Boyfriend suddenly tell me that he has a class gathering with his sec 5 class on 6 Jul 2013. Which is 3 years away from now.

And..

He's bringing me along!

I asked whether I need to go with him, and the 'yes' 'of course' he gave is so assuring and sweet!! And he said they promised to bring their partners, attached or married. So I ask him whether he's going there attached or married. Or he wanna propose to me there.. =\

He made my heart feel so warmth. The assurance that we will still be together 3 years down and even longer than that!!! How touching.. *smile big big*

I love love my boyfriend.

Our face hadnt appear on this blog for a long long time. And it happens that this is my latest favourite couple photo with boyfriend. Its everywhere. On Facebook, handphone wallpaper, laptop wallpaper. Constantly seeing. We just look so loving and sweet! and I dont look fat!! =D

Anyway, life is hectic. Though its still the usual - work, school and boyfriend. But the degree of the hectic-ness increase by quite a bit. Assignments got more difficult and I just dont have the heart and strength to do it. It doesnt help that brother had broke up with his girlfriend and had been spending more time with him. And some how I think the endless lessons got on to us. Work-wise, people are quitting or soon in the process of. New colleagues will be joining us, but still, no matter how experience, it takes time for them to feel comfortable and adjust to our site. As for boyfriend, I really wish I have more time for him. I feel so bad that he accompany me through the weekend nights doing nothing even though he himself is sleepy, all because I have assignments and notes to go through. Really feel very bad towards him.

Just another few days, we will be together for full 3 years. Amazing it isnt it? Him and me. Two very different individual, went through all odds and came this far. Till this date I am still very very amazed by this relationship of him and me.

Having a some trip soon. Hope it will be good and enjoyable.

Had been having headaches since thursday. Imagine how horrible I felt for the past few days. Sleeping with a headache and waking up with one.

Planning our short getaway in Jul. =) thats the only thing I looking forward to. Thereafter, its rushing of assignments and exam in Aug. Just a bit more, I keep telling myself. Just a bit more and all this will be behind me. And I can enjoy to my fullest.

Very tempted to do something to my hair. Most likely the usual, rebond and highlight. Decided to stop going to Chapter 2 for awhile and try the household kind. Way cheaper.

Work is ok, but in a span of 2 months, 3 ppl resign. More or less affected. But o well, we shall see how it goes.

Today is the second time that I broke down at work during my 3years stay at my company.

The last time I did was during the initial stage of a new project. And job scope was unclear, and no discussion on who is in charge of what. And theres too many uncertainity and a super lousy project manager.

This time, it was more complicated. Abit of this and that, and I broke down. I called boyfriend and he was comforting. I managed to smile thereafter. But having to go back and answer to other people of my mood is a thing hard to deal with. I never learnt how to deal with my true feelings with other people. So I broke down. Very automatically.

A break will only be a temporary solution.

I can hide my mood pretty well if you let me. But I wasnt allow to..

Strangely, I didnt felt useless for breaking down. But rather, anger. Anger for letting these happen to me. Anger for letting these happen.

Boyfriend had fallen sick.. And its aching. The last time he was sick was when he's still in Tekong. One of the weekend after outfield, he had a really bad fever, but recover just in time to book in again. But now, he's delaying his 'sickness' from fully developed and hence unable to recover from it. Just delaying and pop-ing panadol. Which actually I disagree with. Anyway, finally managed to pester him to stop going camp tomorrow and see a doctor. Heard theres a flu virus runing around in his camp. Quite a number of his trainees already got the bug and fallen sick. It really aches me to hear his sick voice..

I FINALLY did some shopping!!!

Went Bugis with boyfriend yesterday afternoon. Just in a short afternoon, I bought 4 tops (3 of which from Moonriver), 2 heels (1 normal formal type, 1 open toe), 1 cushion for office and 2 bikinis!!! And the best part? Most of the stuffs are having discounts!

Moonriver is having 20% storewide + 10% additional for members. I was just trying my luck to drop by and see whether they are having any offers. Very frequently during long weekends, they will have this 30% storewide for members. And I met my favourite sale person there! She still remembers me. And I have 2 staffs out of 3 attending to me and commenting whether it looks good on me or not (coze boyfriend hadnt reach). As usual, point, try and pay. But something additional, they took more tops for me to try. Love going back there.

2 heels from Americaya. And, BHG is having 10% - 20% sales!!! And of course, I grad them off the shelves! Lucky boyfriend was there, otherwise I would have bought more because their heels are just simply so comfortable! Bought 1 normal, formal looking type and 1 open toe type which has a ribbon in front. Cute.

After failing to convience boyfriend to let me buy another pair of heels, we went over to Bugis Village. And after walking round and round, I top 1 knitted top! Oversize and skin colour. Can go well with anything. *loves*

Last stop for the day is at Iluma. Didnt expect to buy anything there, but ended up getting 2 bikinis. And also one message cushion!!! Made boyfriend pay for it because I charge too much to my card that day already. *evil smile*

Thats about all of the things I bought yesterday. Rather fulfilling until Boss called and Im required to go to site for work. -_- Kinda spoil my day. But the good thing was, I dont need to go back down today.

After re-watching Enchanted with boyfriend just now, we conclude:

Princes are stupid. Knight are clever. Thankful that boyfriend is my knight.

Enjoying my 2 weeks break away from school right now.

Though suppose to enjoy, work was horrible. Had been going on site due to some issue, hence no time in the office for paper work which I'm suppose to clear. In addition to that, no time and energy to organize the stuffs to teach and handover to the new girl. Felt kind of guilty. But luckily my colleague offered to take over the role. If not because of the dinner dates that I had been having / going to have, I would had most likely ended up going home quite late these few days, or rather 2 weeks. Promised myself that I will not skip any classes the next school term.

And I had came a long way for my degree. I had survived 1 year 4 months of schooling as a undergrad and at the same time work full time with a job scope of project coodinator and handles a few sites, and on top of these, obtain my driving license in March 2010 (after 7 months and $2,200). If anyone is to ask, I personally thing I had achieved quite a bit over this one year that I had transferred over to PCG. Though mutli-tasking so many stuffs at the same time had kind of compromise the quality, but I tried. Rather pleased with it.

25 March 2010, I finally obtained my driving license!!! Yes. I'm able to drive now. And had been driving for a few weekends. I'm so proud of myself. Boyfriend is too! *happy*

Tomorrow I will be visiting the specialist for my ankle. Kind of worry actually. I really have no idea what the specialist will propose and recommend for treatment. Boyfriend is worry too, worry that its actually something quite serious. The swollening started again when I got back to work. Hope everything will be ok in the end.

Its going to May 10 in a few days. And 2months plus later, boyfriend and me would had been together for 3 years! Can anyone believe it? 3 years and we are still so nicely made for each other. =D Planning a trip in July, and hopefully it wont get delay due to my ankle.

And I must really get a bath tub for my house next time!! Loving shower gels..

I should be studying. But still...

1) I'm still considering to change job or not. Ignoring the situation that two colleagues had resigned, I'm abit lost now. What do I want to achieve in my career once I finish with my degree? Go into safety industry? Or others? B had actually been very kind to me. And I'm really gladful and thankful to him. Knowing my condition, B planned a more desk-bounded job for me. But there is still an amount of walking about, something bf is not really supportive of. I'm still kiv-ing one other job, an option, but nothing is concrete. Its that and an incident that actually started the 'whether-to-change-job' discussion with bf. He agreed too that I can decide later this month again. No rush. Pay was also acceptable now since its sufficient to finance my insurances and left me with some shopping money. Self-sufficient. But there's so many factors to take into consideration too. Can I really adapt to a desk-bounded job? Of course I miss the manicures, heels, pretty clothes and no after-office-hour calls. But a possible pay-cut.. (yet to check)

2) Sick of studying sometimes. There's so many other things I wanna do and learn. Like, I had always enjoyed taking photos of food and write about them. But now, I didnt even have the time nor energy to post them in FB, much less write about them. I wanted to create a blog just for it, memories between bf and me, but still, time and energy. Might sound like excuses to some, but if you are in my shoes, you would have the same experience.

3) I hadnt bake/cook in ages. More than a year to be exact. Yes, that long. And to think I used to bake every weekend. More than one recipes at one go sometimes. Instead of the creator, I'm now the eater. I hate this.

4) Im no longer happy with my life now. Period.

Life is pretty much in a mess now.

Exam in three weeks.
One assignment due on 8 Apr
Feeling tired all the time
SGH on 9 Apr
Jurong Medical on 27 Apr

Feeling so messy now.

TP on Thursday. Hopefully can pass.

Around a week ago, I finally went to see a doctor for my aching leg. Actually went to a chinese doctor in AMK as I thought its a sprain or something. He mentioned something about ligament infection. Bandaged for a day.

But it didnt help much and everyone got worry about it. Especially the pain I get after walking for a while. Boyfriend kind of forced me to see a doctor and specialist. Boss offered to send me to the doctor yesterday after thinking and discussing, decided to go as the pain got worst after walking in the morning.

Sent to X-ray and found a crack in my ankle bone. How old is the crack, I have no idea. The doctor is not of much help also. Seeing the specialist at Jurong Medical in a month time. Hopefully not very bad news. And hopefully I can take the pain for another month.

the famous durain pudding from Swissotel Merchant Court

It was a roller coaster night with boyfriend. But all is well now. And I had a share of a $200 worth of bird nest cooked by boyfriend mother. Feels so love. =D Boyfriend even gave me half of his share. Sweet.

Went Swissotel Merchant Court today to celebrate boyfriend's mother birthday.

And I found a new love...

Their yam ice cream is HEAVENLY!!!! I thought Swensen's was the best, but Swissotel outdo her! Told boyfriend he would have to buy ice cream from Swissotel next time. =D

*us* while waiting at the lobby

Chinese New Year is half way through but I'm still in the festive mode due to the amount of Yusheng I had been eating recently! Yusheng aka chinese salad is only available during Chinese New Year. The mix of preserved vege, fresh vege and sour plum sauce give a very nice twist to the tongue. A good handful of crackers and salmon adds even more excitment to it! And I'm not afraid to have it for supper as its all vege. *loves*

Work was ok. Abit stress now and then due to the sudden rush of approval, arrangement and unpleasant changes. But its ok. I will tide through.

Didnt had school for awhile. But rushing assignments. Had been sleeping at 3am on weekends due to assginments. Hence, normally sleep earlier on weekdays. Otherwise I will age super fast!

Life with boyfriend is getting better. No reason why not. =D But I do miss more time with him.

Was having mood swing yesterday.

But today. One of my best day in the period of CNY.

Not only did I got to enjoy Astons again, I had a relaxed day with boyfriend and we managed to do two visitings today.

And the day ended with boyfriend cooking instant noodles for dinner.

I love love him.

He always manages to make me feel more at ease and comfortable.

Have another week of break from school and its meant for rushing assignments. 2 group and 2 individual assignments to complete before March. How wonderful!!! -_-

'i will always be by your side'

Is enough to make me fight the world.

Its 1 day to reunion dinner and I'm sick! Or rather, I had been sick for the past 4 days.

Not my worst sick week, but still, its not enjoyable besides the fact that I can sleep all I want and I really did SLEPT. Its like repaying my sleeping debt. For the first two days, one hour after consuming any form of medicine or food, I will need to sleep for like 2 to 3 hours and when I wake up, its time for another round of medicine or food. I was hardly awake.

Bf came over on Monday, claiming he got half day because I'm sick at home. Don't know how true. And yesterday, he surprised me with a visit while I'm sleeping again. *smile* But I know he's tired. Sorry..

I cant remember what happened for the week. =X

Next week gonna be a busy week.

Sunday - 1st day of CNY, relatives coming over in the afternoon till night
Monday - 2nd day of CNY, going over to Bf's early in the morning follows by my Gu Gu house and Bf's father's side for dinner and till late
Tuesday - 3rd day of CNY, no plans for me. But Bf going visiting. Either to tag along or stay home

Wednesday or Thursday - japanese dinner with bf's camp mates

Friday - Dinner at colleague's house & due date for 1 assignment

Saturday - Polymates coming over my house

Happening? I call it tiring.

Later tonight got to go Hyatt for cousin's solemnization. Due what time I don't know. The thought of dressing up is making me tired now.

Anyway. happy cny! =)

It had been a week since I last met boyfriend. *sad*

Since the start of 2010, we only manage to meet up less than 24hours each week. Its harder than I thought.

Every sem it never fails to amaze me whole I managed to survive the previous sem.

Just got my results. 1 credit and 1 pass. Not too bad if you ask me. For the module that I got a pass, 30% of the class failed. So its actually a pretty good result. =D *note to self, I think I hadnt tell boyfriend about my results*

Boyfriend having guard duty today. Lonely night for me. 2 hours till his next break, wonder to wait up for him or not. Kind of tired actually. Work had been rather texting and with the daily trip to school for lessons. The stress and load is really catching up on me. And its not helping that I'm not getting enough sleep from it.

For the past few days I even lost my appetite for the whole day. I couldnt remember the last time this happened. Not about to stomach any solid food. Even when I'm super hungry. Lucky boyfriend was tired enough not to deliver food to me.

=)

Today, both boyfriend and me took another big step in our relationship.

We opened our first joint account together!

Actually planned to do it late last year so that it will start in Jan 10, also to mark 2010. But never got down to it for various reasons, e.g. no time. So today, after months of collecting the necessary documents (actually also not a lot, just our IC and one HP bill), I finally went down to OCBC to hand over the form and documents.

After being together for 2.5 years, I felt its time. Even though the amount is not a lot, its a good start.

*happy*

I miss boyfriend.

Even now that I only see him once a week. Has conversation for less than 20minutes everyday.

He slight decrease of attention suddenly means world to me. Sensitive you might say. But its really the case.

Just a simple gesture will make me happy.

I hate this period.

I hate Sundays. Coze its the day that boyfriend will leave me and I wont be able to see him till one week later.

Bye 2009. Hello 2010!

Countdown was simply spent by having Ma La Steamboat at Bugis with boyfriend and his two poly friends followed by dessert at Chew Dessert at the opposite street. And Wii through the night and reached home only at 2am.

No celebration, no special activity. Pretty 'tasteless' as compared to the first countdown I had with boyfriend. And worst, I was having bad cramp on that day. Shouldn't even have went to work. My first 2 hours at work was spent in GREAT pain. Lucky no guys was around to witness it.

On 1 Jan 10, parents had a re-vow at Jurong Safra. Dinner was not bad. And took the first photo of the year with boyfriend.

On 2 Jan 10. Today. Drove all the way to Joo Chiat to buy 30 mini BBQ pork bun. Real tasty.

Tomorrow. Dinner at The Line. $60plus per pax.

And back to work. Which is a place I want to avoid. Giving me all the stress. And school! -_-

Dar, thank you for standing by me all this while. I'm really thankful for your presence. Of you entering my life and staying by me.

Long weekend is coming to an end soon. =(

I'm really enjoying myself. Though there's no party to attend, no friends to laugh with, no crazy stunts, but still, I'm contended with simple meals, watching movie quietly with boyfriend by my side, going out knowing he will be home waiting for me, playing Wii with 2 friends pop-ing by, chocolate fondue prepared by boyfriend.

No fuss over christmas.

No mess to clear up.

Been awhile since I felt so at ease with myself.

And boy, do I appreciate boyfriend from being around.

Driving soon!!! =D