I shouldnt be doing this..

But.. I just cant stop.

Sometimes it just hurt so much..

But sometimes, it just so worth it..

In the end.. it might just be all back to square one.

And it will be my own fault.

Burnt my whole sat at work.. 13hours!!!!!!!! Cool ar? All beacause of that one company (not to mention which). Cant even sleep properly this morning. Actually wanna sleep in, but once my brain is half working, all the work that I need to get done came piling up. No choice but to wake up.. And its only like what, 9 am now!

Yesterday was a pretty sweet day.

Fri went for a wake. The same way my nanny went off. I miss my nanny.

'if you ask, i will wait'

Been ages since I have so much to do.

Let me show you the L-I-S-T:

1. CV
2. Final Report
3. Graph for a head in my department
4. Agenda for monday meeting
5. Another project
6. Tidying my stuffs into my newly arrived (or rather not that new since it arrived on wednesday!) cabinet
7. Do quotation & research & enquiry about firewall
8. Cross stitch
9. Sleep
10. Eat

I need to include sleeping and eating because I'm so lack of sleep that my mum is already starting to make a fuss about it, as for eating, I AM ALWAYS HUNGRY! The result of using my tiny little brain.

Thought tomorrow can have an early rest since I will be going to school. Ended up, there's a meeting at 5:30pm. So gonna cab down after school.

O well, shall start doing work now...

I miss you guys.. LOTS

-all you have to do is ask-

I cant help but blog. No idea why..

First of all... I CAUSED A FIREWALL TO CRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Am I power or what? But hey, I really didnt do much. =X

Then busy with a project that the call center takes.

So much to do.. Final Report, PPT, CV, tidying of room, resting, reading.. Endless. But so little time!!!!!

And CNY is coming soon!!! Baking cookies!!!! O my..

Tell me what to do.

So cant wait for next week.

I love you guys... Dont forget this!

And daniel.. I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!

So much to say..

No idea why it came back again.

I thought it will be gone.

But its back.

Sucks.

Dont ask whether I'm ok.

I wont be able to answer.

Last time. Two words I always say.

But it only leads to another last time and another.

two weeks

Yet another weekend..

Had over time till 12am yesterday. Tired..

Pretty lucky to get attached to my current workplace. Lots of thanks to the people there!!!!

But then again... I miss you guys.. Nvm, we SHALL meet up soon!!!! I promise.

Just went to IKEA just now in the afternoon. Bought quite a number of stuffs. And I ordered a cabinet. I pay for it myself k? hehe. Now theres somemore to put my softtoys... Cant wait for it to arrive this tuesday.

My back is hurting. No idea why. If I wasnt tired yesterday night, I wouldnt be able to sleep. Hurting today when I was walking in IKEA too.

When I'm upset, I see nothing else. If you remember, please show it. Dont let me assume that you dont. I can understand if another thing pop up. I will get upset, but I will still understand. What will upset me most is you not remembering.

Bottom line: I'm stupid. Stupid enough to miss you.

Recap of Year 2006

Recapping... Lots happened this year. But like people say, there will be a good ending, if there issnt one, its still not the end yet! And yes, I did have a good ending for the Year 2006. Its just too wonderful and amazing for me to believe it! People who made my life at poly wonderful are there with me. People who made me smile are there. People who made me the happiest girl on earth are there.

Through out the whole year, there had been lots of ups and downs. Living through hell and out of it. Never do I want to go through that again. Trying to smile and be ok when everything are obviously not ok with me. To go school each day preparing to fight another day of battle. Walking by people like I do not know them. Smiling when I feel like crying.

Working my ass off during holidays.

Studying just to prove I'm ok.

Leaving for aussie for two months because of him.

Didnt want to leave for two months because of him.

Trip to Korea which I enjoyed alot. 8days out of Singapore.

Enjoying my last sem in NP. As in really enjoying. Rushing of reports, esp FMM, rushing for deadlines, going out, deciding whether to apply for OIAP or not, burning midnight oil, going out at night for chit-chats, suppers, teddy.

The two months trip to aussie will be the most unforgettable thing of the year. 2mths of surviving on my own. Two months of tears and unpampered life. Two months of learning.

Everything are wonderful now.

Today then I realize. Memories are the most important. They are the most important thing on earth. Because memories can pull you through hard times. Of course not the bad ones. But to remember the good ones! I will never forget.

Nothing much matters besides those that you hold close to your heart.

Thanks for giving a good end to my 2006!

BBQ Chalet - Countdown - 31st Dec 2006

HAPPY 2007!!!!!!!!!!

I believe we all had a wonderful time at the countdown yesterday. Thanks so much for coming down!!!!!!! Love you guys lots.

Preparations started as early as 9am... Was up at 6:45am to do marketing! -_-!! Both my parents helped out.. cutting, cooking, washing, packing.. Thank yoU!!!!! If without them, I wont be able to finish everything in time!

And thanks to yh, chicky and zhanke for helping me with carrying of stuffs and preparing. Thanks so much.

Preparation..

my dad.. cutting up carrots for me


mum.. who cooked 2packets of beehoon for her dearest daughter


cl and me.. rotting ard...

My first time at Downtown East can?! lolz. So damn happy. Blur blur de.. No idea where to go and all. Lucky my helping star is there. *hehe* Never lost with him.

Even though some stuffs pop up because of my sotong-ness. Everything was resolve. Nothing can spoil the night!!!!! =X But I was a real sotong yesterday.. Too much stuffs to handle. But hey. I did it!!! Of course not without help from people around me. =)

our BBQ pit


vin, cl, tong, yh


me, cl, tong


my dearest bao bei and vin


cl and jas

We started the BBQ at around 6plus when jas arrived. Last BBQ tao tao did the starting up of fire. This time round, it became zhanke's job. And he really did a good job with it!!!! I swear I will send my children to NCC next time. If I ever have them. Even Jasmine commended that it's the BEST BBQ fire she ever saw!!!!!! I help to light the fire hor!!!!! Dont say I never do anything. haha.

waiting for the fire to start...


best bbq fire in the world


first batch of food..


US!!!!!!!


half Cook of the day and the best man to do fire starting for BBQ


dearest jas


the fire that will goes on and on

One of our lec came...

the whole lot of noisy us..


tao tao doing stunt as usual

Did our countdown with lots of fuN!!!!!!! Champange (spelling?), poppers, spraklers (spelling), cheerings, and lots of fooling around. Damn high... And I went around taking photos with every single one of the people at the chalet!!!!!

Introducing..

Yingtao. The fatherly figure in our group. The one who solve stuffs and cheers people up. The one who is there to help everyone and anyone.


Ah tong akak Shaun. One of my besties. One who always know how to have fun and enjoy life. Like me, he knows how to enjoy good food! And he's always there for me.. Love ya!


Vincent. The study one in the group. And the tallest with the biggest tummy!!!!!!!! If you ever need an air-con but cant afford one, just give him a call! He's damn lame and cold.


YanHui. The anime one in the group. Ask her anything about any anime, you will get an answer. The helpful one too. No matter what you ask her, she will try her best to help you out. Thanks for always listening to me....


Zhanke. Wonderful and bestest friend. Best at everything and anything. Even if it's something he's not good at, he will figure a way out. My life saver. There's nothing to worry with him around. Fun loving guy! Thanks for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even though you will not be seeing this.. I meant what I said.


Jasmine. The siao one in the group. My primary school classmate. Also the most busy one! Hard to date her. She's fun, caring, friendly, always there to lent an ear!!!! She might be busy but her heart is always with us!!!!! Love you girl.


Chinling. Another besties of mine. Been through alot throughout her 3years in poly. But she pulled through!!!!!! A strong girl. Love her lots too. No matter how stupid I got with my life, no matter how low I went, she is always there to support unconditionally. Even though its wrong. Thanks so much. You know I always love you.


Alzan. Cl's bf. I can only say this: YOU BETTER DONT HURT CL!!!! IF NOT WE WILL LOOK FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!


Huiwen. Thanks for coming. Though we never talk much in school. But ya, its fun to have you around the chalet. =)


William. Huiwen's bf. Come my chalet and fall asleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What the.. haha. Thanks for your drink and time! Come early next time. lolz.

After that. The room turned into a gambling den!!!! Played for like an hour or two before we stop. Or rather I stop. lolz. And the rest continue.

gambling den. on the bed.

Activities ease at 4plus... WAnna sleep de went to sleep. Those wanna stay awake then went outside to continue playing..

Cant really sleep. Hardly sleep at chalet too..

Wake people up and last few photos to take before we all left for breakfast..

A big big thanks to everyone who make the night possible!!!!! Cant thank you guys enough.. Especially you. There might be ups and downs along the way but hey, what matters is everything turned out to be wonderful in the end!!!!

I'm really happy. Everything was worth it. No words can really tell you guys how much it meant to me.. =)

No idea what happened to yesterday's post. O well.

For 3nights in a row, had been playing dai dee with friends till wee wee hours. One night is even later than the one before. 1plus to 2plus to 3plus. Addicted. But it was fun!!!! And cool. A great way to spend the night. But of course. With a price to pay. Sleepiness for the next day.

Watched Death Note 2 yesterday even though I have yet watched Death Note 1. Sat till my butt pain. 2hours plus movie. Some parts are pretty funny, some, pretty slow. Better now watch the anime before watching the movie. Anime will only decrease your interest in the show.

Finally I bought cross stitch!!!!! Gonna start it on monday.

Chalet tomorrow. =) Or rather countdown. It might be just a small gathering, but I'm more than happy. Just a simple bbq, small group of friends, all under one roof.

Packed my room today. Preparing it to be paint! Cant wait to go ikea the next weekend to get drawers. Wondering what to do with my soft toys.. Too many of them! So much so I'm thinking of giving them away. Any takers?

Next week onwards, I will be damn free after work. All because school is starting, again... haiz. Please start asking me out!!!!!!! lolz

Cant wait for tomorrow.

What the fuck..

One moment I cant shit, another moment, I having tummy ache. -_-!!

Anyway, today reached home 1 hour earlier than usual. SLACK AR!!!!! First time in donkey years. Whole morning was spent discussing where to go after we grad from NP and replying a mail.

Cool~

Rained the whole day again...

Suddenly my parents started talking to me about BGR. -_-!!

Shouldnt have come home early!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still craving for my kfc..

Praying hard I will feel better on countdown.

Actually it feels good. Really.

miss miss miss you people lots..

There's so much I wanna eat!!!!!

Christmas Eve..

Moments of the day I did regret.

But at times, I did enjoyed.

Saw friends that I never saw for years. Nothing much changed.

Sweet.

Thanks.

For that few hours, I didnt regret...

For that few minutes, I was happy...

All I want for Christmas is you.

You and you only.

Merry Christmas to all!

I finally spent some time with my lao gong..

Had been out every night for the past week besides tuesday. If it wasnt raining that day, I bet I will be out the whole 5days.

And and... I finally have a new pair of jeans!!!!!!! Saw that first, but didnt have the right size so went over JP, ended up back at where I started. =X But in the end, still got the wrong size.. Kind of big. Should have went for the last 4 pieces in Singapore.

*super miss typing on my lao gong*

O ya, then met up with lene on monday. Finally. Caught a movie and ended up quite late.

Wednesday and Thursday night was burnt in JP.

Then today went for dinner with company people.

Before that, re-did the minutes for the meeting for like countless of times. But at least I got it right in the end. =)

AND, for the first time in ages, I HAVE NO OT FOR THE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not counting today.

So happy can?

But zillions of stuffs are waiting for me at home to get it done.

I wanna go ikea, I wanna go have western and korean food, I wanna meet my sec sch and poly friends, I wanna sleep, I wanna gain some weight at the RIGHT places, I wanna tidy my room, I wanna go shopping, I wanna watch movies, I wanna go chill out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So much to do.

And christmas is coming.

Long story why I ended up at where I'm going.

And to say the truth, I still mind. Alot in fact. But, o well.

Countdown chalet might just turn out to be ok. =)

I MISS YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!

p.s pls dun think that if i nv reply ur sms or pick up ur call, i'm being unfriendly. its just that my hp bill for this mth is really way over! and my bank account have yet recover from my aussie trip. so pls forgive me if i nv reply any of ur sms. SORRY!!!!!

Finally on my laptop. Wanna make it blue screen so that I will know what is the cause of it. =X Which means, I can FINALLY load pictures up!!!!! The two love of my life. hehe.

Last wednesday onwards had been doing OT. 1 day later than the next. Wed ended work just before 12, finish work at a little after 12 on thursday and finally, friday, went home at only 1plus in the morning! Really tired ourself out. Totally. Still thought that thurs no need overtime. Ended up, have to. O well..

Then sat slept almost the whole day. =X Only woke up at 2pm and went off to sleep at 4plus again after taking med and only woke up at nearly 6 for dinner and to bathe. Happily sleep the day away. haha.

Brought anna for a hair cut at heatwave.. Yes. Again I know. Had been going there weekly just to bring people go cut hair and to see my jaren. And recently, he had appeared in the offical unoffical blog of superstar. -_- Wt... He's just too charming. =X *anyone want cut hair???*

Time for photos...


on job assignment at suntec


in the office


kim, me, ching, bryan


JAREN!!!!!!!!!!


mandy styled tong's hair

my stylist lah.. still got who...

and again.. sweet jaren and me

I can never get over how sweet my stylist is.

Hopefully the coming week wont have much OT.. miss my friends!!!!!!

And I hereby invite everyone to my countdown chalet.. but of course got to pay money lah.. =X

whether i will stay here or go oversea

depends on you

Time flies. Seriously, if I dont go to my own blog, I have no idea when I last blogged.

OT yesterday till 12, and today too. Only get like 3hours plus of sleep and off I went to work again. For the past few days, the only people I see, is those in my office, ATC, clients, and thats about it. Almost like 24-7 with ching.

Falling sick too. Caught a flu bug. Coughing, running nose, sore throat.

But the people there very good to us. =) Even offer us a place after we grad. Cool right?

Projects and tenderings.

i miss seeing people other than those in my office and FM related people!!!!!!!

Another long day tomorrow. If things go well, we will be able to go home to sleep, if not, it will be overnight in the office.

i miss you guys..

i miss you

Over the weekend, I didnt have to wake up at 6am BUT for both days, I woke up at 6plus and got a shocked, thinking I will be late for work AND/OR wtf, what happened to my alarm. And it took me a few seconds to recall that its WEEKENDS and not weekdays.

This happened for both weekends.

Horrible feeling I had in the morning..

random thoughts

hug me pls

i'm scared

Went out with anna yesterday to have a walk around town. It feels damn irritating that I cant buy anything! Partly due to a change in spending habit and hugely till to having seen anything that caught my eyes. Damn.. And we had walked the whole of taka, wisma, heeren, abit of bugis..

Walked to get some tees, the only clothing that will suit my current working nature, but nothing I like.

Maybe when I'm in a good mood, should go roam around town again and get something.

Shoes.. need them too. Painting 1 pair tonight.

Ordered $70 worth of korean food from the shop in cathay. *smile*

Bought a organizer. Purple again.

And since my dad is retired, he's going to paint the house! Grey in the living room, the shade that Bryan always uses, blue in my room. The rest of the house, I have no idea. lolz.

'i dote on you the most'

write more later if i feels like it. mixed feelings.

A working week just passed like this.. In a flash.

Tuesday had overtime till 11pm. Was out of office since morning till 6plus in the evening, and then, got to do overtime till 11pm. Then everyone had to choose that time to call me. Mostly calls from home asking when I going back, then a call from jaren aka my hairstylist. *shocked*

Even though we all went home late on tuesday, we all had to go to work at 8:30am the next day. If you wanna ask me what I did, I dont really remember. Too lazy to check my "notes". Only remember no OT.. lolz. O ya, met charlene to MS!!!!!!! So happy. Finally saw her after 3mths..

Then on thursday, we was taught how to use a equipment, then rotted around, do maintenace for computers, do abit of this and that, then stayed in the office till 7pm plus, then went dinner with adrian, joel and ching. My memory stopped there. =X

Friday. Happiest day of the week. GOT TO SEE MY HAIRSTYLIST!!!!!!! Anyone see him also happy.. lolz. 8am started working till 5:30pm. Went off on the dot, then jaren still call to rush me.. -_-!! Where got people like that de lah!!!! Then just waited there while he cut hair for cl and tong. Good intro ba? Babana never anyhow intro de.. lolz. Tong went off then yh came.. Dinner at cavana and we had a fun time roaming around MS and laughing away. On the way home saw lene again.

Thats about it I guess...

O, still got, thurs during lunch time I saw BRYAN WONG!!!!!!! Take pic somemore.. =X Kenna interviewed.

I also got pic with jaren liao!!!!!!!!

But my lappy spoil then not with me, so ya, got to wait lah hor...

*so happy yesterday*

my stylist is the best. =D

dun argue..

My new love: w810i (white)

I so happy!!!!!!!

Bought scones to work for them to eat.. all complain hard besides ching. Then help EMSU with something, some communication breakdown somewhere, assigned new work, lunch, work again, going here and there, entering and leaving the office. Busy, but I enjoy it. Truely.

Going on site tomorrow. OT. Rushing of work, again.

Cant wait for friday to come. Can see him again. =X I'm crazy about him. *smile*

Guess my bill will be over this month. With all the things going on.

Only wish that I can meet everyone up more often..

everynight i say my prayers to the stars

So much to say. So much to type. But whenever I come to this site. I dunno what to write.

But anyway. I love you guys. =)

Starhub have W810 (white) again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAhahahaha.

And 1 set is reserved for me. =P

Tomorrow.

No matter how hard it gets.
I will pull through!

I cant wait for 31st dec.

Both kenny will be out of town this mth and back only on 31st.. Safe trip guys.

Went to have 'zi cha' again. (spelling?) And guess where? All the way to Hougang. -_-!! Damn far can? Spent like 1hr plus to get there... Mrt to YCK and then change 2 buses. But food was very good, so worth it. =)

No picture this time round. Only took my ezlink card and phone out. hehe. Empty handed.

Had fish head steamboat, thai-style fish head, malay vege, claypot sea cucumber, stir-fry vege and sweet and sour pork.

I'm a true chinese. lolz.

Had only half a bowl of rice, and the rest of the space in my stomach is full of the food I mentioned above, soup of the steamboat and 1 cup of home-made lemon tea (which was heavenly!)

For 2 days I had been eating quite alot for dinner. =X

Then on the way home on the cab, my bladder was like going to burst can. Drink too much. =X Countless bowls of soup.. Ran home just to pee.

Baked in the morning. Scones.

Was surpised in the morning when I saw the missed call. But timming wasnt right, got to turn it down. Sorry.

Feel so overflowing.

Lene coming back.. =D

Got people pei wo chill out le!!!!!!!!

Enjoyed myself at work today. Finish one assignment. In the afternoon went on site with Adrian, went to HDB roof top, pump room, switch room. By the time we went back to office, its almost time to end work. So I happily spent the day working! Cant believe it. I'm actually enjoying it.

Then parents came down for dinner today.. To this coffee shop beside my office. DAMN nice loh!! Dont say I never warn you guys.. Pictures of F-O-O-D again..

B-E-W-A-R-E!!!!!!

Tong.. dun say I never warn wor..

fried rice

VERY NICE!!! I hardly willing to eat rice outside my house. But I just cant resist this stall. The smell of the rice, smell of the big fire they used to fried this.

Hor fan

Ok, I must say something first. I never touch any hor fan unless its really good. And so, this stall has really one of the best hor fan! Just cant stop eating it. Ate the same serving of this as my crispy noodles. Or maybe even more! So believe me, its really worth trying. And it only cost $3. Really cheap.

Crispy Noodles

Had this on the first day of my work for lunch. Of course this is heavenly, if not I wont have go back to this stall. They really did deep-fried the noodles and then put the gravy on top of it. For a period of time, lots of stalls do not do it this way and just cook everything together, which is horrible. This is like one of the best I ever tried.

Claypot chicken with yam

Dad wanted some chicken and thus ended up with this dish. Yam was of good quality. Chicken was tender. With a hint of spicy-ness. Nice. But not something that I like to have without rice due to its strong favor.

Oat prawns

One of mum's fv. Mine too. Just walking pass tables that ordered this dish, you can smell it! Not really that great. But well, passable. They used egg to deep fry with the oat, which add points to it since deep fried egg is wonderful!

Yup. Thats my dinner with my parents.. Jealous? lolz. =X If you guys want, can come down for dinner too. Not expensive.. =)

What I wanna write I also forget.. O well.. Sometimes its better to just forget.