results that I passed, the feeling just overwhelmed by the happiness of leaving behind the toughest period that I just cried in front of the computer. Mum cried with me too.

Its the feeling of not ever going back to school after a tired day at work, not having to pull yourself up the bus and train then back home, not needing to stay up late at night till 4am to rush my assignments or write exam notes, not having to give up time with friends, family, boyfriend and myself to academic stuffs, not lossing sleep due to projects, not feeling so tired that I sleep in school, and the list just goes on and on. Having just two days to study for exam is no joke and I'm truly glad that I made it through.

I finally did it.

Graduation will be on 19 Nov 11.
3 days after my birthday.

Really thank all from the bottom of my heart to those who help and support me throughout this two years..

And now, the next biggest thing will be the Europe trip in April!! =D

2011-01-06T20:01:00.002+08:00

I think no one can really understand how carefree and happy I feel starting 2011 (besides boyfriend i guess). Since, truly speaking, he's the one who saw me through the whole period and how stress or depress I get because I dont have time for myself.

And so, I'm really happy I have time for exercise (gym), going home for homecook dinner, play fully on weekends, shopping after work as and when I want and even meeting friends!!

Started on gym and pilates class on Tuesday and it was great! Though I was aching all over after that. But it feels good, alive even! Considering whether to jog later or not.

And my next week is already packed! Dont even have time for boyfriend during weekdays. *evil laugh*

praying hard i pass my last two papers.

2011-01-01T14:16:00.005+08:00

Bye 2010, Hello 2011

sealing the good-bye of 2010 and welcoming 2011

i celebrated countdown with this bunch of wonderful people

Yesterday was really one of the craziest of my 23 years of life. I was never a party animal mainly due to my parents upbringing and also the friends I have surrounding me. Clubbing for the first time just two years ago. Pub was more of a common place to drink for me due to the relax environment. However, it was a rare thing too because most of my friends doesnt party / drink.

Went to this KTV pub which turns into a clubbing area at around 12am. It was FUN! I never party so hard before. It felt good not to be burden by projects, tests, exams, deadlines, research, basically academic stuffs. Thats why I'm welcoming 2011 with OPEN ARMS! I can get close to tears just by thinking about this. I really wont be able to done it without my coursemates, colleagues, boss, family and boyfriend.

Most importantly, I wont had been so cheerful without boyfriend, Darren Lee. He cannot imagine how positively he impacted me.

In the meantime of embracing 2011, 2010 was also filled with happy and memorable moments..

2010 started off with my parents re-vow

Then my cousin wedding to her long-time boyfriend..

In July, we went Tioman to celebrate our 3rd anniversary

In Sep, we went to Bintan to celebrate his birthday..

In Nov, I finally met my polymates to celebrate my birthday

Then a very touching birthday celebration with boyfriend and friends

That same week, we went to USS for the first time

Our last paper in PSB Academy (Henderson Campus)..

Boyfriend finally took me to the Zoo!!

And last but not least, we ended the month of Dec with a trip to Malacca..

2010-12-28T15:50:00.003+08:00

Im 21 + 2

I realized there wasnt any post on my blog regarding my birthday when it was such a wonderful day! How can? So I decided to do an update before the end of the year.

I had never look so much forward to my birthday before I met boyfriend because he is the only one who really make that particular day special. The only special days in a year are our anniversay on 7 Jul, his birthday on 24 Sep and mine. But still, its my birthday that was the 'special' day out of everything. The one day that is fully mine.

Didnt want to go on a shopping spree in order to save some money, we went back to nature and have a walk in the parks linked up along henderson. Though nothing 'wow' it was our first time going there together and the rare times we are away from the noisy and fast pace singapore.

i hv the world so long he is mine and im his

its only on my special day that he cannot refuse to do anything i ask

Dinner was at SanTouKa which specializes in Hokkaido Ramen. I hearts the soup based to MAX! The best I ever had so far locally. Luckily we went early, otherwise we would have a long wait to get a table. And the table beside us are also celebrating a birthday.

love is in the air

Last stop of the celebration was at this KTV pub that we went previously where boyfriend's friends went frequently and one of his polymate works there. A very relax and cozy environment. I enjoyed having fun with them and even drank abit more than usual that day. While, its my birthday!

Boyfriend surpised me with Spike-D from Big O. Which his friends specially went to Town to purchase as its only available there. It only took me a lick off the 'happy birthday' decoration to guess the cake and I have it hit-on. Amazing right? Its the best durian cake at an affordable price. And its also my wish to have a birthday cake.

he was singing a string of birthday songs via the KTV

his friends who celebrated with me

It was really an amazing day and I was feeling kinda down after 12pm because it was no longer my day. But it was a day well spent and truly special to me only. Somehow each year there will be these little things that he will do to make me feel special in the midst of everyone else surrounding us. It was my first time having birthday song sang in front of so many strangers.

Pior to the actual day, I had two celebrations with my colleagues at work and also with my polymates. Had Sushi Tei and cake with colleagues and a Korean dinner with polymates.

Besides my 21st birthday, this is by far the next biggest celebration I had. And I felt 21 again! =D

he made me felt special
really special to be treated this way

2010-12-27T20:35:00.003+08:00

Had a small trip with boyfriend and his friends and my brother to Malacca, Malaysia. Total damage to the bank account was large but was an enjoyable trip overall. Not only did it brought us closer (some of us never see each other before the trip), it bonded boyfriend and me too!

I dont know what I can do or say to tell him how much I love him and how proud I am of him. But I am. And very.

Food was cheap and good. Shopping was good but not that cheap. But managed to bought a pair of heels. Seriously considering to wear dress to work. =X Maybe I will feel happier then.

I cant wait to go on another trip with them. =D

On the other hand, 2010 is ending soon. We will be welcoming 2011 in a week's time and yet theres still no convrete plan for the celebration! -_- But it doesnt matters so long its with boyfriend.

In 2011, I will be starting on gym once a week, taking up patchwork lesson at CC once a week, baking and hopefully get a change of job. Gonna give myself at least a year to rest mentally and 'upgrade' myself in other aspects such as lifestyle. At the same time, I looking forward to NATAS fair in Feb!!! Going to Europe and hope they have some good deals. It will be a 2 weeks trip.

In Jan 11 I will be getting my results. *nervous*

2010-12-20T22:21:00.002+08:00

Since the day I finished with my last paper, it had been fun-filled weekends BUT dead-bored weekday nights. Theres nothing to do at home and I felt 'useless' lazing around after work.

Today, finally made a trip to the CC and signed for up a handicraft course - Patchwork. Those sewing type and oldies blacket.. Cant wait for it to start.

Similarly, gonna make reservation for my gym assessment and start going for my gym lessons in Jan 2011.

For the time being, just gonna slack around as theres really nothing to do! On the otherhand, gonna take this 2 weeks to tidy up my work-stuffs.

Think the patchwork and gym gonna keep me busy for quite awhile. Will try out the different yoga classes they have.

Feeling better now that I know I wont be slacking all the way..

Going over to Malaysia this Christmas weekend with brother, boyfriend and boyfriend's friends.

But nothing yet for countdown..

2010-12-11T09:38:00.002+08:00

Monday is my last paper to my degree programme. Its a love-hate feeling.

Love because Im finally finishing my part time education. And thats a VERY big deal because it means I have more time for everything else, like meeting friends, going on dates with boyfriend, meals at home, going crazy at night and doing whichever things I wanna do but got on hold because I need the time to rush my stupid and ever-growing amount of assignments.

Hate because I wont be seeing my sweetest coursemates, having dinner together and bitching about the useless lecturers we have.

On the bright side, we can always meet after work! =D

Gonna party hard after Monday's paper. And lots of gatherings to organize thereafter. Then going to Malaysia during the Christmas weekend, staying at boyfriend's friend's relative's house. They have their own vege and durain plantations!! Looking forward to it.

Sadly, boyfriend need to stay-in everyday..

But, his room is ready soon. As in REAL soon. Our bed is coming in today. I cant wait to sleep on the new bed. No more uncomfy and backache the next morning..

-i dont support you who support you..

and who i support?-

2010-12-04T12:22:00.002+08:00

2 Bad news & 1 Good news

The bad news are:

Boyfriend is at the Zoo without me & its raining

Good news:

I'm at home

He went to the zoo WITHOUT me!!! Wt*.. But on the bright side, its raining! And who wanna go to the zoo on a raining day. *evil laugh*

But the worst part - he gonna book-in tomorrow at 7:30pm. Which means, I only have slightly more than 24hours with him, of which 8 hours we will be sleeping. So technically, it left us with less than 24hours. This is bad.

And tomorrow morning, we need to wake up early to go Q at IMM Starhub for iPhone. Yes, Im getting one. Because boyfriend wanted one, so I decided to get the same phone with him. So dont comment about it.

I seriously cant wait for exam to be over and party at night. Thereafter will be planning all the stuffs I wanna do but postponed / didnt do because of my studies. Gave up too much to complete my degree programe asap.

And forgetful me, had yet to blog about my birthday this year. It was a blast! =D

2010-11-26T20:54:00.002+08:00

I wasnt happy today.. He 'dumped' me again for his campmates. Im really upset about it because I only get to see him on the weekends when he is off from his duty. While they see him everyday. And today, he chose to continue spending his 'after office hours' time with them rather than me. When he agreed to meet me for dinner.

I cried.

Through out the whole week, this is the only activity I look forward to. The only thing I work hard for. But all Im left with this weekend is being alone. Fyi, he's going oversea this weekend. So basically I wont see him till next weekend if he decides not to make time for me.

I hate it everytime when he 'dump' me for his friends or campmates. I mean, come on. Was it not a common understanding to spend time with each other once a week. To at least inform beforehand. I felt dumped. I felt unwanted. I felt lonely. And he didnt understand.

Im so pissed and upset till I went FB and saw the picture we took during my birthday celebration mid this month. Happiness was basically reflected from the picture. It brought a slight sense of warmth to my heart. But still. I cannot understand why I am being left out today. F all the agreements and promises.

Writing this entry make me wanna cry even more.

Try putting yourself in my shoes and feel what Im feeling. Its not like I will feel any better if you left me alone. It doesnt always work that way.

Loving someone gave them the power to hurt you
But the hurt are not physical.
It cant be seen
It cant be understood by others
But its there
The pain that slowly eats you from inside
The loneliness that make you lonely even when you are surrounded by friends
How can you protect yourself from this?
If you did,
You are not giving your significant ones your entire

How contradicting

2010-10-31T20:54:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend's brother is ROM-ing soon with his girlfriend. Hence, boyfriend&sis is swapping room with the brother. Which means boyfriend is shifting back to his original room, the room where we spent most of the early part of our relationship in, the place where we became official.

Because of this, we decided to purchase a new bed, as the current one is not in good condition. And being me, I will get uncomfortable from sleeping on it. Though it doesnt come cheap, I think its a good investment. Plus, boyfriend loves to spend most of his bed laying on the bed, hence a good bed will be better for his back. And also, a new cabinet for clothes.

I cant wait to make the room a cozy one! We are already planning of the stuffs to get once we get more financial stabilize. Wireless surround system, TV console, wii accessories, a new dust bin, and some other accessories...

I think its worth saving up on others stuffs to make the room cozy and more comfortable. Partly because we can save money by staying at home and also, we both like having friends over for gathering. And this room will be the prefect place.

O yes. I collected my new ring.. PRETTY!! And it fits really well. But my phone cant capture the beauty of it, hence, didnt upload any photos. Wait till I get my new camera. =D

I was never a bling-bling girl. Mum brought me up brainwashing me that bling-blings are a waste of money as the value drop once you purchase it. It was boyfriend who make me appreciate and love it. The first bling-bling he bought me was for my 20th birthday, months after we got together. I'm great for his thoughtfulness. Ever since he had gotten me another two bling-bling. Its his way of pampering me because he knew I will never purchase one myself. And now, I love it. Appreciate the work behind a good cut and design. Now I know why they say bling-blings are a female's best friend. Thank you boyfriend.

2010-10-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

You know what? I'm in love with the SK shop at JP2, especially with the store manager, Marcus Chan. Love him! Not the romantic way of course.

Went there yesterday to polish my necklace and ring and ended up chatting with him for half an hour! After learning that diamond value will increase instead of decreasing like it used to in the past, decided to drop by with boyfriend to see whether is there any new design and to upgrade, taking it as an investment. An expensive investment!

Took a long time to choose my new ring. Hard to find one that please me, till the point Marcus seems a bit scare of us. =X But I need to find one that I like! Ended up we took the ring that he suggested. A diamond resting on 4 heart-shaped crown with heart-shaped at the side of the base. Pretty special. The other one he recommended, I found the base looking like an ice cream cone and the diamond is like a scope of ice cream.

He's customer service is really really good and wonderful! Both of us like him. Whether its marketing strategy or not, at least we seems to really wanna find the best item that suit me. And met all my fussy and funny requests.

Going to upgrade the ring again next year. Cant wait!

2010-10-05T12:35:00.002+08:00

Had a trip to A&E on the wee hours of Monday morning due to back ache. Doc say its a muscle sprain. Gave painkiller. It didnt got any better, even got worst. So mum took me to a private clinic. This time round the doc say its gastric flu, coze I vomited, no appetite, tummy damn bloated and I'm having gastric. -_- useless a&e doctor. =X

And guess what. Darren nagged again. Guess he will be forcing me to eat more now. It felt terrible to have gastric related stuffs. Damn uncomfortable and painful..

sighz..

2010-09-28T22:50:00.002+08:00

This was most likely my favourite photo throughout the whole trip with boyfriend to Bintan (and theres not much photos to choose from!). Surprisingly, I did not took much photos this time round. Was spending more time doing stuffs rather than taking photos.

We stayed at Bintan Sayang Resort, which was a new resort and some parts are still WIP, but did not affect us. What I like was the resort was away from others resorts. Which means we are really away from the crowd. Though there's no nice sandy beach like Tioman, but the short travelling distance (1 hr ferry and 20 mins drive) win over BIG TIME!!! I will go Bintan anytime without giving much thought about it! Food was reasonably priced too, I guess this is another advantage when the resort is not those chain resorts or crowd with others. I suspected that the kelong eating place and the resort is own by the same boss.

This time round we did snookering which we saw more colourful fishes as compared to Tioman, sunset by the sea, had my first fishing experience which I really caught fishes!, suntan by the pool for an hour plus each day with a book I brought over, relaxing in the big bathtub and also BBQ-ing oversea.

It was a good experience and really an enjoyable trip. Staffs were friendly, food was good (i ate alot there! more rice than I had in Singapore), room was clean and boyfriend let me bought a teddy bear! =D

Cant wait for my next getaway.

2010-09-24T22:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND!!

Though his birthday, there wasn't much of a celebration besides telling him happy birthday at 12am and dropping him a message on FB.

And nicely, today is also the day of his POP whereby his parents got to put on the 3rd SGT rank on him. I'm so proud of him. Plus, he got the Honors Award as 2nd best performing personnel in his course. *wow* He's my man!! =D

But poor him got sunburn from the hours of rehearsal over the past two days just for the 1 to 2 hours today. But still. I love my man in uniform. Look so smart and emitting a sense of pride.

Got home to rush my assignment. Planned to cab down to his house after Im done with my assignment so that I can optimize my sleeping time. And I'm back to my routine of chicken essence in the morning and coffee at night to last me through the day. Damn tired to rush assignment till 4am in the morning. -_-

I cant stop telling you how proud I am of my boyfriend!!!!

By the way. For this retreat, mum knows Im going with boyfriend. Not a big response of rejection. *heng* I feels better not having to hide from her Im going oversea with him. No worry. He will surely take care of me just like always. But I have no idea how much to bring over!!! *hope the money is sufficient*

Dar, happy birthday. I know today is tiring for you. Rest well tonight and we shall relax over the weekend as a present to ourself.
A little wish from me to you : be good to yourself (and of course to me). And regardless, I will be by your side. (and I know you will do the same to me). May everything you do be smooth sailing!

2010-09-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

Its already 23rd Sep! Another 2hours plus and its officially boyfriend 23rd birthday! Its also his Sgt POP. =D I'm so proud of him. Thereafter, we are going oversea to celebrate his birthday.

As for me, Im rushing assignments like mad. This semester the assignments are CRAZY! But I'm trying my best to finish as much as possible before going for the short retreat with boyfriend.

Work is getting slightly better. At least now we have time to breath.

Faceliciouss is also currently on its way to make profit. =D

And, I passed my previous exam! *happy*

Another exciting news, planning a long trip next year!

2010-08-22T15:54:00.002+08:00

Im done with my exams!!! *pray hard that i pass all*

During this 2 weeks of the exams period, I kept asking myself what is it that I really wanna do in my life. I love baking, but am I good enough to sell what I bake? Can I earn enough from what I bake? Sarah and I are considering this and thinking to give it a try next year. Boyfriend was rather supportive. Instead of saying how unpractical it is, he asked me to start saving for our mini-venture. Sarah's dad was supportive too. But till then, we can only plan and try the recipes first as we still have another 4months of school to go.

If the mini-venture works out, good for us. But do I wanna quit my job and do that fulltime or parttime? Otherwise, should I get another less demanding job so that I can enjoy pleasure in doing what I really like?

O well, really need to think about it. And weight it against my ever-growing-living-expenses.

On a more light-hearted note, both boyfriend, Sarah and ah boi commented my skin got better. Just in less than a week. Its money well spent! =D Did masks almost everyday, and bought new products from Skin Food which I suspect is the main factor for this improvement. They have this moisturizer that is really very hydrating for my skin. And also the various masks, collagen, tightening of pores, removal of impurity, hydrating. And the best part? NONE of them requires more than 10 minutes of my time! I did all of them in the bathroom along with my hair mask / hair treatment. This is what I call lazy-but-still-wanna-be-pretty. I cant stand doing facial mask that need me to lay on the bed for 20 minutes. The masks that I got from Skin Food are mostly massage and rise off, or massage and leave for 1 minute, the most, massage and leave for 5 minutes. How cool is this? But, I would need to spend 2 hours every month doing my facial at Asian Skin Solutions! O well, at least theres massage invovle and I know my skin and eye bag will be better thereafter.

Boyfriend wasnt happy of the amount of money I spent recently on my face. But he cant deny theres improvement.. *evil smile*

Time to save money and do what I wanna do..

O ya, went Iguana with Sarah and her potential bf right after our last paper. Damn cool! I wanna do it more often. Then we went to find boyfriend camp people across the river. Crazy bunch of people, but its enjoyable. First night life in almost a year. I dont really drink but I enjoy the atmosphere. Give me my life back!!

2010-08-13T00:28:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend is currently staying-in again. A one month plus sgt course. Thereafter, his pay and rank will rise! But, I will have to endure this change of not able to contact him as and when I like. I used to be able to call him any time I want to when he got promoted to instructor. Now he's back as trainee, I cant do that. *sighz*

*army boy's girlfriend in the making*

O well, gonna study hard for my exam too. 3 papers.

Recently got very into trying freebies and finding ways to make my skin better. And Sarah was my buddy in this. =D We love taking freebies and trying them. Thinking to make a webby out of this.

And, I just signed up for another package - facial. From Asian Skin Solutions. Boyfriend is complaining about the number of packages I'm currently having, or rather, a sudden interest in them. First my Amore Fitness 1-year package and now, a 5-session facial package. Hopefully they will have the effect it claims to have.

Amore Fitness : Wanna tone and slim down abit after my degree coze I put on and lost my 'figure' during studies, especially exam period and all the late nights. Wanna tune it back and be more healthy. And more exercising since boyfriend is so activity type.

Asian Skin Solutions : I'm not bless with good skin, and I know it. Had been spending quite alot on my facial products in fact, with all the The Face Shop and Skin Food products, I can most likely buy a Burberry bag already. Still finding the correct and suitable way to 'treat' and maintain my skin. Hopefully this will help. Half-believing what the staff said, I signed up for half package. *cross fingers*

Hopefully the money will be well-spent. I don't find trying since money can be earn back, but I just hope things will improve. And I seriously feel that I might be getting into some money issue soon if I continue the way I'm spending now. There's an increase in my expenditures recently. Maybe with all the sales going on. Otherwise I will really think there's something wrong with me, coze I don't use to spend like this.

Boyfriend booking out tomorrow. But I will only be able to see him on Saturday. I miss him.

Suddenly have this urge to try new stuffs to earn extra $$. But kinda tie down with my studies now. Gonna re-plan what I want in life. Think its time to try something new so that I wont have any regrets in the future.

2010-07-31T21:30:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend went puket with his family over the weekend without me and bought me the two items above made of glass. I saw the hermit crab first coze he actually bought to camp with him. While unwrapping the bigger present at his house, I was quite shock to see a rose. He knows how much I love them, but how unrealistic it is to keep buying it. And this is the second FAKE rose he bought me. The other one was the one in Hong Kong. Both made oversea. *love* More to come?

And it was really sweet of him to come online both nights to chat with me. He must had knew how lonely I was in Singapore without him.. And the things he said. Though it seems like something that will happen, but having him mentioned it first for the first time was very heart warming. Assurance. Confidence. Basically.. Love..

The past few weeks had been rushing assignments. This semester's assignments are all heavy, so had a rather difficult time to finish. Lucky I had a very supportive and good team to encourage each other through this. Of course, boyfriend supported me in this way too.

Exam is coming after National Day. 3 papers. Thereafter, a week of break before 2 more modules and I'm done with school!!! The thought of having all my time with boyfriend is very very tempting.

And today, I went for a trial lesson with Charlene at Amore Fitness. Signed up for a one year package at $63 per month for 48 session a year. Estimated to be once a week. A good start for beginners like me. Charlene also signed up for it. But will only activate the package next year after I finish with my schooling. I really cant wait for it. It was a aim / goal / wish of mine to join such a fitness club and go on a regular basis. And I DONE IT!! Affording something I want to do.

After the session today went to do some shopping and bought a pair of unique heels and a simple dress. And something for boyfriend. Im such a good girlfriend right? *wink*

For now. I should be a good student and study for my exams. =)

Dar. I really cant thank you enough for all the things you done for me and for us. I felt safe with you. I no longer can imagine my life without you as you had really entered into my life and become part of it..

2010-07-17T11:23:00.007+08:00

2 weeks ago, boyfriend and me marked the 3rd year of our relationship. Now we are into our 4th. Amazing isnt it? It never fails to amaze me everytime I think about it that I had been with him for 3 full years. 3 years of fun and laughter. 3 years of feeling loved and that I'm worth it. 3 years worth of time someone spent on me. Wow~

But we still have many more years to go, so I think I will continue to be amazed by this. *big smiles*

Really appreciate the things he had done for me. Whenever I felt down or going to give up, he will support and assure me that we will go through these together. Everyone said he's a sweet guy. Yup, he is. But only to me. Because I'm his girlfriend. =)

Need I say more?

He's my world and everything. I admit I cannot do without him. But if I can, why do I need him? So stop telling me how much I relay on him. This is what girlfriends are suppose to do.

Likewise, I'm his queen. The boss and has the biggest say in his life. Thats what I had been brainwashing him about. *evil laugh*

I'm loving it..

2010-07-04T02:43:00.002+08:00

Its 2:43am now.. why on earth am I still awake?

Ans: coze i hvnt study for my test on monday!!! wth..

Anyway. I packed my bag for the trip already!! But just checked the weather forecast on Yahoo! and it says that there will be thunderstorm during the period I'm there! Really hope its not true..

*pray hard*

And so, now I'm thinking weather to re-pack my clothes. Coze the clothes I packed are for sunny weather.. Hmmm.. But I will have a jacket with me.. And.. I dont really have much t-shirt actually..

Cant wait for Wednesday to come..

2010-06-30T22:58:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend suddenly tell me that he has a class gathering with his sec 5 class on 6 Jul 2013. Which is 3 years away from now.

And..

He's bringing me along!

I asked whether I need to go with him, and the 'yes' 'of course' he gave is so assuring and sweet!! And he said they promised to bring their partners, attached or married. So I ask him whether he's going there attached or married. Or he wanna propose to me there.. =\

He made my heart feel so warmth. The assurance that we will still be together 3 years down and even longer than that!!! How touching.. *smile big big*

I love love my boyfriend.

2010-06-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

Our face hadnt appear on this blog for a long long time. And it happens that this is my latest favourite couple photo with boyfriend. Its everywhere. On Facebook, handphone wallpaper, laptop wallpaper. Constantly seeing. We just look so loving and sweet! and I dont look fat!! =D

Anyway, life is hectic. Though its still the usual - work, school and boyfriend. But the degree of the hectic-ness increase by quite a bit. Assignments got more difficult and I just dont have the heart and strength to do it. It doesnt help that brother had broke up with his girlfriend and had been spending more time with him. And some how I think the endless lessons got on to us. Work-wise, people are quitting or soon in the process of. New colleagues will be joining us, but still, no matter how experience, it takes time for them to feel comfortable and adjust to our site. As for boyfriend, I really wish I have more time for him. I feel so bad that he accompany me through the weekend nights doing nothing even though he himself is sleepy, all because I have assignments and notes to go through. Really feel very bad towards him.

Just another few days, we will be together for full 3 years. Amazing it isnt it? Him and me. Two very different individual, went through all odds and came this far. Till this date I am still very very amazed by this relationship of him and me.

Having a some trip soon. Hope it will be good and enjoyable.

2010-06-06T01:22:00.002+08:00

Had been having headaches since thursday. Imagine how horrible I felt for the past few days. Sleeping with a headache and waking up with one.

Planning our short getaway in Jul. =) thats the only thing I looking forward to. Thereafter, its rushing of assignments and exam in Aug. Just a bit more, I keep telling myself. Just a bit more and all this will be behind me. And I can enjoy to my fullest.

Very tempted to do something to my hair. Most likely the usual, rebond and highlight. Decided to stop going to Chapter 2 for awhile and try the household kind. Way cheaper.

Work is ok, but in a span of 2 months, 3 ppl resign. More or less affected. But o well, we shall see how it goes.

2010-05-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

Today is the second time that I broke down at work during my 3years stay at my company.

The last time I did was during the initial stage of a new project. And job scope was unclear, and no discussion on who is in charge of what. And theres too many uncertainity and a super lousy project manager.

This time, it was more complicated. Abit of this and that, and I broke down. I called boyfriend and he was comforting. I managed to smile thereafter. But having to go back and answer to other people of my mood is a thing hard to deal with. I never learnt how to deal with my true feelings with other people. So I broke down. Very automatically.

A break will only be a temporary solution.

I can hide my mood pretty well if you let me. But I wasnt allow to..

Strangely, I didnt felt useless for breaking down. But rather, anger. Anger for letting these happen to me. Anger for letting these happen.

2010-05-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend had fallen sick.. And its aching. The last time he was sick was when he's still in Tekong. One of the weekend after outfield, he had a really bad fever, but recover just in time to book in again. But now, he's delaying his 'sickness' from fully developed and hence unable to recover from it. Just delaying and pop-ing panadol. Which actually I disagree with. Anyway, finally managed to pester him to stop going camp tomorrow and see a doctor. Heard theres a flu virus runing around in his camp. Quite a number of his trainees already got the bug and fallen sick. It really aches me to hear his sick voice..

2010-05-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY did some shopping!!!

Went Bugis with boyfriend yesterday afternoon. Just in a short afternoon, I bought 4 tops (3 of which from Moonriver), 2 heels (1 normal formal type, 1 open toe), 1 cushion for office and 2 bikinis!!! And the best part? Most of the stuffs are having discounts!

Moonriver is having 20% storewide + 10% additional for members. I was just trying my luck to drop by and see whether they are having any offers. Very frequently during long weekends, they will have this 30% storewide for members. And I met my favourite sale person there! She still remembers me. And I have 2 staffs out of 3 attending to me and commenting whether it looks good on me or not (coze boyfriend hadnt reach). As usual, point, try and pay. But something additional, they took more tops for me to try. Love going back there.

2 heels from Americaya. And, BHG is having 10% - 20% sales!!! And of course, I grad them off the shelves! Lucky boyfriend was there, otherwise I would have bought more because their heels are just simply so comfortable! Bought 1 normal, formal looking type and 1 open toe type which has a ribbon in front. Cute.

After failing to convience boyfriend to let me buy another pair of heels, we went over to Bugis Village. And after walking round and round, I top 1 knitted top! Oversize and skin colour. Can go well with anything. *loves*

Last stop for the day is at Iluma. Didnt expect to buy anything there, but ended up getting 2 bikinis. And also one message cushion!!! Made boyfriend pay for it because I charge too much to my card that day already. *evil smile*

Thats about all of the things I bought yesterday. Rather fulfilling until Boss called and Im required to go to site for work. -_- Kinda spoil my day. But the good thing was, I dont need to go back down today.

After re-watching Enchanted with boyfriend just now, we conclude:

Princes are stupid. Knight are clever. Thankful that boyfriend is my knight.

2010-04-26T23:33:00.002+08:00

Enjoying my 2 weeks break away from school right now.

Though suppose to enjoy, work was horrible. Had been going on site due to some issue, hence no time in the office for paper work which I'm suppose to clear. In addition to that, no time and energy to organize the stuffs to teach and handover to the new girl. Felt kind of guilty. But luckily my colleague offered to take over the role. If not because of the dinner dates that I had been having / going to have, I would had most likely ended up going home quite late these few days, or rather 2 weeks. Promised myself that I will not skip any classes the next school term.

And I had came a long way for my degree. I had survived 1 year 4 months of schooling as a undergrad and at the same time work full time with a job scope of project coodinator and handles a few sites, and on top of these, obtain my driving license in March 2010 (after 7 months and $2,200). If anyone is to ask, I personally thing I had achieved quite a bit over this one year that I had transferred over to PCG. Though mutli-tasking so many stuffs at the same time had kind of compromise the quality, but I tried. Rather pleased with it.

25 March 2010, I finally obtained my driving license!!! Yes. I'm able to drive now. And had been driving for a few weekends. I'm so proud of myself. Boyfriend is too! *happy*

Tomorrow I will be visiting the specialist for my ankle. Kind of worry actually. I really have no idea what the specialist will propose and recommend for treatment. Boyfriend is worry too, worry that its actually something quite serious. The swollening started again when I got back to work. Hope everything will be ok in the end.

Its going to May 10 in a few days. And 2months plus later, boyfriend and me would had been together for 3 years! Can anyone believe it? 3 years and we are still so nicely made for each other. =D Planning a trip in July, and hopefully it wont get delay due to my ankle.

And I must really get a bath tub for my house next time!! Loving shower gels..

2010-04-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

I should be studying. But still...

1) I'm still considering to change job or not. Ignoring the situation that two colleagues had resigned, I'm abit lost now. What do I want to achieve in my career once I finish with my degree? Go into safety industry? Or others? B had actually been very kind to me. And I'm really gladful and thankful to him. Knowing my condition, B planned a more desk-bounded job for me. But there is still an amount of walking about, something bf is not really supportive of. I'm still kiv-ing one other job, an option, but nothing is concrete. Its that and an incident that actually started the 'whether-to-change-job' discussion with bf. He agreed too that I can decide later this month again. No rush. Pay was also acceptable now since its sufficient to finance my insurances and left me with some shopping money. Self-sufficient. But there's so many factors to take into consideration too. Can I really adapt to a desk-bounded job? Of course I miss the manicures, heels, pretty clothes and no after-office-hour calls. But a possible pay-cut.. (yet to check)

2) Sick of studying sometimes. There's so many other things I wanna do and learn. Like, I had always enjoyed taking photos of food and write about them. But now, I didnt even have the time nor energy to post them in FB, much less write about them. I wanted to create a blog just for it, memories between bf and me, but still, time and energy. Might sound like excuses to some, but if you are in my shoes, you would have the same experience.

3) I hadnt bake/cook in ages. More than a year to be exact. Yes, that long. And to think I used to bake every weekend. More than one recipes at one go sometimes. Instead of the creator, I'm now the eater. I hate this.

4) Im no longer happy with my life now. Period.

2010-03-21T21:40:00.002+08:00

Life is pretty much in a mess now.

Exam in three weeks.
One assignment due on 8 Apr
Feeling tired all the time
SGH on 9 Apr
Jurong Medical on 27 Apr

Feeling so messy now.

TP on Thursday. Hopefully can pass.

2010-03-09T19:45:00.002+08:00

Around a week ago, I finally went to see a doctor for my aching leg. Actually went to a chinese doctor in AMK as I thought its a sprain or something. He mentioned something about ligament infection. Bandaged for a day.

But it didnt help much and everyone got worry about it. Especially the pain I get after walking for a while. Boyfriend kind of forced me to see a doctor and specialist. Boss offered to send me to the doctor yesterday after thinking and discussing, decided to go as the pain got worst after walking in the morning.

Sent to X-ray and found a crack in my ankle bone. How old is the crack, I have no idea. The doctor is not of much help also. Seeing the specialist at Jurong Medical in a month time. Hopefully not very bad news. And hopefully I can take the pain for another month.

2010-03-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

the famous durain pudding from Swissotel Merchant Court

It was a roller coaster night with boyfriend. But all is well now. And I had a share of a $200 worth of bird nest cooked by boyfriend mother. Feels so love. =D Boyfriend even gave me half of his share. Sweet.

Went Swissotel Merchant Court today to celebrate boyfriend's mother birthday.

And I found a new love...

Their yam ice cream is HEAVENLY!!!! I thought Swensen's was the best, but Swissotel outdo her! Told boyfriend he would have to buy ice cream from Swissotel next time. =D

*us* while waiting at the lobby

2010-02-25T23:20:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year is half way through but I'm still in the festive mode due to the amount of Yusheng I had been eating recently! Yusheng aka chinese salad is only available during Chinese New Year. The mix of preserved vege, fresh vege and sour plum sauce give a very nice twist to the tongue. A good handful of crackers and salmon adds even more excitment to it! And I'm not afraid to have it for supper as its all vege. *loves*

Work was ok. Abit stress now and then due to the sudden rush of approval, arrangement and unpleasant changes. But its ok. I will tide through.

Didnt had school for awhile. But rushing assignments. Had been sleeping at 3am on weekends due to assginments. Hence, normally sleep earlier on weekdays. Otherwise I will age super fast!

Life with boyfriend is getting better. No reason why not. =D But I do miss more time with him.

2010-02-16T22:20:00.003+08:00

Was having mood swing yesterday.

But today. One of my best day in the period of CNY.

Not only did I got to enjoy Astons again, I had a relaxed day with boyfriend and we managed to do two visitings today.

And the day ended with boyfriend cooking instant noodles for dinner.

I love love him.

He always manages to make me feel more at ease and comfortable.

Have another week of break from school and its meant for rushing assignments. 2 group and 2 individual assignments to complete before March. How wonderful!!! -_-

'i will always be by your side'

Is enough to make me fight the world.

2010-02-11T10:11:00.002+08:00

Its 1 day to reunion dinner and I'm sick! Or rather, I had been sick for the past 4 days.

Not my worst sick week, but still, its not enjoyable besides the fact that I can sleep all I want and I really did SLEPT. Its like repaying my sleeping debt. For the first two days, one hour after consuming any form of medicine or food, I will need to sleep for like 2 to 3 hours and when I wake up, its time for another round of medicine or food. I was hardly awake.

Bf came over on Monday, claiming he got half day because I'm sick at home. Don't know how true. And yesterday, he surprised me with a visit while I'm sleeping again. *smile* But I know he's tired. Sorry..

I cant remember what happened for the week. =X

Next week gonna be a busy week.

Sunday - 1st day of CNY, relatives coming over in the afternoon till night
Monday - 2nd day of CNY, going over to Bf's early in the morning follows by my Gu Gu house and Bf's father's side for dinner and till late
Tuesday - 3rd day of CNY, no plans for me. But Bf going visiting. Either to tag along or stay home

Wednesday or Thursday - japanese dinner with bf's camp mates

Friday - Dinner at colleague's house & due date for 1 assignment

Saturday - Polymates coming over my house

Happening? I call it tiring.

Later tonight got to go Hyatt for cousin's solemnization. Due what time I don't know. The thought of dressing up is making me tired now.

Anyway. happy cny! =)

2010-01-31T00:09:00.002+08:00

It had been a week since I last met boyfriend. *sad*

Since the start of 2010, we only manage to meet up less than 24hours each week. Its harder than I thought.

Every sem it never fails to amaze me whole I managed to survive the previous sem.

Just got my results. 1 credit and 1 pass. Not too bad if you ask me. For the module that I got a pass, 30% of the class failed. So its actually a pretty good result. =D *note to self, I think I hadnt tell boyfriend about my results*

Boyfriend having guard duty today. Lonely night for me. 2 hours till his next break, wonder to wait up for him or not. Kind of tired actually. Work had been rather texting and with the daily trip to school for lessons. The stress and load is really catching up on me. And its not helping that I'm not getting enough sleep from it.

For the past few days I even lost my appetite for the whole day. I couldnt remember the last time this happened. Not about to stomach any solid food. Even when I'm super hungry. Lucky boyfriend was tired enough not to deliver food to me.

=)

2010-01-23T19:57:00.002+08:00

Today, both boyfriend and me took another big step in our relationship.

We opened our first joint account together!

Actually planned to do it late last year so that it will start in Jan 10, also to mark 2010. But never got down to it for various reasons, e.g. no time. So today, after months of collecting the necessary documents (actually also not a lot, just our IC and one HP bill), I finally went down to OCBC to hand over the form and documents.

After being together for 2.5 years, I felt its time. Even though the amount is not a lot, its a good start.

*happy*

2010-01-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

I miss boyfriend.

Even now that I only see him once a week. Has conversation for less than 20minutes everyday.

He slight decrease of attention suddenly means world to me. Sensitive you might say. But its really the case.

Just a simple gesture will make me happy.

I hate this period.

2010-01-10T20:44:00.001+08:00

I hate Sundays. Coze its the day that boyfriend will leave me and I wont be able to see him till one week later.

2010-01-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

Bye 2009. Hello 2010!

Countdown was simply spent by having Ma La Steamboat at Bugis with boyfriend and his two poly friends followed by dessert at Chew Dessert at the opposite street. And Wii through the night and reached home only at 2am.

No celebration, no special activity. Pretty 'tasteless' as compared to the first countdown I had with boyfriend. And worst, I was having bad cramp on that day. Shouldn't even have went to work. My first 2 hours at work was spent in GREAT pain. Lucky no guys was around to witness it.

On 1 Jan 10, parents had a re-vow at Jurong Safra. Dinner was not bad. And took the first photo of the year with boyfriend.

On 2 Jan 10. Today. Drove all the way to Joo Chiat to buy 30 mini BBQ pork bun. Real tasty.

Tomorrow. Dinner at The Line. $60plus per pax.

And back to work. Which is a place I want to avoid. Giving me all the stress. And school! -_-

Dar, thank you for standing by me all this while. I'm really thankful for your presence. Of you entering my life and staying by me.

2009-12-27T12:26:00.002+08:00

Long weekend is coming to an end soon. =(

I'm really enjoying myself. Though there's no party to attend, no friends to laugh with, no crazy stunts, but still, I'm contended with simple meals, watching movie quietly with boyfriend by my side, going out knowing he will be home waiting for me, playing Wii with 2 friends pop-ing by, chocolate fondue prepared by boyfriend.

No fuss over christmas.

No mess to clear up.

Been awhile since I felt so at ease with myself.

And boy, do I appreciate boyfriend from being around.

Driving soon!!! =D

2009-12-25T21:07:00.002+08:00

I'm really happy today. It had been nearly 6months since we last catch a movie together. And I had been nagging at him for ages to bring me to the movies. And today we went!!! Avatar. A great movie.

Movies and k-box are two time-consuming activities that we enjoyed doing together but rarely able to fulfill our craving. =D So I'm a really happy girl today.

And I had straightened my hair!!!! And boyfriend really like it.

Never felt so happy in a long time.

Its something that money cannot buy.

Not even when I bought Wii..

2009-12-05T01:10:00.002+08:00

Had been having headaches for the past 1 week. With me pop-ing panadol everyday. Not a good sign.

Nonetheless I survived! And its Saturday tomorrow. Driving, studying and meeting up with boyfriend.

I seriously dislike when there's no reply. Not interested? Just say. Given sufficient notice. My weekend is precious if you hadn't notice yet. I dislike wasting my weekends away!

2009-11-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

Took MC today as I was having bad cramps. A good sign means I'm having my period. But it affected my mood!!!! Made me so emotional. I almost cried yesterday coze boyfriend just booked in and I felt so alone.

Nonetheless, took care of myself while he's doing his part in tekong.

Now waiting for him to call.

And we are taking another step to building our future together. =) Jia you.

2009-11-29T19:59:00.004+08:00

Boyfriend and I really treasure this long weekend as it means we will get to spend a total of 3days together. And its a rare treat since he's serving NS now.

On Thursday after finishing my BCSS course at Hillview, suddenly got the urge to shop for couple-related stuffs and so I dropped by Jurong Point. There's two shops there that carries stainless steel and sliver stuffs. And this is what I got for us... Simple but meaningful to us.

A pair of similar keychain that we can call ours. With our name engraved on it and a half-a-heart on each, it reads 'Darren *heart* Christina' and vice versa. Like stainless steel, our feeling for each other will not rust nor get weaken. With love, they are given from her to him.

And today, he surprised me with this...

Though not drew by boyfriend, its the thought that counts. He got a bunkmate that is good at drawing, and thus, this *point above*. He must had kept this for a week already as he had been looking for photo frame since last week. And he had refused to tell me why he looking for photo frame as he's not one to love taking photo and developing them. Now I know why...

Then on Friday afternoon, we went Ambush @ Jurong Point again. This time with my brother too. We had a really had a very good time enjoying the food and each other company. All the three items we had are from their value meal, average of $20 per pax.

Beef steak (180g). Abit on the high side, but its really good! Very good in fact. Though its between well done and medium, with very little blood, its very tender and soft. Easy to chew and able to taste the sweetness. Unlike those black pepper sauce or mushroom sauce outside, the mustard grain sauce used here does not overpower the original taste of the beef. Instead, it brings out the sweetness. For the fries, its very well done too. Crispy and moist inside. And I love their vege.

Mixed platter with pork knucker. Another amazing dish. Second time we are having this, and the taste still amazes us nonetheless. Thus, its really worth having. Though the serving does not looks alot, its really filling. Mash potato wise, its one of the best I had taste. Note that I dont take potato, but, this is really tasty enough for me to want to finish it. A must have.

Lamb shank. Boyfriend had it and he INSISTED I must have a taste when he knows I doesnt take lamb. What a bully. But I never regret having a bite. It does have the lamb taste, but not too overpowering and the texture is like having very tender and soft duck meat. And by boyfriend standard, its really good, so it must be really good. If you are a lamb lover, can try this.

Though Ambush service is not really that wonderful, but the food is enough to make me overlook that. I even wrote a compliment email over to them for having a consistent standard on their food. There's some food places we went to that had very good food one the first visit, but not so good on the next. So its really a happy thing for me to have a eating place that has consistency.

Then on Friday night, we didnt had anything planned, so shopped at 24-hour NTUC and bought Chocolate Fondue back... =D

Saturday was a studying day at home then I camped over at boyfriend's for a night. Woke up today and had my period. PAINFUL! But boyfriend made it better.

Was a very well spent weekend as we managed to do quite a number of stuffs. *happy* Boyfriend happy too.

2009-11-28T11:05:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it really pisses me off.

But now its not a good time to do so.

I'm piss.

2009-11-25T21:18:00.003+08:00

I'm suppose to be writing my notes for exam. But still, a quick one.

1) I forgot to mention that boyfriend and I had a hear-to-heart talk while counting down to my 22nd Birthday. Was a rare one as he's never the kind of guy that tells me what's on his mind openly. But I appreciate him opening up his heart and answering all my question marks over the years. It was really heart warming but yet touching. Made me cried for like 3 times. Once, when he mentioned how he felt about the saga between Zhan Ke and me, second time when he mentioned the initial part of the relationship was a tough one for him due to the sudden change in his life and third when he sang me my first birthday song on the actual day of my birthday. It made me ache for his warmth for a good one week. But now, there's no longer nothing I not know and nothing he not know. I'm actully happy that the talk happened. Now I know why he quited his dance, why he disppeared for one whole week, and I know why he held my hand for the first time (though for the wrong reason, but it ended up with a happy ending), and 070707 being our anniversay was not by coincidence! I actually thought it was by chance. Actually he had it planned. So silly of me.

2) I'm having my exam in 2 weeks.

3) I really have much less time with boyfriend now he got enlisted. So please be understanding when I put him first on weekends.

4) I just attended and completed my BCSS course. A pretty interesting and enriching course I had. Breeze through the paper. Should be able to ace it.

5) Getting a new maid soon. On 13th Dec actually. Finally. Cant wait to change.

6) I must really really study for my exam.

7) Boyfriend got marksman.

8) Boyfriend gotten us two free meals at Billy Bomber.

9) I gotten something special for the two of us.

10) I can't wait for boyfriend to come back to mainland Singapore.

2009-11-18T20:07:00.002+08:00

Thats something I wanna talk to boyfriend about. But the earliest possible day is tomorrow.

Sighz.

Happy birthday to my dearest brother.

2009-11-15T20:33:00.003+08:00

Its the weekend of the year again! Its yours truly birthday! Same date last year I had 30 close friends and colleagues at my house celebrating my 21st. And the actual day, boyfriend treated me to a heavenly traditional korean dinner off West Coast Road.

This year, the celebration was kicked-off by my new team of colleagues at PCG. My first birthday cake of the year! Was a surprise given by boss. Happy. Its the first time my colleagues celebrated for me. Means I'm pretty good to them ya? haha. It was a planned steamboat dinner at Candy's house.

On Saturday, 14th Nov, I had driving in the morning, then a trip to Chapter 2 for hair cut. And very expensive shopping trip to Watson and The Face Shop! Just in 3 hours, I spent like $450. Gosh. But boyfriend didnt scold me.. hehe

Dinner was with polymates at The Central. Japanese food.

And I received a very special present from Ah Tong. =D Need I say more?

And boyfriend bought me a new pair of earphone that I had always longed for..

Boyfriend insisted on going home on a cab yesterday night. -_- All because its my birthday celebration, he insisted. Then boyfriend's friend called while we are in the cab asking us to go Farmart. And within 1hour, we ended up at Farmart prawn-ing. And I caught prawns myself!!! Aren't I a clever girl?

Manual for Princess Christina style of prawn-ing?

- No bait? Don't worry. Just lift the rod in front of boyfriend and let him do the job.

- Caught a prawn? Congrats! Lift the rob up, and boyfriend will do the rest.

- With a new bait, just continue to look for prawns.

- If in doubt, just call out 'Dar Dar'. And help will be there immediately.

The celebration will continue tomorrow. Which is my actual day. Planned a spa in the morning and lunch in the afternoon. =D

*happy birthday to myself

2009-11-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

First Book Out

Boyfriend finally booked out from Tekong on Friday! But I was having school and very tired from not sleeping the night before, so I only meet him on Saturday. And stayed over for the night. Had a relaxing and fun weekend with boyfriend!

We went Ion and Orchard Central on Saturday! Finally. After having opened for months, we finally went to these two new shopping malls. Had a fun time at the Basement of Ion looking for food..

Our favourites from Ion..

and..

Spent like 30bucks on the finger food at Ion. Bought some home for boyfriend parents too. Then had a horrible time walking around the mall. Abit messy for the floor plan. Or maybe we just not used to it. And I finally visited their toilet. Really very interesting. =D

Then we went to Paragon and found this tiny little place that looks like wine warehouse. Price wise was pretty ok, so we bought 3 bottles of wine from them before heading for dinner and back home. Decided to keep dinner an economic one as we will be feasting next weekend for my birthday. *hehe* Yes. Its the time of the year again!

Headed back to boyfriend's not too late to slack. Pretty tiring. Had a good time chatting with his parents while watching SCV. Then boyfriend's friend came over for a drink while I continue enjoying the SCV.. It was already 1 2am when we finally decide to sleep.

Then we spent the whole Sunday afternoon shopping for stuffs that boyfriend need to bring back to Tekong. I bought ear plug from E-mart too! Met a rather friendly regular there. Maybe we look very lost. Thats why he decided to help out.

Soon its time for us to part...

Actually he looked pretty smart in his No. 4.

5more days till I next see boyfriend..

2009-11-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

Day 10

Heart had been accompanying me through the late night on Saturday for assignment. And also the off and on youtube-ing of a new Taiwan drama. Cant wait for bf to book out on Friday. He will only reach mainland at 8plus at night, hence, I will only be able to see him on Saturday morning after my driving.. So excited!

Been having this terrible headache since yesterday night. Didnt even manage to talk to bf yesterday night coze of the effect from panadol. Hate it. Super moody today coze of the headache.

Bought fish slice noodle back from Harbour Front for dinner. Thats the only thing that I feel like stomaching. So ya... At least I ate something.

2009-10-31T23:07:00.002+08:00

Day 8

Dar, something for you:

勇气

终于作了这个决定
别人说我怎么不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

Rather meaningful at this point of time. =)

Was chatting with bf about HDB just now. Flats are getting so expensive now! Gosh. Then the BTO flats at jurong west ave 2 is in the middle of two MRTs, which is something I dont want. I want to be able to get to one MRT without the need of a bus or walking distance without any shelter. Sighz. I want my own house.

Driving tomorrow. Parking.

More than halfway done with my lead assignment. How wonderful!

Cant wait till you book out...

2009-10-31T02:37:00.002+08:00

Day 7

Exactly a week since bf went Tekong. Seriously, I miss him alot today. I dont know why. Just a hug from him to chase all my worries and stress-ness away. But all I have in accompany with me is Heart the Care Bear which is suppose to represent bf while he serves his duty to our dear country, Singapore.

Trying to do my assignment over this weekend so I have more time with bf next weekend.

Dar, i really miss you tonight. I thought it would be easy, but no, its not. Nothing is the same without you around physically. Even my house feel slightly empty without your presence and laughter. 7 more days, or rather 8 more days till we meet. Our tortoises are getting bigger and bigger.

2009-10-29T22:49:00.002+08:00

Day 6

Bf calls me at least once a day. That what he promised and he did it. =D

Work not really smooth for the pass two days. I wish bf will be here. But like what he told me, its a learning process and at the end, I will be able to learn something. Most importantly, WO KE YI DE! Bf believe in me, so I must also believe in myself. Though bf inside Tekong and cant be around physically, mental support is better than nothing! =)

Thanks dar, for your encouragement.

Taken quite abit of photos, but no time upload. hehe.

2009-10-24T23:46:00.002+08:00

Day 2

Bf called 3 times today and he's coughing. Tekong flu, thats what they call it.

Went Bugis Junction and Iluma to celebrate Tong's birthday. Had a good time with them. And I finished the whole plate of beef fried rice. Not alot in the first place. Bf would have said that, coze the portion would not be sufficient for him. The beef was good, worth the price. Sashimi was heavenly. Closed to what I had in Japan. Hamachi is currently my favourite.

Next up will be my birthday..

But before that, there's two assignments to complete.

Jia you!

Dar, I miss you.

2009-10-24T08:12:00.002+08:00

Day 1 & 2

First morning I woke up with bf in Tekong. He called 3 times last night. Which was a sweet thing. Every chance he caught, Im sure to get a call from him. =) His bunkmate must be wondering why this gf so demanding. lolz.

Sent him off to Jetty only as I need to go to work at Tekong with the next boat over. Was a bit sad to send him off this way. Its the first time we will be separated for such a long time. Felt kind of empty not knowing when the next call will be and not able to contact him when I feel down.

But fear not. I woke up at 7am today and change B-zai and Win-zai tank! It had always been bf job to do so. But today, I took over the role. Otherwise the water might just 'spoil' and our two precious will not like it. Now they are happy with their fresh tank of water.

2 weeks will pass very fast.

And. I still have no idea where to put my 21 Care Bears!

2009-10-04T21:16:00.003+08:00

This blog issn't fill with happiness anymore.

I no longer wrote about our happiness here. But, its starting to fill with all the sadness and heartbroken memories. Today is yet another such day.

I cried on the bus on my way home.

I shopped with no smile on my face.

I ate dinner without speaking.

None of which I normally do.

Why. Why is things becoming this way.

Will another chance solve everything? Or maybe I should just walk another direction?

Its so painful.

2009-09-17T22:22:00.003+08:00

Tonnes had happened during this period that I hadnt been blogging. No longer has the patient to do such a thing anymore. Especially with everyone having Facebook to update each other of our individual life.

Trying very hard at work to handle my guys. And myself.

Very tiring to handle work, school and my own life. Trying to find a balance between of these things that is going on in my life right now. But apparently its hard.

Had a meet-up session with alot of my friends over the past 2 weeks.

With both of us working now, work that tired us alot, I cant help but feel the distance. It kinds of hurt. I teared once not long ago. Over what I cant remember. But it was one of the night that I felt so unwanted. Had we been together for too long to remember that sweetness require to maintain a relationship? Had we been so used to each other that we forgotten the closeness we used to share? Had we been so sure that we will get marry that we keep postponing our rare dates? Had we been so busy that we have no time and patient for each other?

Why I decided to finally 'pen' down all these because I felt like I lost myself in the midst of all these things that are now happening in my life. I had been so busy and tired that I feel kind of breathless now. Maybe he had longed forgotten how much I longed to have a warm homecook meal with him.

I hate it when he make fun of me at times. Especially when its something I put my heart in to do. I tried. I really did.

At the end of a long working day, a night of restless schooling, all I need is a few words of comfort. Or simply, a 'good night'.

Maintaining a relationship is not easy. Not when you are tired.

2009-08-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

Been awhile since I last posted.

Done with my exams and went straight to HK a day after my exam for a 5D4N trip with mum and bf. Was a HUGE damage on my bank account!

Started my driving lessons. Almost every weekend I will be having lessons. It feels good to drive actually. Kind of enjoys the lessons. And so far my instructors are pretty good.

=)

2009-08-11T15:30:00.002+08:00

Blogger FINALLY accept photos again! Goodness.. Anyway, Im having a break away from my notes this afternoon because I dont wanna ended up napping.

the study table of one of the nites. Removed my lappy to reduce distraction. BUT, Jetty is able to go Wi-fi. So it kinda defeat the purpose too! argh

both bf and friend doesnt like this giddles burger from Mc. But I kinda of love it. =X Breakfast for one of the study session with Sarah.

my current fv way of having my corns. Steamed. Sweet!

Lastly, as I was home today instead of out studying, I fried noodles for everyone! Cant really see the noodles from the pic. I swear by dried mushroom and carrot. =D Even grandma like it.

Hong Kong trip is confirmed. Now only waiting for the confirmation of the hotel we are staying at. *loves* Have yet plan all the places to go. Need to spend time on studying the map. SHOPPING! They are having their summer sales right now.

tata~

2009-08-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

Something is not right with blogger hence, no picture for now. And I'm also lazy to upload any photos. Not that life had been interesting so far. Some updates:

a) Follow-up check up at SGH. Got some not very good news basing on the doc's explaination. Not something I would want to write here. Wanna know can ask me. But ya, I hadn't cry over it yet. But I guess I will in the future. =) Be strong ya?

b) 'Offically' off work till end of Aug as I will be having my exams, study break, and follows by a 5D4N free-and-easy tour to Hong Kong. Been there when I was in Sec 1. Memory fading. So going back to make new memories with bf and mum. Yes, my mum is coming along. Not a bad thing though. =)

c) Work was ok. But getting abit stress out.

d) Doc confirm my 'headaches' had upgraded to mirgrains. Which issnt a good thing at all. *sighz*

e) I miss shopping and sleeping. Been ages since I rested. Had been rushing my school stuffs for the past 1 month or so..

f) I really have a very very good boss.

g) I wont be free for meet-ups. Only available on 20th (thursday) for dinner and after I come back from Hong Kong.

2009-08-05T20:04:00.001+08:00

I'm going HK from 21 Aug to 25 Aug with bf and mum. =)

2009-07-31T21:41:00.003+08:00

Why do you not believe what I said.

Why do you have to counter everything I said?

You mean there is a difference between my doctor and the doctors over at your side?

Dont they all learn the same thing in medical school?

I had still not yet decide how to react to the news.

And you aren't helping one bit.

I was touched when you said its ok just now. But now? 180degree change.

Can't you understand the importance of this to me?

Why instead of comfort, I got attack.

Is this how its going to be for the rest of our life?

2009-07-18T02:17:00.002+08:00

Some pictures taken during the concert:

Didnt expect that private cameras are allow so I didnt brought my digital camera along. But still, memories will always be there. *smiles*

Yet another week! Its 0222h now. Just revised some topics that I missed during this week as I woke up super early at 5:30am for two days this week due to work. So ended up I missed quite a bit of school stuffs. Plus I had been sleeping in class again!

Had a mini test today. Hopefully I score.

Exam in less than a month time. Time for notes writng...

And I got my phone back. Love it!

Bf mum cooked chicken rice today. Yum yum.

I miss home-cooked food!

So random. Coze my brain is half asleep...

2009-07-12T11:46:00.003+08:00

Attended Sun Yan Zi's concert yesterday night.

Left the house slightly late, miscalculated the travel time. But all in all, we reached there at 8:30pm but the concert hadn't start so its good for us!

It was a very touching concert. Because you can actually feel that she's at home, at ease. Performing in your homeland does really make a difference. There's 2 or 3 times that I wanted to tear. Touching!

Encored 2 times. Both times she just wore a T-shirt, jeans and boots out.

All in all, the $150 was well spent. Watching a local singer does make a difference as compared to a oversea talet. I wasn't even so touched with Jacky Zhang concert.

*high*

Before the concert, I went Chapter 2 at JP to had a change of hairstyle! Because they are having a 30% off all hair services due to GSS. Good for me ya? I ended up re-curling my hair and highlighting it. The end result is really good. But its not really so kind on my bank account. BUT, at least it pleases both boyfriend and me. PLUS, if theres no 30%, I would never ever highlight my hair!

Boyfriend is now at IMM getting my new phone! Samsung Jet. Woohoo~ New toy on the way!!!

I'm a happy ger.
Who say money cannot buy happiness.
When you have no boyfriend, no friends, money is the only thing that make you feel better. Otherwise why you think I shopped so much back then? *wink*

I love money. But I love boyfriend more.

因为你，我不再是一个人。谢谢。=）

2009-07-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

2nd Year Anniversary
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3 days ago it marked the day boyfriend and me had been walking hand in hand for two whole years. The road wasn't a smooth sailing one, especially the first few months. Even now, I felt guilty of treating boyfriend that few months. But I'm glad we are past that stage.

Sad to say, we never really have a honeymoon period because I was already busy with my studies at that point of time.

We did fight. We compromise, but we do know each other temper and when to take a step back to prevent anything worst from happening. And most of the time I'm the one who make things worst because I have a even terrible temper and impatient nature.

Once when we 'fought' at St James, boyfriend cousin 'shaked' me and reminded me how far we came and how much boyfriend really treasure the relationship.

Both of us had been real busy. But thankfully, we always made a point to meet whenever possible. Tired we are with our own stuffs, working, schooling, family, yet we never forget each other.

It became second nature of family and friends to call us to find either one.

Yesterday we went Billy Bomber at Jurong Point for dinner. A rare treat because we hadn't had such an expensive meal in awhile. And the manager there knows boyfriend as he used to work there and he is also friend of boyfriend's brother. Though not close, he was one of the few people who saw us 'grew' up because we will once in awhile dropped by for a chat with him.

Its all this small stuffs that made 'us' us.

Though there wasn't any celebration. It doesn't really matters. Because so long we are happy together, nothingelse matters.

Dar,
Thank you. I promise I will make up to you once I graduate. We will have a better life 2years down the road.

With Love,
Your Girlfriend

2009-07-04T22:57:00.004+08:00

soon-to-be 2 years

Yes! I can finally upload photos. Finally wrapped up my 2 assignments. 95% there I think. Gonna hand them in later this week. Thereafter, I would need to prepare for exam! Gosh.

Went Bugis with bf today as I wanted to go National Library to do my assignment. No distraction and quiet. A pretty good environment to do assignment and study. Planning to go there next week. But before we went over, had lunch at Bugis Junction B1. Japanese ramen. MOF's ramen is better. So dont bother trying this store.

I ordered their mini-set-meal which consist of a mini portion ramen and rice bowl. But the portion is not mini at all! So pretty much worth the price, no service charge too!

mini sapporro ramen

mini rice bowl (eel)

scallop roll with salad

bf's spicy ramen with thick soup base

Went mini-shopping at Bugis Street after working on my assignment for like 3hours. Bought a shoulder bag! $39 only. Quite cheap. Think from Hong Kong if I not wrong. Mum was surpised I bought a bag of such a price. -_- Must budget! I wanna go Korea shop!

Some quick update:

im burnt from standing at 90m high for 3hours on Friday morning

went Toa Payoh Office for BBQ (my 'home' in CPG FM)

wanting to get a new phone, most likely Samsung

going concert next week

work is piling up

theres cases of H1N1 at my working place but contained and I was on leave when the cases surface. so dont worry, i'm 'clean'

bf cut his hair

2009-06-28T20:19:00.002+08:00

Went with bf to have a 3d2n break away from everything. Just the two of us. Had a last minute invitation to friends and family for a BBQ. Was fun.

Watched Transformer too. Good movie.

Im so used to having bf around. Most of the weekends hes at my place. Taking care of all the small stuffs as long as I do my work.

And I miss him already. Though we only part 1 hour ago.

How am I going to survive when he enlist???!!!!!

p.s. tekong got h1n1. but everything would have tone down when he get enlist in oct. argh.

pics next time.

2009-06-24T12:01:00.002+08:00

24 hours later I will be meeting up with bf for our chalet cum 2 year anniversary!

Im happy because I can finally spend time with bf without having to worry about work or school. Its something rare for me, with the constant assignments, exams and work going on in my life. Plus, we are 2-year-old early next month!!

Been sick whole of last week. A fever that refuse to go away and running nose and cough that is always there. Horrible week, yet I still have to squeeze time to do my assignments. THeres 2 this sem, 1 group work and 1 individual. Both are killer. And damn, missed a week worth of calsses.

Movie, BBQ-ing, rotting, looking at the stars, just being together with each other. Thats all I'm going to do for the next 2days.

For now, I still have to fulfill my position as a student and do my assignment. *clearing leave*

I love not working! =X

bf, i love you.

2009-06-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

Almost two weeks since my last entry. And as usual, it felt longer.

In these two weeks, today is MY-DAY. I passed my Basic Theory Test today, finished within 15minutes. Booked 10 sessions of pratical lesson, there goes S$600. And theres another S$600 in my BBDC account waiting to be spend. My first pratical lesson will start in late Aug, after my trip to Korea.

Work is getting better.

Saw rainbow last Friday at work. The rainbow stretched over the whole Sentosa, looked damn wonderful. The best rainbow I had seen thus far. Sadly, I cant upload the photo I took. =) And in case you are doubting, my site office is really facing Sentosa, their golf course in particular.

Finished all my testes, I bet I will fail one of them.

Shall start on my assignments! Due in a month time.

Counting down to the mini-getaway with bf in less than 2 weeks time.

And I self-invited myself to Aussie in Dec. That is if I have enough cash at that time. Just one 2-way ticket and one luggage and I will be good to go. S$3000 should be good enough for everything.

Schooling tomorrow. *burnt weekend*

Contented. Satisfactory.

i'm not an achiever. it just so happen that i'm doing all these together at the same time. theres also times that i regret doing so many things at a go. but when everything is going smoothly, the sense of satisfactory and achievement cannot be understand by others who hadnt gone through such experience before. but when things did not go the way i want, no one can really understand how disappoint i am with myself.

2009-05-30T23:10:00.003+08:00

Tests next week. 2 super chim assignment this sem due July. But unlike last sem, I do not have the energy to study nor go through the piles of information I had with me.

And this week I only managed to have one dinner with bf. 2 hour max. The time we are together.

Nothing I studied seems to stay in my brain.

On the bright side, mum registered us for the 6D Korea 'Han-Style' Tour Package at CTC.

Its the only tour that attracts me. And the main purpose? Shopping at TFS. Will be setting aside at least 400 to shop there.

I miss not studying..

Restless.