Day 8

Dar, something for you:

勇气

终于作了这个决定
别人说我怎么不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

Rather meaningful at this point of time. =)

Was chatting with bf about HDB just now. Flats are getting so expensive now! Gosh. Then the BTO flats at jurong west ave 2 is in the middle of two MRTs, which is something I dont want. I want to be able to get to one MRT without the need of a bus or walking distance without any shelter. Sighz. I want my own house.

Driving tomorrow. Parking.

More than halfway done with my lead assignment. How wonderful!

Cant wait till you book out...

Day 7

Exactly a week since bf went Tekong. Seriously, I miss him alot today. I dont know why. Just a hug from him to chase all my worries and stress-ness away. But all I have in accompany with me is Heart the Care Bear which is suppose to represent bf while he serves his duty to our dear country, Singapore.

Trying to do my assignment over this weekend so I have more time with bf next weekend.

Dar, i really miss you tonight. I thought it would be easy, but no, its not. Nothing is the same without you around physically. Even my house feel slightly empty without your presence and laughter. 7 more days, or rather 8 more days till we meet. Our tortoises are getting bigger and bigger.

Day 6

Bf calls me at least once a day. That what he promised and he did it. =D

Work not really smooth for the pass two days. I wish bf will be here. But like what he told me, its a learning process and at the end, I will be able to learn something. Most importantly, WO KE YI DE! Bf believe in me, so I must also believe in myself. Though bf inside Tekong and cant be around physically, mental support is better than nothing! =)

Thanks dar, for your encouragement.

Taken quite abit of photos, but no time upload. hehe.

Day 2

Bf called 3 times today and he's coughing. Tekong flu, thats what they call it.

Went Bugis Junction and Iluma to celebrate Tong's birthday. Had a good time with them. And I finished the whole plate of beef fried rice. Not alot in the first place. Bf would have said that, coze the portion would not be sufficient for him. The beef was good, worth the price. Sashimi was heavenly. Closed to what I had in Japan. Hamachi is currently my favourite.

Next up will be my birthday..

But before that, there's two assignments to complete.

Jia you!

Dar, I miss you.

Day 1 & 2

First morning I woke up with bf in Tekong. He called 3 times last night. Which was a sweet thing. Every chance he caught, Im sure to get a call from him. =) His bunkmate must be wondering why this gf so demanding. lolz.

Sent him off to Jetty only as I need to go to work at Tekong with the next boat over. Was a bit sad to send him off this way. Its the first time we will be separated for such a long time. Felt kind of empty not knowing when the next call will be and not able to contact him when I feel down.

But fear not. I woke up at 7am today and change B-zai and Win-zai tank! It had always been bf job to do so. But today, I took over the role. Otherwise the water might just 'spoil' and our two precious will not like it. Now they are happy with their fresh tank of water.

2 weeks will pass very fast.

And. I still have no idea where to put my 21 Care Bears!

This blog issn't fill with happiness anymore.

I no longer wrote about our happiness here. But, its starting to fill with all the sadness and heartbroken memories. Today is yet another such day.

I cried on the bus on my way home.

I shopped with no smile on my face.

I ate dinner without speaking.

None of which I normally do.

Why. Why is things becoming this way.

Will another chance solve everything? Or maybe I should just walk another direction?

Its so painful.

Tonnes had happened during this period that I hadnt been blogging. No longer has the patient to do such a thing anymore. Especially with everyone having Facebook to update each other of our individual life.

Trying very hard at work to handle my guys. And myself.

Very tiring to handle work, school and my own life. Trying to find a balance between of these things that is going on in my life right now. But apparently its hard.

Had a meet-up session with alot of my friends over the past 2 weeks.

With both of us working now, work that tired us alot, I cant help but feel the distance. It kinds of hurt. I teared once not long ago. Over what I cant remember. But it was one of the night that I felt so unwanted. Had we been together for too long to remember that sweetness require to maintain a relationship? Had we been so used to each other that we forgotten the closeness we used to share? Had we been so sure that we will get marry that we keep postponing our rare dates? Had we been so busy that we have no time and patient for each other?

Why I decided to finally 'pen' down all these because I felt like I lost myself in the midst of all these things that are now happening in my life. I had been so busy and tired that I feel kind of breathless now. Maybe he had longed forgotten how much I longed to have a warm homecook meal with him.

I hate it when he make fun of me at times. Especially when its something I put my heart in to do. I tried. I really did.

At the end of a long working day, a night of restless schooling, all I need is a few words of comfort. Or simply, a 'good night'.

Maintaining a relationship is not easy. Not when you are tired.

Been awhile since I last posted.

Done with my exams and went straight to HK a day after my exam for a 5D4N trip with mum and bf. Was a HUGE damage on my bank account!

Started my driving lessons. Almost every weekend I will be having lessons. It feels good to drive actually. Kind of enjoys the lessons. And so far my instructors are pretty good.

=)

Blogger FINALLY accept photos again! Goodness.. Anyway, Im having a break away from my notes this afternoon because I dont wanna ended up napping.

the study table of one of the nites. Removed my lappy to reduce distraction. BUT, Jetty is able to go Wi-fi. So it kinda defeat the purpose too! argh

both bf and friend doesnt like this giddles burger from Mc. But I kinda of love it. =X Breakfast for one of the study session with Sarah.

my current fv way of having my corns. Steamed. Sweet!

Lastly, as I was home today instead of out studying, I fried noodles for everyone! Cant really see the noodles from the pic. I swear by dried mushroom and carrot. =D Even grandma like it.

Hong Kong trip is confirmed. Now only waiting for the confirmation of the hotel we are staying at. *loves* Have yet plan all the places to go. Need to spend time on studying the map. SHOPPING! They are having their summer sales right now.

tata~

Something is not right with blogger hence, no picture for now. And I'm also lazy to upload any photos. Not that life had been interesting so far. Some updates:

a) Follow-up check up at SGH. Got some not very good news basing on the doc's explaination. Not something I would want to write here. Wanna know can ask me. But ya, I hadn't cry over it yet. But I guess I will in the future. =) Be strong ya?

b) 'Offically' off work till end of Aug as I will be having my exams, study break, and follows by a 5D4N free-and-easy tour to Hong Kong. Been there when I was in Sec 1. Memory fading. So going back to make new memories with bf and mum. Yes, my mum is coming along. Not a bad thing though. =)

c) Work was ok. But getting abit stress out.

d) Doc confirm my 'headaches' had upgraded to mirgrains. Which issnt a good thing at all. *sighz*

e) I miss shopping and sleeping. Been ages since I rested. Had been rushing my school stuffs for the past 1 month or so..

f) I really have a very very good boss.

g) I wont be free for meet-ups. Only available on 20th (thursday) for dinner and after I come back from Hong Kong.

I'm going HK from 21 Aug to 25 Aug with bf and mum. =)

Why do you not believe what I said.

Why do you have to counter everything I said?

You mean there is a difference between my doctor and the doctors over at your side?

Dont they all learn the same thing in medical school?

I had still not yet decide how to react to the news.

And you aren't helping one bit.

I was touched when you said its ok just now. But now? 180degree change.

Can't you understand the importance of this to me?

Why instead of comfort, I got attack.

Is this how its going to be for the rest of our life?

Some pictures taken during the concert:

Didnt expect that private cameras are allow so I didnt brought my digital camera along. But still, memories will always be there. *smiles*

Yet another week! Its 0222h now. Just revised some topics that I missed during this week as I woke up super early at 5:30am for two days this week due to work. So ended up I missed quite a bit of school stuffs. Plus I had been sleeping in class again!

Had a mini test today. Hopefully I score.

Exam in less than a month time. Time for notes writng...

And I got my phone back. Love it!

Bf mum cooked chicken rice today. Yum yum.

I miss home-cooked food!

So random. Coze my brain is half asleep...

Attended Sun Yan Zi's concert yesterday night.

Left the house slightly late, miscalculated the travel time. But all in all, we reached there at 8:30pm but the concert hadn't start so its good for us!

It was a very touching concert. Because you can actually feel that she's at home, at ease. Performing in your homeland does really make a difference. There's 2 or 3 times that I wanted to tear. Touching!

Encored 2 times. Both times she just wore a T-shirt, jeans and boots out.

All in all, the $150 was well spent. Watching a local singer does make a difference as compared to a oversea talet. I wasn't even so touched with Jacky Zhang concert.

*high*

Before the concert, I went Chapter 2 at JP to had a change of hairstyle! Because they are having a 30% off all hair services due to GSS. Good for me ya? I ended up re-curling my hair and highlighting it. The end result is really good. But its not really so kind on my bank account. BUT, at least it pleases both boyfriend and me. PLUS, if theres no 30%, I would never ever highlight my hair!

Boyfriend is now at IMM getting my new phone! Samsung Jet. Woohoo~ New toy on the way!!!

I'm a happy ger.
Who say money cannot buy happiness.
When you have no boyfriend, no friends, money is the only thing that make you feel better. Otherwise why you think I shopped so much back then? *wink*

I love money. But I love boyfriend more.

因为你，我不再是一个人。谢谢。=）

2nd Year Anniversary
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3 days ago it marked the day boyfriend and me had been walking hand in hand for two whole years. The road wasn't a smooth sailing one, especially the first few months. Even now, I felt guilty of treating boyfriend that few months. But I'm glad we are past that stage.

Sad to say, we never really have a honeymoon period because I was already busy with my studies at that point of time.

We did fight. We compromise, but we do know each other temper and when to take a step back to prevent anything worst from happening. And most of the time I'm the one who make things worst because I have a even terrible temper and impatient nature.

Once when we 'fought' at St James, boyfriend cousin 'shaked' me and reminded me how far we came and how much boyfriend really treasure the relationship.

Both of us had been real busy. But thankfully, we always made a point to meet whenever possible. Tired we are with our own stuffs, working, schooling, family, yet we never forget each other.

It became second nature of family and friends to call us to find either one.

Yesterday we went Billy Bomber at Jurong Point for dinner. A rare treat because we hadn't had such an expensive meal in awhile. And the manager there knows boyfriend as he used to work there and he is also friend of boyfriend's brother. Though not close, he was one of the few people who saw us 'grew' up because we will once in awhile dropped by for a chat with him.

Its all this small stuffs that made 'us' us.

Though there wasn't any celebration. It doesn't really matters. Because so long we are happy together, nothingelse matters.

Dar,
Thank you. I promise I will make up to you once I graduate. We will have a better life 2years down the road.

With Love,
Your Girlfriend

soon-to-be 2 years

Yes! I can finally upload photos. Finally wrapped up my 2 assignments. 95% there I think. Gonna hand them in later this week. Thereafter, I would need to prepare for exam! Gosh.





Went Bugis with bf today as I wanted to go National Library to do my assignment. No distraction and quiet. A pretty good environment to do assignment and study. Planning to go there next week. But before we went over, had lunch at Bugis Junction B1. Japanese ramen. MOF's ramen is better. So dont bother trying this store.






I ordered their mini-set-meal which consist of a mini portion ramen and rice bowl. But the portion is not mini at all! So pretty much worth the price, no service charge too!

mini sapporro ramen

mini rice bowl (eel)

scallop roll with salad


bf's spicy ramen with thick soup base

Went mini-shopping at Bugis Street after working on my assignment for like 3hours. Bought a shoulder bag! $39 only. Quite cheap. Think from Hong Kong if I not wrong. Mum was surpised I bought a bag of such a price. -_- Must budget! I wanna go Korea shop!

Some quick update:

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  im burnt from standing at 90m high for 3hours on Friday morning


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  went Toa Payoh Office for BBQ (my 'home' in CPG FM)


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  wanting to get a new phone, most likely Samsung


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  going concert next week


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  work is piling up


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  theres cases of H1N1 at my working place but contained and I was on leave when the cases surface. so dont worry, i'm 'clean'


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  bf cut his hair

Went with bf to have a 3d2n break away from everything. Just the two of us. Had a last minute invitation to friends and family for a BBQ. Was fun.

Watched Transformer too. Good movie.

Im so used to having bf around. Most of the weekends hes at my place. Taking care of all the small stuffs as long as I do my work.

And I miss him already. Though we only part 1 hour ago.

How am I going to survive when he enlist???!!!!!

p.s. tekong got h1n1. but everything would have tone down when he get enlist in oct. argh.

pics next time.

24 hours later I will be meeting up with bf for our chalet cum 2 year anniversary!

Im happy because I can finally spend time with bf without having to worry about work or school. Its something rare for me, with the constant assignments, exams and work going on in my life. Plus, we are 2-year-old early next month!!

Been sick whole of last week. A fever that refuse to go away and running nose and cough that is always there. Horrible week, yet I still have to squeeze time to do my assignments. THeres 2 this sem, 1 group work and 1 individual. Both are killer. And damn, missed a week worth of calsses.

Movie, BBQ-ing, rotting, looking at the stars, just being together with each other. Thats all I'm going to do for the next 2days.

For now, I still have to fulfill my position as a student and do my assignment. *clearing leave*

I love not working! =X

bf, i love you.

Almost two weeks since my last entry. And as usual, it felt longer.

In these two weeks, today is MY-DAY. I passed my Basic Theory Test today, finished within 15minutes. Booked 10 sessions of pratical lesson, there goes S$600. And theres another S$600 in my BBDC account waiting to be spend. My first pratical lesson will start in late Aug, after my trip to Korea.

Work is getting better.

Saw rainbow last Friday at work. The rainbow stretched over the whole Sentosa, looked damn wonderful. The best rainbow I had seen thus far. Sadly, I cant upload the photo I took. =) And in case you are doubting, my site office is really facing Sentosa, their golf course in particular.

Finished all my testes, I bet I will fail one of them.

Shall start on my assignments! Due in a month time.

Counting down to the mini-getaway with bf in less than 2 weeks time.

And I self-invited myself to Aussie in Dec. That is if I have enough cash at that time. Just one 2-way ticket and one luggage and I will be good to go. S$3000 should be good enough for everything.

Schooling tomorrow. *burnt weekend*

Contented. Satisfactory.



i'm not an achiever. it just so happen that i'm doing all these together at the same time. theres also times that i regret doing so many things at a go. but when everything is going smoothly, the sense of satisfactory and achievement cannot be understand by others who hadnt gone through such experience before. but when things did not go the way i want, no one can really understand how disappoint i am with myself.

Tests next week. 2 super chim assignment this sem due July. But unlike last sem, I do not have the energy to study nor go through the piles of information I had with me.

And this week I only managed to have one dinner with bf. 2 hour max. The time we are together.

Nothing I studied seems to stay in my brain.

On the bright side, mum registered us for the 6D Korea 'Han-Style' Tour Package at CTC.

Its the only tour that attracts me. And the main purpose? Shopping at TFS. Will be setting aside at least 400 to shop there.

I miss not studying..

Restless.