Stood the whole way home wearing my heels! O my god. But then didnt hurt much, is either I'm getting use to it or its a good pair of heels. Cheers to VNC!

Been ages since I had dinner at home. And today, I did. Though just a simple meal, I feel so happy. I really forgotten when was the last time I had dinner home on weekdays.

Was doing the mapping whole of today again, really a big headache.. Sighz.

O ya, lunch was damn good. Had it at TCC. Only I had coze ching was still damn full from her breakfast. And the weird thing was, I had quite a heavy breakfast but got very hungry after awhile. *weird*

Green Apple Twist

I so llllloooooovvvvveeeee Green Apple because they have a hint of sweetness in the sourness (spelling?). Was kind of disappointed that this drink has no sour taste to it, nonetheless, it is very fruity. So ya, just like drinking sweet apple. Very worth trying. Esp if you are not a fan of caffine and would like to chill out at TCC with its wonderful atmosphere.

Crusty Curry Chicken Pattie

Dont remember the actualy name of this main course but its made up of the four words above. lolz. The most bottom layer is mash potato, followed by two chicken pattie with a few cudes of vege in between. The most top layer of vege can just throw away, dont bother eating, very bitter. The curry is actually japanese style curry, was quite surpised by the taste of it, PASS! Kind of like the taste, very japanese curry. And the cudes of vege is just nice, has the taste of the curry but yet not lost its own sweetness!!!!!

Not to forget the mash potato. LOVE IT! Finish all of it. Full of the taste of butter, you can even smell it! Goes very well with the curry and chicken. I like to eat a mouthful of the chicken with the mash potato with a bit of curry on top. *heavenly*

Cant get enough of TCC

Had dinner with ping and step today. As usual, JP's Fish & Co. has the best looking guy.

While walking home had the sudden urge to walk to the park. And I did. Everything just flows back. Like they just happened yesterday. Everything was just still so fresh.

I cant do this...

Tired. Exhausted. Drained.

Why dont they sell shoulder or hugs in the market?

BIG thank you to my IT boss, drove me home!!!! If not I wont be home even now.. My beloved "daddy" at work.

Morning was spent rushing out the files for the meeting. Really is almost no time for lunch and the three of us (wee ching, izaeel and me) was like super HUNGRY!!!!! Our kind big boss made the guys there do the rest of the stuffs for us so that we can go for a fast lunch. =)

Was a long meeting. The longer it got, the bigger my head get. By the time I got back to office, I can hardly take it anymore. But still got to work overtime. *yawn*

Guess I'm a typical workaholic ba. Once work start, everything else doesnt seems to matter.

There's so much I wanna do...

My dear friend Ang Wee Ching: Do what you should do and want to do. Really.

Tomorrow's another day.

I WILL DO THIS!!!!

2years.

2years to save at least my expenses for aussie. To save for school fees is pretty impossible. =X

I shall NOT regret what I choose.

I shall NOT be bother about her because if I did, I'm just as childish as her.

And yes, Zhan Ke will get a good nice girlfriend in the future.

And I will find a guy that like travelling like I do.

Hope i can say all these things everyday. lolz.One moment of thinking through does not equals to a lifetime of understanding.

*those cards are still valid.

instead of finding someone that make me wanna stay in singapore. i found someone i wanna fly with. but the person does not like to fly.

This post is for myself to really organize what is going on and for him.

In the end, it ended. No matter how much I wanna to try again, it still ended. I thought I would cry in front of you, but I didnt. I'm glad I didnt. Dont want you to see those sides of me anymore.

Even though it had only been a very short while, I was the happiest girl. Our first photo at jurong lake, first neoprint (i never took any neoprint with a guy before), those late nights walking around, and not to forget those supper that made the both of us gained weight.

I wanna throw temper, I wished it had turned more ugly, at least it will be easier to deal with. It would be easier 6years back when I still dont take relationship seriously.

I never thought it could hurt so badly. I never thought the feeling is so deep.

Maybe when you let her go, I'm still waiting. But it will never happen. I never even thought we will ever be together. All those plans that we said, I wish they will come true. I know I want them to be, because I had them in mind since I know you. Ever since national day, when we started going out again, every single time, I was thinking, will this be the last time we are going out? is he going to disappear again tomorrow when I wake up? Till we are together.

Maybe it all happened too fast. Even now, I will be lieing if I say I dont wanna get back with you. You played a big part in everything since I know you. But for my career and studies, I had to do this. I dont wanna wait another 5years not knowing will you be back. I'm not young, neither are you.

She hurted you, and coze of that I dont like her. Period. Its just so simple. And I kep going oversea because I'm tired of being happy even when I'm not in front of you.

And that dress. I really didnt wanna return you. But in the end I still did. I cant look at the dress and not remembering how you came over and said I looked like a barbie doll. Instead of wasting it by just hanging it in my room, it deserve much more, it deserve to be worn and shown to others. Feel like going to the shop to see whether they still have stock.

And whatever happened in that two years are to happen because she WAS your gf. Its part of the job description. I was really hurt when you told me. Do you seriously think that she is the only one that will do it? Dont let her do this to you can?

It hurts really.

I really should have make it ugly. It will be so much easier to deal with.

ireallydunnowattodoanymore.nothingwillhelpsanymore.

Went Sentosa for meeting again. Cool to work in such an environment, but then, transport is a bit ma fan, food pricing also. lolz.

My lunch..

$5

Yucks! =X Really been ages since I go Sentosa. They even open a KouFu Food Court there. Interesting...

Pretty tiring to go there for meeting even though its not a long one. Lucky I'm not the one driving. lolz.

After lunch went to walk around abit before going back to the car. Mind you, still within the 1hour lunch!!!!! Lolz...

Went back to four walls again. Had a terrible headache. Almost vomit. Lucky big boss not there. =X Finished the data tally-ing and went off. Cant take it anymore, plus I'm working tomorrow.

Dinner was with lene. FINALLY I met up with her. But was too tired to really enjoy it. Sorry girl.

I really do wish for everything to be fine before I fully concentrate on my work, when I still have the strength to handle things. Not being home for the past nights helped alot.

it hurts more than i can ever imagine
it misses more than ever

So sleepy from work today. Almost fall asleep on the chair today. Then we all decided to went off early. Everyone used too much brain cells today.

Anyway, went Cathay for dinner with a friend. Hong Kong Cafe, dont know what Xin Wang Cafe or something. Anyway... a good place to have a good and relax meal. Price reasonable too. Around $15 per person for a drink, snacks and one main dish.

Tong, the food might not be as good looking as those I took in Aussie, but then, still, DONT SCOLD ME if you get hungry. =X

Yuan Yang

Famous drink of HK, coffee plus milk tea. A must try for this cafe. Somemore they serve it in the metal cup as you can see, something interesting. Can fight with that of C-Jade Express's. Taste is thick enough. Highly recommended. Really like the idea of this serving method as compared to the usual tall glass.

Noodle Soup with Pork Chop and Preserved Vege

Just wanted something soupy so ordered this one. The noodle serving is too much for me. Preserved Vege is pretty tasteless. The green vege is cooked just nice, not those they cook and put it there and became dry. Noodles are those of instant noodles, even the soup has the taste of the chicken favoured instant noodles. I do like the pork chop. Deep fried but still juicy and tender. Big serving too! And its a THICK slice.. Make the bowl of noodles worth it.

Radish Cake aka Carrot Cake

Very nice.. Though abit too sticky to my liking BUT the taste is wonderful. The 'skin' is also very crispy even though it had been left there for awhile before we eat it. Even my bro say its nice. lolz.

Had another plate of snack, pan-fried dumplings. LOVE IT! The fillings are unlike those outside whereby the meat are all mashed up. This one the meat are more bigger in size? lolz. Can never resist pan-fried dumplings.

Let me blog this before going to sleep...

my first adidas jacket!!!! $119

See.. I promised to blog the pic.

This week will be so packed at work. Got to finish the map and all tomorrow morning, meeting in the afternoon. Refresh my memory on another project and to go for the meeting on Friday morning. Pack ar?

After work boss drove me down to Jurong East to meet tong and co. He's really good to us.. This I cant deny.

Some pics..

starting capital of $4, and i lost all.. -_-

i so love that dress!!!!! us us us and US!

everyone who was present today..

Came home, went for a really short run, bathe and had dinner/supper. Been wanting to eat that cup noodles since 2days ago. =X

Really feels good to see you guys again. Would be better if I won some cab fare home.. lolz.

when can we talk?

Lets see..

I finished Hana Kimi during CNY, as in till Esp 13. Still waiting for 14.

Went shopping today with my bro, his gf and then wee ching joined us later.

And...

I'm now a proud owner of..

1 Adidas jacket!!!!! Black in colour with pink strips and logo. Cool ar? Been wanting a Adidas jacket for ages. And ya, I do need something nicer to wear in office. Not very nice to wear that IMF jacket while taking an office bag. Anyway.. I love the color. =) And thanks my dear brother for sponsoring half of the price!

AND!!!!

Levi's Jeans. Wahahahahaha. Had always been my wish to get one pair using my own money! Even though I know I'm just buying that few letters.. "Levi's Jeans 19XX" lolz. O well. I need a new pair of jeans since both of my old jeans or really loose fit now. -_- And edc doesnt have any nice jeans. So.. there you goes.. =)

O ya, a pair of heels from VNC too.

Then abit here and there.

Never knew I can shop at Vivo.

Pics another time.. Will pose up my jacket!!!!!

Then the staff at Noodles Hut kenna from my brother. Dont ever wanna go there anymore.

Back to work tomorrow.

Just went I thought it will not happen again, it did.

Just came up from a run.

Yes, I went for a run. Please dont think you guys see wrongly.

Okay, now you all can go buy 4D le. =)

Feels good to sweat.

Think I should do this more often.

I never thought I can be feeling so helpless and lost..

And worst. It suddenly hits me that I'm 20 this year and I'm actually working FULL TIME! -_-

Feel so old..

Before I go to work...

Already a full-timer. -_-!! The project getting more fun. So ya. Good News. But at the same time.. Means lesser time that I feel human. Haizzz

Only regret is not insisting on the one week break. O well, boss the biggest.

Thanks for not pushing for an explaination.

Do I mean anything?

Words unspoken.

Smiles given.

Everything settled.

No idea why I am feeling this way. Things hadnt been smooth or good.

Just feel like going away for awhile.

Burnt out.

But finally, I had enough of sleep. Napped yesterday afternoon and slept in this morning.

BUT... I'm so lack of seeing the world..

Going to the doc tomorrow..

I miss I have more time..

Last day of attachment. Was pretty shocked when my boss told me today that we, ching and me, are to be hired with immediate effect. And the day before was happily telling people how I will be spending my short 'holiday' before looking for a job. Good thing to get a job. But, means no time to rest. And even lesser time to see the people I wanna see. O well, at least I will have an income.

Hopefully can do a good job. Attachment still can afford to screw up abit here and there. But not for this. I shall jia you!!!!!

Good luck to those looking for jobs!

3 years of poly life just pass like this. *blink* *blink*

Happy, sad, angry, stress, whatever emo you can think of, I experienced it in these three years.

Be sure I will miss those days... Days whereby its so carefree that I have nothing to worry about but just studies. Nothing is ever a problem. Unlike now..

Finally managed to update pictures!!!! Ages since I upload photos. Photos from both monday and tuesday.. Both days we are to be in formal wear.. Almost take the life of my feet away!

Shall not say anymore... Enjoy!


SEE! I'm a Engineering student.. NOT business!


hai... shorty me


my lao po who is always there for me! thanks so much


our all time fv lec. Mr Keow


The most motherly lec..


THE group..

And now....


the turtle!

I really pity this turtle.. got to live in such dirty water! Poor thing.. But luckily.. it managed to survive throughout the three years and see how big it had gotten! JIA YOU!

Now.. for tuesday..

My SO.. very fatherly and caring towards us..

Charlie.. the guy who cab home with me whenever we do OT... even brought me out for dinner when I was super upset once.

the guy with the racing car... damn nice to be in his car at night with the wind.. cool.

Back in school...

Who else but us? lolz...

the door that led to a scary place..

And lastly.. for the news.. Got offered two jobs.. Turned down the executive job for a support job. lolz. Working at the same department on a single project. Details not suitable to be mention here. But ya. Starting work on tuesday.. =)

Stupid blog. Wanted to upload pics but cant. O well.. shall do it tomorrow then.

Anyway, everything is finally OVER.

Monday went back school for photo-taking. I can tell you, I'm utterly disappointed by the event. FAIL!!!!! Graduation photo taking should be enjoyable and fun, YET, the whole thing is very confusing and very not up to standard! Argh. I took even better photos myself with my dear friends. Shall upload them tomorrow.

After that went to queensway with everyone... Never thought I will be able to get any stuffs there! In the end, I spent 100plus! Luckily one kind soul paid for my dress, if not I could have easily spent $200. =X Thanks for the dress. Love it to bits. Then went to bugis after that. And my dearest bro cab down to fetch me home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Xing fu right?

But abit of unhappiness. Can only ren and accept ba.

Today is another big day.. Presentation. 6months of results. The only way lecs will know. Thanks for coming down. I know its not your way of doing things. All the more I'm happy that you came down. Thanks for everything.

Dinner was wonderful. Fish n Chip. Fries are the best! Fish is juicy. Hardly something you will find in Singapore. lolz.

Feeling so relaxed and happy.

Woke up today at 7plus to go for breakfast!!!!!!

Xing fu de nu ren.

Thats me! =D

Anyway, went to school on wed to hand in the report. Then went for mini-shopping, neo-print, k-ing, dinner, strolling. Now I realize there's still improvements I can make for the report. O well, I did the best I can at that time. No regrets.

Thurs and Fri was spent at ATC. Doing data entry. Can die.. Facing the computer from 8:30 to 6! -_-!! Finally its over.

Presentation to the company on Friday. Wasnt as bad as I thought it will be.

Had a mini-arguement.

Baked cookies for the whole of Sat. Tired!!!!!!! But damn tasty. =X

Managed to tidy my room abit just now. Left with my footwear. Even tidy up my clothes!!!!

1 more week and I'm offically J-O-B-L-E-S-S! -_-!! Gosh.

School starting again for me around end of March.

i'm touched