Im 21 + 2

I realized there wasnt any post on my blog regarding my birthday when it was such a wonderful day! How can? So I decided to do an update before the end of the year.

I had never look so much forward to my birthday before I met boyfriend because he is the only one who really make that particular day special. The only special days in a year are our anniversay on 7 Jul, his birthday on 24 Sep and mine. But still, its my birthday that was the 'special' day out of everything. The one day that is fully mine.

Didnt want to go on a shopping spree in order to save some money, we went back to nature and have a walk in the parks linked up along henderson. Though nothing 'wow' it was our first time going there together and the rare times we are away from the noisy and fast pace singapore.

i hv the world so long he is mine and im his

its only on my special day that he cannot refuse to do anything i ask

Dinner was at SanTouKa which specializes in Hokkaido Ramen. I hearts the soup based to MAX! The best I ever had so far locally. Luckily we went early, otherwise we would have a long wait to get a table. And the table beside us are also celebrating a birthday.

love is in the air

Last stop of the celebration was at this KTV pub that we went previously where boyfriend's friends went frequently and one of his polymate works there. A very relax and cozy environment. I enjoyed having fun with them and even drank abit more than usual that day. While, its my birthday!

Boyfriend surpised me with Spike-D from Big O. Which his friends specially went to Town to purchase as its only available there. It only took me a lick off the 'happy birthday' decoration to guess the cake and I have it hit-on. Amazing right? Its the best durian cake at an affordable price. And its also my wish to have a birthday cake.

he was singing a string of birthday songs via the KTV

his friends who celebrated with me

It was really an amazing day and I was feeling kinda down after 12pm because it was no longer my day. But it was a day well spent and truly special to me only. Somehow each year there will be these little things that he will do to make me feel special in the midst of everyone else surrounding us. It was my first time having birthday song sang in front of so many strangers.

Pior to the actual day, I had two celebrations with my colleagues at work and also with my polymates. Had Sushi Tei and cake with colleagues and a Korean dinner with polymates.

Besides my 21st birthday, this is by far the next biggest celebration I had. And I felt 21 again! =D

he made me felt special
really special to be treated this way

Had a small trip with boyfriend and his friends and my brother to Malacca, Malaysia. Total damage to the bank account was large but was an enjoyable trip overall. Not only did it brought us closer (some of us never see each other before the trip), it bonded boyfriend and me too!

I dont know what I can do or say to tell him how much I love him and how proud I am of him. But I am. And very.

Food was cheap and good. Shopping was good but not that cheap. But managed to bought a pair of heels. Seriously considering to wear dress to work. =X Maybe I will feel happier then.

I cant wait to go on another trip with them. =D

On the other hand, 2010 is ending soon. We will be welcoming 2011 in a week's time and yet theres still no convrete plan for the celebration! -_- But it doesnt matters so long its with boyfriend.

In 2011, I will be starting on gym once a week, taking up patchwork lesson at CC once a week, baking and hopefully get a change of job. Gonna give myself at least a year to rest mentally and 'upgrade' myself in other aspects such as lifestyle. At the same time, I looking forward to NATAS fair in Feb!!! Going to Europe and hope they have some good deals. It will be a 2 weeks trip.

In Jan 11 I will be getting my results. *nervous*

Since the day I finished with my last paper, it had been fun-filled weekends BUT dead-bored weekday nights. Theres nothing to do at home and I felt 'useless' lazing around after work.

Today, finally made a trip to the CC and signed for up a handicraft course - Patchwork. Those sewing type and oldies blacket.. Cant wait for it to start.

Similarly, gonna make reservation for my gym assessment and start going for my gym lessons in Jan 2011.

For the time being, just gonna slack around as theres really nothing to do! On the otherhand, gonna take this 2 weeks to tidy up my work-stuffs.

Think the patchwork and gym gonna keep me busy for quite awhile. Will try out the different yoga classes they have.

Feeling better now that I know I wont be slacking all the way..

Going over to Malaysia this Christmas weekend with brother, boyfriend and boyfriend's friends.

But nothing yet for countdown..

Monday is my last paper to my degree programme. Its a love-hate feeling.

Love because Im finally finishing my part time education. And thats a VERY big deal because it means I have more time for everything else, like meeting friends, going on dates with boyfriend, meals at home, going crazy at night and doing whichever things I wanna do but got on hold because I need the time to rush my stupid and ever-growing amount of assignments.

Hate because I wont be seeing my sweetest coursemates, having dinner together and bitching about the useless lecturers we have.

On the bright side, we can always meet after work! =D

Gonna party hard after Monday's paper. And lots of gatherings to organize thereafter. Then going to Malaysia during the Christmas weekend, staying at boyfriend's friend's relative's house. They have their own vege and durain plantations!! Looking forward to it.

Sadly, boyfriend need to stay-in everyday..

But, his room is ready soon. As in REAL soon. Our bed is coming in today. I cant wait to sleep on the new bed. No more uncomfy and backache the next morning..

-i dont support you who support you..

and who i support?-

2 Bad news & 1 Good news

The bad news are:

Boyfriend is at the Zoo without me & its raining

Good news:

I'm at home

He went to the zoo WITHOUT me!!! Wt*.. But on the bright side, its raining! And who wanna go to the zoo on a raining day. *evil laugh*

But the worst part - he gonna book-in tomorrow at 7:30pm. Which means, I only have slightly more than 24hours with him, of which 8 hours we will be sleeping. So technically, it left us with less than 24hours. This is bad.

And tomorrow morning, we need to wake up early to go Q at IMM Starhub for iPhone. Yes, Im getting one. Because boyfriend wanted one, so I decided to get the same phone with him. So dont comment about it.

I seriously cant wait for exam to be over and party at night. Thereafter will be planning all the stuffs I wanna do but postponed / didnt do because of my studies. Gave up too much to complete my degree programe asap.

And forgetful me, had yet to blog about my birthday this year. It was a blast! =D

I wasnt happy today.. He 'dumped' me again for his campmates. Im really upset about it because I only get to see him on the weekends when he is off from his duty. While they see him everyday. And today, he chose to continue spending his 'after office hours' time with them rather than me. When he agreed to meet me for dinner.

I cried.

Through out the whole week, this is the only activity I look forward to. The only thing I work hard for. But all Im left with this weekend is being alone. Fyi, he's going oversea this weekend. So basically I wont see him till next weekend if he decides not to make time for me.

I hate it everytime when he 'dump' me for his friends or campmates. I mean, come on. Was it not a common understanding to spend time with each other once a week. To at least inform beforehand. I felt dumped. I felt unwanted. I felt lonely. And he didnt understand.

Im so pissed and upset till I went FB and saw the picture we took during my birthday celebration mid this month. Happiness was basically reflected from the picture. It brought a slight sense of warmth to my heart. But still. I cannot understand why I am being left out today. F all the agreements and promises.

Writing this entry make me wanna cry even more.

Try putting yourself in my shoes and feel what Im feeling. Its not like I will feel any better if you left me alone. It doesnt always work that way.

Loving someone gave them the power to hurt you
But the hurt are not physical.
It cant be seen
It cant be understood by others
But its there
The pain that slowly eats you from inside
The loneliness that make you lonely even when you are surrounded by friends
How can you protect yourself from this?
If you did,
You are not giving your significant ones your entire

How contradicting

Boyfriend's brother is ROM-ing soon with his girlfriend. Hence, boyfriend&sis is swapping room with the brother. Which means boyfriend is shifting back to his original room, the room where we spent most of the early part of our relationship in, the place where we became official.

Because of this, we decided to purchase a new bed, as the current one is not in good condition. And being me, I will get uncomfortable from sleeping on it. Though it doesnt come cheap, I think its a good investment. Plus, boyfriend loves to spend most of his bed laying on the bed, hence a good bed will be better for his back. And also, a new cabinet for clothes.

I cant wait to make the room a cozy one! We are already planning of the stuffs to get once we get more financial stabilize. Wireless surround system, TV console, wii accessories, a new dust bin, and some other accessories...

I think its worth saving up on others stuffs to make the room cozy and more comfortable. Partly because we can save money by staying at home and also, we both like having friends over for gathering. And this room will be the prefect place.

O yes. I collected my new ring.. PRETTY!! And it fits really well. But my phone cant capture the beauty of it, hence, didnt upload any photos. Wait till I get my new camera. =D

I was never a bling-bling girl. Mum brought me up brainwashing me that bling-blings are a waste of money as the value drop once you purchase it. It was boyfriend who make me appreciate and love it. The first bling-bling he bought me was for my 20th birthday, months after we got together. I'm great for his thoughtfulness. Ever since he had gotten me another two bling-bling. Its his way of pampering me because he knew I will never purchase one myself. And now, I love it. Appreciate the work behind a good cut and design. Now I know why they say bling-blings are a female's best friend. Thank you boyfriend.

You know what? I'm in love with the SK shop at JP2, especially with the store manager, Marcus Chan. Love him! Not the romantic way of course.

Went there yesterday to polish my necklace and ring and ended up chatting with him for half an hour! After learning that diamond value will increase instead of decreasing like it used to in the past, decided to drop by with boyfriend to see whether is there any new design and to upgrade, taking it as an investment. An expensive investment!

Took a long time to choose my new ring. Hard to find one that please me, till the point Marcus seems a bit scare of us. =X But I need to find one that I like! Ended up we took the ring that he suggested. A diamond resting on 4 heart-shaped crown with heart-shaped at the side of the base. Pretty special. The other one he recommended, I found the base looking like an ice cream cone and the diamond is like a scope of ice cream.

He's customer service is really really good and wonderful! Both of us like him. Whether its marketing strategy or not, at least we seems to really wanna find the best item that suit me. And met all my fussy and funny requests.

Going to upgrade the ring again next year. Cant wait!

Had a trip to A&E on the wee hours of Monday morning due to back ache. Doc say its a muscle sprain. Gave painkiller. It didnt got any better, even got worst. So mum took me to a private clinic. This time round the doc say its gastric flu, coze I vomited, no appetite, tummy damn bloated and I'm having gastric. -_- useless a&e doctor. =X

And guess what. Darren nagged again. Guess he will be forcing me to eat more now. It felt terrible to have gastric related stuffs. Damn uncomfortable and painful..

sighz..

This was most likely my favourite photo throughout the whole trip with boyfriend to Bintan (and theres not much photos to choose from!). Surprisingly, I did not took much photos this time round. Was spending more time doing stuffs rather than taking photos.

We stayed at Bintan Sayang Resort, which was a new resort and some parts are still WIP, but did not affect us. What I like was the resort was away from others resorts. Which means we are really away from the crowd. Though there's no nice sandy beach like Tioman, but the short travelling distance (1 hr ferry and 20 mins drive) win over BIG TIME!!! I will go Bintan anytime without giving much thought about it! Food was reasonably priced too, I guess this is another advantage when the resort is not those chain resorts or crowd with others. I suspected that the kelong eating place and the resort is own by the same boss.

This time round we did snookering which we saw more colourful fishes as compared to Tioman, sunset by the sea, had my first fishing experience which I really caught fishes!, suntan by the pool for an hour plus each day with a book I brought over, relaxing in the big bathtub and also BBQ-ing oversea.

It was a good experience and really an enjoyable trip. Staffs were friendly, food was good (i ate alot there! more rice than I had in Singapore), room was clean and boyfriend let me bought a teddy bear! =D

Cant wait for my next getaway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND!!

Though his birthday, there wasn't much of a celebration besides telling him happy birthday at 12am and dropping him a message on FB.

And nicely, today is also the day of his POP whereby his parents got to put on the 3rd SGT rank on him. I'm so proud of him. Plus, he got the Honors Award as 2nd best performing personnel in his course. *wow* He's my man!! =D

But poor him got sunburn from the hours of rehearsal over the past two days just for the 1 to 2 hours today. But still. I love my man in uniform. Look so smart and emitting a sense of pride.

Got home to rush my assignment. Planned to cab down to his house after Im done with my assignment so that I can optimize my sleeping time. And I'm back to my routine of chicken essence in the morning and coffee at night to last me through the day. Damn tired to rush assignment till 4am in the morning. -_-

I cant stop telling you how proud I am of my boyfriend!!!!

By the way. For this retreat, mum knows Im going with boyfriend. Not a big response of rejection. *heng* I feels better not having to hide from her Im going oversea with him. No worry. He will surely take care of me just like always. But I have no idea how much to bring over!!! *hope the money is sufficient*

Dar, happy birthday. I know today is tiring for you. Rest well tonight and we shall relax over the weekend as a present to ourself.
A little wish from me to you : be good to yourself (and of course to me). And regardless, I will be by your side. (and I know you will do the same to me). May everything you do be smooth sailing!

Its already 23rd Sep! Another 2hours plus and its officially boyfriend 23rd birthday! Its also his Sgt POP. =D I'm so proud of him. Thereafter, we are going oversea to celebrate his birthday.

As for me, Im rushing assignments like mad. This semester the assignments are CRAZY! But I'm trying my best to finish as much as possible before going for the short retreat with boyfriend.

Work is getting slightly better. At least now we have time to breath.

Faceliciouss is also currently on its way to make profit. =D

And, I passed my previous exam! *happy*

Another exciting news, planning a long trip next year!

Im done with my exams!!! *pray hard that i pass all*

During this 2 weeks of the exams period, I kept asking myself what is it that I really wanna do in my life. I love baking, but am I good enough to sell what I bake? Can I earn enough from what I bake? Sarah and I are considering this and thinking to give it a try next year. Boyfriend was rather supportive. Instead of saying how unpractical it is, he asked me to start saving for our mini-venture. Sarah's dad was supportive too. But till then, we can only plan and try the recipes first as we still have another 4months of school to go.

If the mini-venture works out, good for us. But do I wanna quit my job and do that fulltime or parttime? Otherwise, should I get another less demanding job so that I can enjoy pleasure in doing what I really like?

O well, really need to think about it. And weight it against my ever-growing-living-expenses.

On a more light-hearted note, both boyfriend, Sarah and ah boi commented my skin got better. Just in less than a week. Its money well spent! =D Did masks almost everyday, and bought new products from Skin Food which I suspect is the main factor for this improvement. They have this moisturizer that is really very hydrating for my skin. And also the various masks, collagen, tightening of pores, removal of impurity, hydrating. And the best part? NONE of them requires more than 10 minutes of my time! I did all of them in the bathroom along with my hair mask / hair treatment. This is what I call lazy-but-still-wanna-be-pretty. I cant stand doing facial mask that need me to lay on the bed for 20 minutes. The masks that I got from Skin Food are mostly massage and rise off, or massage and leave for 1 minute, the most, massage and leave for 5 minutes. How cool is this? But, I would need to spend 2 hours every month doing my facial at Asian Skin Solutions! O well, at least theres massage invovle and I know my skin and eye bag will be better thereafter.

Boyfriend wasnt happy of the amount of money I spent recently on my face. But he cant deny theres improvement.. *evil smile*

Time to save money and do what I wanna do..

O ya, went Iguana with Sarah and her potential bf right after our last paper. Damn cool! I wanna do it more often. Then we went to find boyfriend camp people across the river. Crazy bunch of people, but its enjoyable. First night life in almost a year. I dont really drink but I enjoy the atmosphere. Give me my life back!!

Boyfriend is currently staying-in again. A one month plus sgt course. Thereafter, his pay and rank will rise! But, I will have to endure this change of not able to contact him as and when I like. I used to be able to call him any time I want to when he got promoted to instructor. Now he's back as trainee, I cant do that. *sighz*

*army boy's girlfriend in the making*

O well, gonna study hard for my exam too. 3 papers.

Recently got very into trying freebies and finding ways to make my skin better. And Sarah was my buddy in this. =D We love taking freebies and trying them. Thinking to make a webby out of this.

And, I just signed up for another package - facial. From Asian Skin Solutions. Boyfriend is complaining about the number of packages I'm currently having, or rather, a sudden interest in them. First my Amore Fitness 1-year package and now, a 5-session facial package. Hopefully they will have the effect it claims to have.

Amore Fitness : Wanna tone and slim down abit after my degree coze I put on and lost my 'figure' during studies, especially exam period and all the late nights. Wanna tune it back and be more healthy. And more exercising since boyfriend is so activity type.

Asian Skin Solutions : I'm not bless with good skin, and I know it. Had been spending quite alot on my facial products in fact, with all the The Face Shop and Skin Food products, I can most likely buy a Burberry bag already. Still finding the correct and suitable way to 'treat' and maintain my skin. Hopefully this will help. Half-believing what the staff said, I signed up for half package. *cross fingers*

Hopefully the money will be well-spent. I don't find trying since money can be earn back, but I just hope things will improve. And I seriously feel that I might be getting into some money issue soon if I continue the way I'm spending now. There's an increase in my expenditures recently. Maybe with all the sales going on. Otherwise I will really think there's something wrong with me, coze I don't use to spend like this.

Boyfriend booking out tomorrow. But I will only be able to see him on Saturday. I miss him.

Suddenly have this urge to try new stuffs to earn extra $$. But kinda tie down with my studies now. Gonna re-plan what I want in life. Think its time to try something new so that I wont have any regrets in the future.

Boyfriend went puket with his family over the weekend without me and bought me the two items above made of glass. I saw the hermit crab first coze he actually bought to camp with him. While unwrapping the bigger present at his house, I was quite shock to see a rose. He knows how much I love them, but how unrealistic it is to keep buying it. And this is the second FAKE rose he bought me. The other one was the one in Hong Kong. Both made oversea. *love* More to come?

And it was really sweet of him to come online both nights to chat with me. He must had knew how lonely I was in Singapore without him.. And the things he said. Though it seems like something that will happen, but having him mentioned it first for the first time was very heart warming. Assurance. Confidence. Basically.. Love..


The past few weeks had been rushing assignments. This semester's assignments are all heavy, so had a rather difficult time to finish. Lucky I had a very supportive and good team to encourage each other through this. Of course, boyfriend supported me in this way too.

Exam is coming after National Day. 3 papers. Thereafter, a week of break before 2 more modules and I'm done with school!!! The thought of having all my time with boyfriend is very very tempting.

And today, I went for a trial lesson with Charlene at Amore Fitness. Signed up for a one year package at $63 per month for 48 session a year. Estimated to be once a week. A good start for beginners like me. Charlene also signed up for it. But will only activate the package next year after I finish with my schooling. I really cant wait for it. It was a aim / goal / wish of mine to join such a fitness club and go on a regular basis. And I DONE IT!! Affording something I want to do.

After the session today went to do some shopping and bought a pair of unique heels and a simple dress. And something for boyfriend. Im such a good girlfriend right? *wink*

For now. I should be a good student and study for my exams. =)

Dar. I really cant thank you enough for all the things you done for me and for us. I felt safe with you. I no longer can imagine my life without you as you had really entered into my life and become part of it..

2 weeks ago, boyfriend and me marked the 3rd year of our relationship. Now we are into our 4th. Amazing isnt it? It never fails to amaze me everytime I think about it that I had been with him for 3 full years. 3 years of fun and laughter. 3 years of feeling loved and that I'm worth it. 3 years worth of time someone spent on me. Wow~

But we still have many more years to go, so I think I will continue to be amazed by this. *big smiles*

Really appreciate the things he had done for me. Whenever I felt down or going to give up, he will support and assure me that we will go through these together. Everyone said he's a sweet guy. Yup, he is. But only to me. Because I'm his girlfriend. =)

Need I say more?

He's my world and everything. I admit I cannot do without him. But if I can, why do I need him? So stop telling me how much I relay on him. This is what girlfriends are suppose to do.

Likewise, I'm his queen. The boss and has the biggest say in his life. Thats what I had been brainwashing him about. *evil laugh*

I'm loving it..

Its 2:43am now.. why on earth am I still awake?

Ans: coze i hvnt study for my test on monday!!! wth..

Anyway. I packed my bag for the trip already!! But just checked the weather forecast on Yahoo! and it says that there will be thunderstorm during the period I'm there! Really hope its not true..

*pray hard*

And so, now I'm thinking weather to re-pack my clothes. Coze the clothes I packed are for sunny weather.. Hmmm.. But I will have a jacket with me.. And.. I dont really have much t-shirt actually..

Cant wait for Wednesday to come..

Boyfriend suddenly tell me that he has a class gathering with his sec 5 class on 6 Jul 2013. Which is 3 years away from now.

And..

He's bringing me along!

I asked whether I need to go with him, and the 'yes' 'of course' he gave is so assuring and sweet!! And he said they promised to bring their partners, attached or married. So I ask him whether he's going there attached or married. Or he wanna propose to me there.. =\

He made my heart feel so warmth. The assurance that we will still be together 3 years down and even longer than that!!! How touching.. *smile big big*

I love love my boyfriend.

Our face hadnt appear on this blog for a long long time. And it happens that this is my latest favourite couple photo with boyfriend. Its everywhere. On Facebook, handphone wallpaper, laptop wallpaper. Constantly seeing. We just look so loving and sweet! and I dont look fat!! =D

Anyway, life is hectic. Though its still the usual - work, school and boyfriend. But the degree of the hectic-ness increase by quite a bit. Assignments got more difficult and I just dont have the heart and strength to do it. It doesnt help that brother had broke up with his girlfriend and had been spending more time with him. And some how I think the endless lessons got on to us. Work-wise, people are quitting or soon in the process of. New colleagues will be joining us, but still, no matter how experience, it takes time for them to feel comfortable and adjust to our site. As for boyfriend, I really wish I have more time for him. I feel so bad that he accompany me through the weekend nights doing nothing even though he himself is sleepy, all because I have assignments and notes to go through. Really feel very bad towards him.

Just another few days, we will be together for full 3 years. Amazing it isnt it? Him and me. Two very different individual, went through all odds and came this far. Till this date I am still very very amazed by this relationship of him and me.

Having a some trip soon. Hope it will be good and enjoyable.

Had been having headaches since thursday. Imagine how horrible I felt for the past few days. Sleeping with a headache and waking up with one.

Planning our short getaway in Jul. =) thats the only thing I looking forward to. Thereafter, its rushing of assignments and exam in Aug. Just a bit more, I keep telling myself. Just a bit more and all this will be behind me. And I can enjoy to my fullest.

Very tempted to do something to my hair. Most likely the usual, rebond and highlight. Decided to stop going to Chapter 2 for awhile and try the household kind. Way cheaper.

Work is ok, but in a span of 2 months, 3 ppl resign. More or less affected. But o well, we shall see how it goes.

Today is the second time that I broke down at work during my 3years stay at my company.

The last time I did was during the initial stage of a new project. And job scope was unclear, and no discussion on who is in charge of what. And theres too many uncertainity and a super lousy project manager.

This time, it was more complicated. Abit of this and that, and I broke down. I called boyfriend and he was comforting. I managed to smile thereafter. But having to go back and answer to other people of my mood is a thing hard to deal with. I never learnt how to deal with my true feelings with other people. So I broke down. Very automatically.

A break will only be a temporary solution.

I can hide my mood pretty well if you let me. But I wasnt allow to..

Strangely, I didnt felt useless for breaking down. But rather, anger. Anger for letting these happen to me. Anger for letting these happen.

Boyfriend had fallen sick.. And its aching. The last time he was sick was when he's still in Tekong. One of the weekend after outfield, he had a really bad fever, but recover just in time to book in again. But now, he's delaying his 'sickness' from fully developed and hence unable to recover from it. Just delaying and pop-ing panadol. Which actually I disagree with. Anyway, finally managed to pester him to stop going camp tomorrow and see a doctor. Heard theres a flu virus runing around in his camp. Quite a number of his trainees already got the bug and fallen sick. It really aches me to hear his sick voice..

I FINALLY did some shopping!!!

Went Bugis with boyfriend yesterday afternoon. Just in a short afternoon, I bought 4 tops (3 of which from Moonriver), 2 heels (1 normal formal type, 1 open toe), 1 cushion for office and 2 bikinis!!! And the best part? Most of the stuffs are having discounts!

Moonriver is having 20% storewide + 10% additional for members. I was just trying my luck to drop by and see whether they are having any offers. Very frequently during long weekends, they will have this 30% storewide for members. And I met my favourite sale person there! She still remembers me. And I have 2 staffs out of 3 attending to me and commenting whether it looks good on me or not (coze boyfriend hadnt reach). As usual, point, try and pay. But something additional, they took more tops for me to try. Love going back there.

2 heels from Americaya. And, BHG is having 10% - 20% sales!!! And of course, I grad them off the shelves! Lucky boyfriend was there, otherwise I would have bought more because their heels are just simply so comfortable! Bought 1 normal, formal looking type and 1 open toe type which has a ribbon in front. Cute.

After failing to convience boyfriend to let me buy another pair of heels, we went over to Bugis Village. And after walking round and round, I top 1 knitted top! Oversize and skin colour. Can go well with anything. *loves*

Last stop for the day is at Iluma. Didnt expect to buy anything there, but ended up getting 2 bikinis. And also one message cushion!!! Made boyfriend pay for it because I charge too much to my card that day already. *evil smile*

Thats about all of the things I bought yesterday. Rather fulfilling until Boss called and Im required to go to site for work. -_- Kinda spoil my day. But the good thing was, I dont need to go back down today.

After re-watching Enchanted with boyfriend just now, we conclude:

Princes are stupid. Knight are clever. Thankful that boyfriend is my knight.

Enjoying my 2 weeks break away from school right now.

Though suppose to enjoy, work was horrible. Had been going on site due to some issue, hence no time in the office for paper work which I'm suppose to clear. In addition to that, no time and energy to organize the stuffs to teach and handover to the new girl. Felt kind of guilty. But luckily my colleague offered to take over the role. If not because of the dinner dates that I had been having / going to have, I would had most likely ended up going home quite late these few days, or rather 2 weeks. Promised myself that I will not skip any classes the next school term.

And I had came a long way for my degree. I had survived 1 year 4 months of schooling as a undergrad and at the same time work full time with a job scope of project coodinator and handles a few sites, and on top of these, obtain my driving license in March 2010 (after 7 months and $2,200). If anyone is to ask, I personally thing I had achieved quite a bit over this one year that I had transferred over to PCG. Though mutli-tasking so many stuffs at the same time had kind of compromise the quality, but I tried. Rather pleased with it.

25 March 2010, I finally obtained my driving license!!! Yes. I'm able to drive now. And had been driving for a few weekends. I'm so proud of myself. Boyfriend is too! *happy*

Tomorrow I will be visiting the specialist for my ankle. Kind of worry actually. I really have no idea what the specialist will propose and recommend for treatment. Boyfriend is worry too, worry that its actually something quite serious. The swollening started again when I got back to work. Hope everything will be ok in the end.

Its going to May 10 in a few days. And 2months plus later, boyfriend and me would had been together for 3 years! Can anyone believe it? 3 years and we are still so nicely made for each other. =D Planning a trip in July, and hopefully it wont get delay due to my ankle.

And I must really get a bath tub for my house next time!! Loving shower gels..

I should be studying. But still...

1) I'm still considering to change job or not. Ignoring the situation that two colleagues had resigned, I'm abit lost now. What do I want to achieve in my career once I finish with my degree? Go into safety industry? Or others? B had actually been very kind to me. And I'm really gladful and thankful to him. Knowing my condition, B planned a more desk-bounded job for me. But there is still an amount of walking about, something bf is not really supportive of. I'm still kiv-ing one other job, an option, but nothing is concrete. Its that and an incident that actually started the 'whether-to-change-job' discussion with bf. He agreed too that I can decide later this month again. No rush. Pay was also acceptable now since its sufficient to finance my insurances and left me with some shopping money. Self-sufficient. But there's so many factors to take into consideration too. Can I really adapt to a desk-bounded job? Of course I miss the manicures, heels, pretty clothes and no after-office-hour calls. But a possible pay-cut.. (yet to check)

2) Sick of studying sometimes. There's so many other things I wanna do and learn. Like, I had always enjoyed taking photos of food and write about them. But now, I didnt even have the time nor energy to post them in FB, much less write about them. I wanted to create a blog just for it, memories between bf and me, but still, time and energy. Might sound like excuses to some, but if you are in my shoes, you would have the same experience.

3) I hadnt bake/cook in ages. More than a year to be exact. Yes, that long. And to think I used to bake every weekend. More than one recipes at one go sometimes. Instead of the creator, I'm now the eater. I hate this.

4) Im no longer happy with my life now. Period.

Life is pretty much in a mess now.

Exam in three weeks.
One assignment due on 8 Apr
Feeling tired all the time
SGH on 9 Apr
Jurong Medical on 27 Apr

Feeling so messy now.

TP on Thursday. Hopefully can pass.

Around a week ago, I finally went to see a doctor for my aching leg. Actually went to a chinese doctor in AMK as I thought its a sprain or something. He mentioned something about ligament infection. Bandaged for a day.

But it didnt help much and everyone got worry about it. Especially the pain I get after walking for a while. Boyfriend kind of forced me to see a doctor and specialist. Boss offered to send me to the doctor yesterday after thinking and discussing, decided to go as the pain got worst after walking in the morning.

Sent to X-ray and found a crack in my ankle bone. How old is the crack, I have no idea. The doctor is not of much help also. Seeing the specialist at Jurong Medical in a month time. Hopefully not very bad news. And hopefully I can take the pain for another month.

the famous durain pudding from Swissotel Merchant Court

It was a roller coaster night with boyfriend. But all is well now. And I had a share of a $200 worth of bird nest cooked by boyfriend mother. Feels so love. =D Boyfriend even gave me half of his share. Sweet.

Went Swissotel Merchant Court today to celebrate boyfriend's mother birthday.

And I found a new love...

Their yam ice cream is HEAVENLY!!!! I thought Swensen's was the best, but Swissotel outdo her! Told boyfriend he would have to buy ice cream from Swissotel next time. =D

*us* while waiting at the lobby

Chinese New Year is half way through but I'm still in the festive mode due to the amount of Yusheng I had been eating recently! Yusheng aka chinese salad is only available during Chinese New Year. The mix of preserved vege, fresh vege and sour plum sauce give a very nice twist to the tongue. A good handful of crackers and salmon adds even more excitment to it! And I'm not afraid to have it for supper as its all vege. *loves*

Work was ok. Abit stress now and then due to the sudden rush of approval, arrangement and unpleasant changes. But its ok. I will tide through.

Didnt had school for awhile. But rushing assignments. Had been sleeping at 3am on weekends due to assginments. Hence, normally sleep earlier on weekdays. Otherwise I will age super fast!

Life with boyfriend is getting better. No reason why not. =D But I do miss more time with him.

Was having mood swing yesterday.

But today. One of my best day in the period of CNY.

Not only did I got to enjoy Astons again, I had a relaxed day with boyfriend and we managed to do two visitings today.

And the day ended with boyfriend cooking instant noodles for dinner.

I love love him.

He always manages to make me feel more at ease and comfortable.

Have another week of break from school and its meant for rushing assignments. 2 group and 2 individual assignments to complete before March. How wonderful!!! -_-

'i will always be by your side'

Is enough to make me fight the world.

Its 1 day to reunion dinner and I'm sick! Or rather, I had been sick for the past 4 days.

Not my worst sick week, but still, its not enjoyable besides the fact that I can sleep all I want and I really did SLEPT. Its like repaying my sleeping debt. For the first two days, one hour after consuming any form of medicine or food, I will need to sleep for like 2 to 3 hours and when I wake up, its time for another round of medicine or food. I was hardly awake.

Bf came over on Monday, claiming he got half day because I'm sick at home. Don't know how true. And yesterday, he surprised me with a visit while I'm sleeping again. *smile* But I know he's tired. Sorry..

I cant remember what happened for the week. =X

Next week gonna be a busy week.

Sunday - 1st day of CNY, relatives coming over in the afternoon till night
Monday - 2nd day of CNY, going over to Bf's early in the morning follows by my Gu Gu house and Bf's father's side for dinner and till late
Tuesday - 3rd day of CNY, no plans for me. But Bf going visiting. Either to tag along or stay home

Wednesday or Thursday - japanese dinner with bf's camp mates

Friday - Dinner at colleague's house & due date for 1 assignment

Saturday - Polymates coming over my house

Happening? I call it tiring.

Later tonight got to go Hyatt for cousin's solemnization. Due what time I don't know. The thought of dressing up is making me tired now.

Anyway. happy cny! =)

It had been a week since I last met boyfriend. *sad*

Since the start of 2010, we only manage to meet up less than 24hours each week. Its harder than I thought.

Every sem it never fails to amaze me whole I managed to survive the previous sem.

Just got my results. 1 credit and 1 pass. Not too bad if you ask me. For the module that I got a pass, 30% of the class failed. So its actually a pretty good result. =D *note to self, I think I hadnt tell boyfriend about my results*

Boyfriend having guard duty today. Lonely night for me. 2 hours till his next break, wonder to wait up for him or not. Kind of tired actually. Work had been rather texting and with the daily trip to school for lessons. The stress and load is really catching up on me. And its not helping that I'm not getting enough sleep from it.

For the past few days I even lost my appetite for the whole day. I couldnt remember the last time this happened. Not about to stomach any solid food. Even when I'm super hungry. Lucky boyfriend was tired enough not to deliver food to me.

=)

Today, both boyfriend and me took another big step in our relationship.

We opened our first joint account together!

Actually planned to do it late last year so that it will start in Jan 10, also to mark 2010. But never got down to it for various reasons, e.g. no time. So today, after months of collecting the necessary documents (actually also not a lot, just our IC and one HP bill), I finally went down to OCBC to hand over the form and documents.

After being together for 2.5 years, I felt its time. Even though the amount is not a lot, its a good start.

*happy*

I miss boyfriend.

Even now that I only see him once a week. Has conversation for less than 20minutes everyday.

He slight decrease of attention suddenly means world to me. Sensitive you might say. But its really the case.

Just a simple gesture will make me happy.

I hate this period.

I hate Sundays. Coze its the day that boyfriend will leave me and I wont be able to see him till one week later.

Bye 2009. Hello 2010!

Countdown was simply spent by having Ma La Steamboat at Bugis with boyfriend and his two poly friends followed by dessert at Chew Dessert at the opposite street. And Wii through the night and reached home only at 2am.

No celebration, no special activity. Pretty 'tasteless' as compared to the first countdown I had with boyfriend. And worst, I was having bad cramp on that day. Shouldn't even have went to work. My first 2 hours at work was spent in GREAT pain. Lucky no guys was around to witness it.

On 1 Jan 10, parents had a re-vow at Jurong Safra. Dinner was not bad. And took the first photo of the year with boyfriend.

On 2 Jan 10. Today. Drove all the way to Joo Chiat to buy 30 mini BBQ pork bun. Real tasty.

Tomorrow. Dinner at The Line. $60plus per pax.

And back to work. Which is a place I want to avoid. Giving me all the stress. And school! -_-

Dar, thank you for standing by me all this while. I'm really thankful for your presence. Of you entering my life and staying by me.