Long weekend is coming to an end soon. =(

I'm really enjoying myself. Though there's no party to attend, no friends to laugh with, no crazy stunts, but still, I'm contended with simple meals, watching movie quietly with boyfriend by my side, going out knowing he will be home waiting for me, playing Wii with 2 friends pop-ing by, chocolate fondue prepared by boyfriend.

No fuss over christmas.

No mess to clear up.

Been awhile since I felt so at ease with myself.

And boy, do I appreciate boyfriend from being around.

Driving soon!!! =D

I'm really happy today. It had been nearly 6months since we last catch a movie together. And I had been nagging at him for ages to bring me to the movies. And today we went!!! Avatar. A great movie.

Movies and k-box are two time-consuming activities that we enjoyed doing together but rarely able to fulfill our craving. =D So I'm a really happy girl today.

And I had straightened my hair!!!! And boyfriend really like it.

Never felt so happy in a long time.

Its something that money cannot buy.

Not even when I bought Wii..

Had been having headaches for the past 1 week. With me pop-ing panadol everyday. Not a good sign.

Nonetheless I survived! And its Saturday tomorrow. Driving, studying and meeting up with boyfriend.

I seriously dislike when there's no reply. Not interested? Just say. Given sufficient notice. My weekend is precious if you hadn't notice yet. I dislike wasting my weekends away!

Took MC today as I was having bad cramps. A good sign means I'm having my period. But it affected my mood!!!! Made me so emotional. I almost cried yesterday coze boyfriend just booked in and I felt so alone.

Nonetheless, took care of myself while he's doing his part in tekong.

Now waiting for him to call.

And we are taking another step to building our future together. =) Jia you.

Boyfriend and I really treasure this long weekend as it means we will get to spend a total of 3days together. And its a rare treat since he's serving NS now.

On Thursday after finishing my BCSS course at Hillview, suddenly got the urge to shop for couple-related stuffs and so I dropped by Jurong Point. There's two shops there that carries stainless steel and sliver stuffs. And this is what I got for us... Simple but meaningful to us.

A pair of similar keychain that we can call ours. With our name engraved on it and a half-a-heart on each, it reads 'Darren *heart* Christina' and vice versa. Like stainless steel, our feeling for each other will not rust nor get weaken. With love, they are given from her to him.

And today, he surprised me with this...

Though not drew by boyfriend, its the thought that counts. He got a bunkmate that is good at drawing, and thus, this *point above*. He must had kept this for a week already as he had been looking for photo frame since last week. And he had refused to tell me why he looking for photo frame as he's not one to love taking photo and developing them. Now I know why...

Then on Friday afternoon, we went Ambush @ Jurong Point again. This time with my brother too. We had a really had a very good time enjoying the food and each other company. All the three items we had are from their value meal, average of $20 per pax.

Beef steak (180g). Abit on the high side, but its really good! Very good in fact. Though its between well done and medium, with very little blood, its very tender and soft. Easy to chew and able to taste the sweetness. Unlike those black pepper sauce or mushroom sauce outside, the mustard grain sauce used here does not overpower the original taste of the beef. Instead, it brings out the sweetness. For the fries, its very well done too. Crispy and moist inside. And I love their vege.

Mixed platter with pork knucker. Another amazing dish. Second time we are having this, and the taste still amazes us nonetheless. Thus, its really worth having. Though the serving does not looks alot, its really filling. Mash potato wise, its one of the best I had taste. Note that I dont take potato, but, this is really tasty enough for me to want to finish it. A must have.

Lamb shank. Boyfriend had it and he INSISTED I must have a taste when he knows I doesnt take lamb. What a bully. But I never regret having a bite. It does have the lamb taste, but not too overpowering and the texture is like having very tender and soft duck meat. And by boyfriend standard, its really good, so it must be really good. If you are a lamb lover, can try this.

Though Ambush service is not really that wonderful, but the food is enough to make me overlook that. I even wrote a compliment email over to them for having a consistent standard on their food. There's some food places we went to that had very good food one the first visit, but not so good on the next. So its really a happy thing for me to have a eating place that has consistency.

Then on Friday night, we didnt had anything planned, so shopped at 24-hour NTUC and bought Chocolate Fondue back... =D

Saturday was a studying day at home then I camped over at boyfriend's for a night. Woke up today and had my period. PAINFUL! But boyfriend made it better.

Was a very well spent weekend as we managed to do quite a number of stuffs. *happy* Boyfriend happy too.

Sometimes it really pisses me off.

But now its not a good time to do so.

I'm piss.

I'm suppose to be writing my notes for exam. But still, a quick one.

1) I forgot to mention that boyfriend and I had a hear-to-heart talk while counting down to my 22nd Birthday. Was a rare one as he's never the kind of guy that tells me what's on his mind openly. But I appreciate him opening up his heart and answering all my question marks over the years. It was really heart warming but yet touching. Made me cried for like 3 times. Once, when he mentioned how he felt about the saga between Zhan Ke and me, second time when he mentioned the initial part of the relationship was a tough one for him due to the sudden change in his life and third when he sang me my first birthday song on the actual day of my birthday. It made me ache for his warmth for a good one week. But now, there's no longer nothing I not know and nothing he not know. I'm actully happy that the talk happened. Now I know why he quited his dance, why he disppeared for one whole week, and I know why he held my hand for the first time (though for the wrong reason, but it ended up with a happy ending), and 070707 being our anniversay was not by coincidence! I actually thought it was by chance. Actually he had it planned. So silly of me.

2) I'm having my exam in 2 weeks.

3) I really have much less time with boyfriend now he got enlisted. So please be understanding when I put him first on weekends.

4) I just attended and completed my BCSS course. A pretty interesting and enriching course I had. Breeze through the paper. Should be able to ace it.

5) Getting a new maid soon. On 13th Dec actually. Finally. Cant wait to change.

6) I must really really study for my exam.

7) Boyfriend got marksman.

8) Boyfriend gotten us two free meals at Billy Bomber.

9) I gotten something special for the two of us.

10) I can't wait for boyfriend to come back to mainland Singapore.

Thats something I wanna talk to boyfriend about. But the earliest possible day is tomorrow.

Sighz.

Happy birthday to my dearest brother.

Its the weekend of the year again! Its yours truly birthday! Same date last year I had 30 close friends and colleagues at my house celebrating my 21st. And the actual day, boyfriend treated me to a heavenly traditional korean dinner off West Coast Road.

This year, the celebration was kicked-off by my new team of colleagues at PCG. My first birthday cake of the year! Was a surprise given by boss. Happy. Its the first time my colleagues celebrated for me. Means I'm pretty good to them ya? haha. It was a planned steamboat dinner at Candy's house.

On Saturday, 14th Nov, I had driving in the morning, then a trip to Chapter 2 for hair cut. And very expensive shopping trip to Watson and The Face Shop! Just in 3 hours, I spent like $450. Gosh. But boyfriend didnt scold me.. hehe

Dinner was with polymates at The Central. Japanese food.

And I received a very special present from Ah Tong. =D Need I say more?

And boyfriend bought me a new pair of earphone that I had always longed for..

Boyfriend insisted on going home on a cab yesterday night. -_- All because its my birthday celebration, he insisted. Then boyfriend's friend called while we are in the cab asking us to go Farmart. And within 1hour, we ended up at Farmart prawn-ing. And I caught prawns myself!!! Aren't I a clever girl?

Manual for Princess Christina style of prawn-ing?

- No bait? Don't worry. Just lift the rod in front of boyfriend and let him do the job.

- Caught a prawn? Congrats! Lift the rob up, and boyfriend will do the rest.

- With a new bait, just continue to look for prawns.

- If in doubt, just call out 'Dar Dar'. And help will be there immediately.

The celebration will continue tomorrow. Which is my actual day. Planned a spa in the morning and lunch in the afternoon. =D

*happy birthday to myself

First Book Out

Boyfriend finally booked out from Tekong on Friday! But I was having school and very tired from not sleeping the night before, so I only meet him on Saturday. And stayed over for the night. Had a relaxing and fun weekend with boyfriend!

We went Ion and Orchard Central on Saturday! Finally. After having opened for months, we finally went to these two new shopping malls. Had a fun time at the Basement of Ion looking for food..

Our favourites from Ion..

and..

Spent like 30bucks on the finger food at Ion. Bought some home for boyfriend parents too. Then had a horrible time walking around the mall. Abit messy for the floor plan. Or maybe we just not used to it. And I finally visited their toilet. Really very interesting. =D

Then we went to Paragon and found this tiny little place that looks like wine warehouse. Price wise was pretty ok, so we bought 3 bottles of wine from them before heading for dinner and back home. Decided to keep dinner an economic one as we will be feasting next weekend for my birthday. *hehe* Yes. Its the time of the year again!

Headed back to boyfriend's not too late to slack. Pretty tiring. Had a good time chatting with his parents while watching SCV. Then boyfriend's friend came over for a drink while I continue enjoying the SCV.. It was already 1 2am when we finally decide to sleep.

Then we spent the whole Sunday afternoon shopping for stuffs that boyfriend need to bring back to Tekong. I bought ear plug from E-mart too! Met a rather friendly regular there. Maybe we look very lost. Thats why he decided to help out.

Soon its time for us to part...

Actually he looked pretty smart in his No. 4.

5more days till I next see boyfriend..

Day 10

Heart had been accompanying me through the late night on Saturday for assignment. And also the off and on youtube-ing of a new Taiwan drama. Cant wait for bf to book out on Friday. He will only reach mainland at 8plus at night, hence, I will only be able to see him on Saturday morning after my driving.. So excited!

Been having this terrible headache since yesterday night. Didnt even manage to talk to bf yesterday night coze of the effect from panadol. Hate it. Super moody today coze of the headache.

Bought fish slice noodle back from Harbour Front for dinner. Thats the only thing that I feel like stomaching. So ya... At least I ate something.

Day 8

Dar, something for you:

勇气

终于作了这个决定
别人说我怎么不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

Rather meaningful at this point of time. =)

Was chatting with bf about HDB just now. Flats are getting so expensive now! Gosh. Then the BTO flats at jurong west ave 2 is in the middle of two MRTs, which is something I dont want. I want to be able to get to one MRT without the need of a bus or walking distance without any shelter. Sighz. I want my own house.

Driving tomorrow. Parking.

More than halfway done with my lead assignment. How wonderful!

Cant wait till you book out...

Day 7

Exactly a week since bf went Tekong. Seriously, I miss him alot today. I dont know why. Just a hug from him to chase all my worries and stress-ness away. But all I have in accompany with me is Heart the Care Bear which is suppose to represent bf while he serves his duty to our dear country, Singapore.

Trying to do my assignment over this weekend so I have more time with bf next weekend.

Dar, i really miss you tonight. I thought it would be easy, but no, its not. Nothing is the same without you around physically. Even my house feel slightly empty without your presence and laughter. 7 more days, or rather 8 more days till we meet. Our tortoises are getting bigger and bigger.

Day 6

Bf calls me at least once a day. That what he promised and he did it. =D

Work not really smooth for the pass two days. I wish bf will be here. But like what he told me, its a learning process and at the end, I will be able to learn something. Most importantly, WO KE YI DE! Bf believe in me, so I must also believe in myself. Though bf inside Tekong and cant be around physically, mental support is better than nothing! =)

Thanks dar, for your encouragement.

Taken quite abit of photos, but no time upload. hehe.

Day 2

Bf called 3 times today and he's coughing. Tekong flu, thats what they call it.

Went Bugis Junction and Iluma to celebrate Tong's birthday. Had a good time with them. And I finished the whole plate of beef fried rice. Not alot in the first place. Bf would have said that, coze the portion would not be sufficient for him. The beef was good, worth the price. Sashimi was heavenly. Closed to what I had in Japan. Hamachi is currently my favourite.

Next up will be my birthday..

But before that, there's two assignments to complete.

Jia you!

Dar, I miss you.

Day 1 & 2

First morning I woke up with bf in Tekong. He called 3 times last night. Which was a sweet thing. Every chance he caught, Im sure to get a call from him. =) His bunkmate must be wondering why this gf so demanding. lolz.

Sent him off to Jetty only as I need to go to work at Tekong with the next boat over. Was a bit sad to send him off this way. Its the first time we will be separated for such a long time. Felt kind of empty not knowing when the next call will be and not able to contact him when I feel down.

But fear not. I woke up at 7am today and change B-zai and Win-zai tank! It had always been bf job to do so. But today, I took over the role. Otherwise the water might just 'spoil' and our two precious will not like it. Now they are happy with their fresh tank of water.

2 weeks will pass very fast.

And. I still have no idea where to put my 21 Care Bears!

This blog issn't fill with happiness anymore.

I no longer wrote about our happiness here. But, its starting to fill with all the sadness and heartbroken memories. Today is yet another such day.

I cried on the bus on my way home.

I shopped with no smile on my face.

I ate dinner without speaking.

None of which I normally do.

Why. Why is things becoming this way.

Will another chance solve everything? Or maybe I should just walk another direction?

Its so painful.

Tonnes had happened during this period that I hadnt been blogging. No longer has the patient to do such a thing anymore. Especially with everyone having Facebook to update each other of our individual life.

Trying very hard at work to handle my guys. And myself.

Very tiring to handle work, school and my own life. Trying to find a balance between of these things that is going on in my life right now. But apparently its hard.

Had a meet-up session with alot of my friends over the past 2 weeks.

With both of us working now, work that tired us alot, I cant help but feel the distance. It kinds of hurt. I teared once not long ago. Over what I cant remember. But it was one of the night that I felt so unwanted. Had we been together for too long to remember that sweetness require to maintain a relationship? Had we been so used to each other that we forgotten the closeness we used to share? Had we been so sure that we will get marry that we keep postponing our rare dates? Had we been so busy that we have no time and patient for each other?

Why I decided to finally 'pen' down all these because I felt like I lost myself in the midst of all these things that are now happening in my life. I had been so busy and tired that I feel kind of breathless now. Maybe he had longed forgotten how much I longed to have a warm homecook meal with him.

I hate it when he make fun of me at times. Especially when its something I put my heart in to do. I tried. I really did.

At the end of a long working day, a night of restless schooling, all I need is a few words of comfort. Or simply, a 'good night'.

Maintaining a relationship is not easy. Not when you are tired.

Been awhile since I last posted.

Done with my exams and went straight to HK a day after my exam for a 5D4N trip with mum and bf. Was a HUGE damage on my bank account!

Started my driving lessons. Almost every weekend I will be having lessons. It feels good to drive actually. Kind of enjoys the lessons. And so far my instructors are pretty good.

=)

Blogger FINALLY accept photos again! Goodness.. Anyway, Im having a break away from my notes this afternoon because I dont wanna ended up napping.

the study table of one of the nites. Removed my lappy to reduce distraction. BUT, Jetty is able to go Wi-fi. So it kinda defeat the purpose too! argh

both bf and friend doesnt like this giddles burger from Mc. But I kinda of love it. =X Breakfast for one of the study session with Sarah.

my current fv way of having my corns. Steamed. Sweet!

Lastly, as I was home today instead of out studying, I fried noodles for everyone! Cant really see the noodles from the pic. I swear by dried mushroom and carrot. =D Even grandma like it.

Hong Kong trip is confirmed. Now only waiting for the confirmation of the hotel we are staying at. *loves* Have yet plan all the places to go. Need to spend time on studying the map. SHOPPING! They are having their summer sales right now.

tata~