i'm really happy i found you...

i'm glad i found you too..

=)

Valentine Day 2011

Its our 3rd Valentine Day together. And like previous years, we didnt really celebrate. Just a simple dinner due to various reasons e.g. poor & rushing service for places that offer V-Day menu. Both of us dont appreciate a rush meal nor under-standard food. No compliant though, as the main celebration for us is our anniversary in July.

But like any couple, I would really love to express my appreciation that Darren makes (and continue to do so) me into a better person.

His endless love
His unquestionable trust
His guardians when I'm lost
His support when I needed that little bit of encouragement
His protection from 'evil'
His familiar scent - Unforgettable
His always warm and assuring hugs
His gentle caring
His nagging that warms and irritates me both at the same time

He also taught me to be more social
More caring
More forgiving
More loving
More happy
More strong
Less emo
Less fussy
Less angry
Less stubborn

And most importantly, to have more FUN!

I never knew I can be so happy.
He taught me the real meaning of enjoying life and living it to the fullest.

Dar, thank you for coming into my life and allowing me to enter yours too.

my prefect man

I finally bought a pair of boots! From Aldo. CNY shopping.. Its almost half the budget that boyfriend allows me to purchase at. So I'm really happy with the purchase. The original pair I wanted is from Ecco which cost over $300. This current pair is $180. There goes my extra pocket money from CNY. Now I just need to get some leggings and I'm good to go to Europe!

Yes. The sole reason why I wanted a pair of boots is for Europe. Vain right? But how often you will fly to such a fair away country?! Even if I cant buy any branded bags back (though I'm sure to at least get one), I have pretty photos! So I'm determined to travel in style this time. Boots, trench coat, dress, leggings, shorts. The typical style you cannot really enjoy in the warm weather of Singapore.

And boyfriend promised me we will go to a short getaway to celebrate my official graduation in Nov. *happy* Not sure whether we will get any short getaway in the middle of the year though. Malacca? Or locally? Hmmm..

I have mix feelings about the long trip though. Because it means not seeing boyfriend for 15/16 days. Hopefully they have wireless at the hotels.

I HAD OFFICIALLY ENDED MY UNI PART TIME (NO LIFE) STUDY ON 27 JAN 11 9PM!!!

Officially because I got my final results only on 27 Jan, 9 pm. Though I had been enjoying my life to the max during the past one month plus, but to do it officially from now on is on a totally different level.

The feeling of waiting for the results 1 hour before was too much for me to take. Upon seeing the results that I passed, the feeling just overwhelmed by the happiness of leaving behind the toughest period that I just cried in front of the computer. Mum cried with me too.

Its the feeling of not ever going back to school after a tired day at work, not having to pull yourself up the bus and train then back home, not needing to stay up late at night till 4am to rush my assignments or write exam notes, not having to give up time with friends, family, boyfriend and myself to academic stuffs, not lossing sleep due to projects, not feeling so tired that I sleep in school, and the list just goes on and on. Having just two days to study for exam is no joke and I'm truly glad that I made it through.

I finally did it.

Graduation will be on 19 Nov 11.
3 days after my birthday.

Really thank all from the bottom of my heart to those who help and support me throughout this two years..

And now, the next biggest thing will be the Europe trip in April!! =D

I think no one can really understand how carefree and happy I feel starting 2011 (besides boyfriend i guess). Since, truly speaking, he's the one who saw me through the whole period and how stress or depress I get because I dont have time for myself.

And so, I'm really happy I have time for exercise (gym), going home for homecook dinner, play fully on weekends, shopping after work as and when I want and even meeting friends!!

Started on gym and pilates class on Tuesday and it was great! Though I was aching all over after that. But it feels good, alive even! Considering whether to jog later or not.

And my next week is already packed! Dont even have time for boyfriend during weekdays. *evil laugh*

praying hard i pass my last two papers.

Bye 2010, Hello 2011

sealing the good-bye of 2010 and welcoming 2011

i celebrated countdown with this bunch of wonderful people

Yesterday was really one of the craziest of my 23 years of life. I was never a party animal mainly due to my parents upbringing and also the friends I have surrounding me. Clubbing for the first time just two years ago. Pub was more of a common place to drink for me due to the relax environment. However, it was a rare thing too because most of my friends doesnt party / drink.

Went to this KTV pub which turns into a clubbing area at around 12am. It was FUN! I never party so hard before. It felt good not to be burden by projects, tests, exams, deadlines, research, basically academic stuffs. Thats why I'm welcoming 2011 with OPEN ARMS! I can get close to tears just by thinking about this. I really wont be able to done it without my coursemates, colleagues, boss, family and boyfriend.

Most importantly, I wont had been so cheerful without boyfriend, Darren Lee. He cannot imagine how positively he impacted me.

In the meantime of embracing 2011, 2010 was also filled with happy and memorable moments..

2010 started off with my parents re-vow

Then my cousin wedding to her long-time boyfriend..

In July, we went Tioman to celebrate our 3rd anniversary

In Sep, we went to Bintan to celebrate his birthday..

In Nov, I finally met my polymates to celebrate my birthday

Then a very touching birthday celebration with boyfriend and friends

That same week, we went to USS for the first time

Our last paper in PSB Academy (Henderson Campus)..

Boyfriend finally took me to the Zoo!!

And last but not least, we ended the month of Dec with a trip to Malacca..

Im 21 + 2

I realized there wasnt any post on my blog regarding my birthday when it was such a wonderful day! How can? So I decided to do an update before the end of the year.

I had never look so much forward to my birthday before I met boyfriend because he is the only one who really make that particular day special. The only special days in a year are our anniversay on 7 Jul, his birthday on 24 Sep and mine. But still, its my birthday that was the 'special' day out of everything. The one day that is fully mine.

Didnt want to go on a shopping spree in order to save some money, we went back to nature and have a walk in the parks linked up along henderson. Though nothing 'wow' it was our first time going there together and the rare times we are away from the noisy and fast pace singapore.

i hv the world so long he is mine and im his

its only on my special day that he cannot refuse to do anything i ask

Dinner was at SanTouKa which specializes in Hokkaido Ramen. I hearts the soup based to MAX! The best I ever had so far locally. Luckily we went early, otherwise we would have a long wait to get a table. And the table beside us are also celebrating a birthday.

love is in the air

Last stop of the celebration was at this KTV pub that we went previously where boyfriend's friends went frequently and one of his polymate works there. A very relax and cozy environment. I enjoyed having fun with them and even drank abit more than usual that day. While, its my birthday!

Boyfriend surpised me with Spike-D from Big O. Which his friends specially went to Town to purchase as its only available there. It only took me a lick off the 'happy birthday' decoration to guess the cake and I have it hit-on. Amazing right? Its the best durian cake at an affordable price. And its also my wish to have a birthday cake.

he was singing a string of birthday songs via the KTV

his friends who celebrated with me

It was really an amazing day and I was feeling kinda down after 12pm because it was no longer my day. But it was a day well spent and truly special to me only. Somehow each year there will be these little things that he will do to make me feel special in the midst of everyone else surrounding us. It was my first time having birthday song sang in front of so many strangers.

Pior to the actual day, I had two celebrations with my colleagues at work and also with my polymates. Had Sushi Tei and cake with colleagues and a Korean dinner with polymates.

Besides my 21st birthday, this is by far the next biggest celebration I had. And I felt 21 again! =D

he made me felt special
really special to be treated this way

Had a small trip with boyfriend and his friends and my brother to Malacca, Malaysia. Total damage to the bank account was large but was an enjoyable trip overall. Not only did it brought us closer (some of us never see each other before the trip), it bonded boyfriend and me too!

I dont know what I can do or say to tell him how much I love him and how proud I am of him. But I am. And very.

Food was cheap and good. Shopping was good but not that cheap. But managed to bought a pair of heels. Seriously considering to wear dress to work. =X Maybe I will feel happier then.

I cant wait to go on another trip with them. =D

On the other hand, 2010 is ending soon. We will be welcoming 2011 in a week's time and yet theres still no convrete plan for the celebration! -_- But it doesnt matters so long its with boyfriend.

In 2011, I will be starting on gym once a week, taking up patchwork lesson at CC once a week, baking and hopefully get a change of job. Gonna give myself at least a year to rest mentally and 'upgrade' myself in other aspects such as lifestyle. At the same time, I looking forward to NATAS fair in Feb!!! Going to Europe and hope they have some good deals. It will be a 2 weeks trip.

In Jan 11 I will be getting my results. *nervous*

Since the day I finished with my last paper, it had been fun-filled weekends BUT dead-bored weekday nights. Theres nothing to do at home and I felt 'useless' lazing around after work.

Today, finally made a trip to the CC and signed for up a handicraft course - Patchwork. Those sewing type and oldies blacket.. Cant wait for it to start.

Similarly, gonna make reservation for my gym assessment and start going for my gym lessons in Jan 2011.

For the time being, just gonna slack around as theres really nothing to do! On the otherhand, gonna take this 2 weeks to tidy up my work-stuffs.

Think the patchwork and gym gonna keep me busy for quite awhile. Will try out the different yoga classes they have.

Feeling better now that I know I wont be slacking all the way..

Going over to Malaysia this Christmas weekend with brother, boyfriend and boyfriend's friends.

But nothing yet for countdown..

Monday is my last paper to my degree programme. Its a love-hate feeling.

Love because Im finally finishing my part time education. And thats a VERY big deal because it means I have more time for everything else, like meeting friends, going on dates with boyfriend, meals at home, going crazy at night and doing whichever things I wanna do but got on hold because I need the time to rush my stupid and ever-growing amount of assignments.

Hate because I wont be seeing my sweetest coursemates, having dinner together and bitching about the useless lecturers we have.

On the bright side, we can always meet after work! =D

Gonna party hard after Monday's paper. And lots of gatherings to organize thereafter. Then going to Malaysia during the Christmas weekend, staying at boyfriend's friend's relative's house. They have their own vege and durain plantations!! Looking forward to it.

Sadly, boyfriend need to stay-in everyday..

But, his room is ready soon. As in REAL soon. Our bed is coming in today. I cant wait to sleep on the new bed. No more uncomfy and backache the next morning..

-i dont support you who support you..

and who i support?-

2 Bad news & 1 Good news

The bad news are:

Boyfriend is at the Zoo without me & its raining

Good news:

I'm at home

He went to the zoo WITHOUT me!!! Wt*.. But on the bright side, its raining! And who wanna go to the zoo on a raining day. *evil laugh*

But the worst part - he gonna book-in tomorrow at 7:30pm. Which means, I only have slightly more than 24hours with him, of which 8 hours we will be sleeping. So technically, it left us with less than 24hours. This is bad.

And tomorrow morning, we need to wake up early to go Q at IMM Starhub for iPhone. Yes, Im getting one. Because boyfriend wanted one, so I decided to get the same phone with him. So dont comment about it.

I seriously cant wait for exam to be over and party at night. Thereafter will be planning all the stuffs I wanna do but postponed / didnt do because of my studies. Gave up too much to complete my degree programe asap.

And forgetful me, had yet to blog about my birthday this year. It was a blast! =D

I wasnt happy today.. He 'dumped' me again for his campmates. Im really upset about it because I only get to see him on the weekends when he is off from his duty. While they see him everyday. And today, he chose to continue spending his 'after office hours' time with them rather than me. When he agreed to meet me for dinner.

I cried.

Through out the whole week, this is the only activity I look forward to. The only thing I work hard for. But all Im left with this weekend is being alone. Fyi, he's going oversea this weekend. So basically I wont see him till next weekend if he decides not to make time for me.

I hate it everytime when he 'dump' me for his friends or campmates. I mean, come on. Was it not a common understanding to spend time with each other once a week. To at least inform beforehand. I felt dumped. I felt unwanted. I felt lonely. And he didnt understand.

Im so pissed and upset till I went FB and saw the picture we took during my birthday celebration mid this month. Happiness was basically reflected from the picture. It brought a slight sense of warmth to my heart. But still. I cannot understand why I am being left out today. F all the agreements and promises.

Writing this entry make me wanna cry even more.

Try putting yourself in my shoes and feel what Im feeling. Its not like I will feel any better if you left me alone. It doesnt always work that way.

Loving someone gave them the power to hurt you
But the hurt are not physical.
It cant be seen
It cant be understood by others
But its there
The pain that slowly eats you from inside
The loneliness that make you lonely even when you are surrounded by friends
How can you protect yourself from this?
If you did,
You are not giving your significant ones your entire

How contradicting

Boyfriend's brother is ROM-ing soon with his girlfriend. Hence, boyfriend&sis is swapping room with the brother. Which means boyfriend is shifting back to his original room, the room where we spent most of the early part of our relationship in, the place where we became official.

Because of this, we decided to purchase a new bed, as the current one is not in good condition. And being me, I will get uncomfortable from sleeping on it. Though it doesnt come cheap, I think its a good investment. Plus, boyfriend loves to spend most of his bed laying on the bed, hence a good bed will be better for his back. And also, a new cabinet for clothes.

I cant wait to make the room a cozy one! We are already planning of the stuffs to get once we get more financial stabilize. Wireless surround system, TV console, wii accessories, a new dust bin, and some other accessories...

I think its worth saving up on others stuffs to make the room cozy and more comfortable. Partly because we can save money by staying at home and also, we both like having friends over for gathering. And this room will be the prefect place.

O yes. I collected my new ring.. PRETTY!! And it fits really well. But my phone cant capture the beauty of it, hence, didnt upload any photos. Wait till I get my new camera. =D

I was never a bling-bling girl. Mum brought me up brainwashing me that bling-blings are a waste of money as the value drop once you purchase it. It was boyfriend who make me appreciate and love it. The first bling-bling he bought me was for my 20th birthday, months after we got together. I'm great for his thoughtfulness. Ever since he had gotten me another two bling-bling. Its his way of pampering me because he knew I will never purchase one myself. And now, I love it. Appreciate the work behind a good cut and design. Now I know why they say bling-blings are a female's best friend. Thank you boyfriend.

You know what? I'm in love with the SK shop at JP2, especially with the store manager, Marcus Chan. Love him! Not the romantic way of course.

Went there yesterday to polish my necklace and ring and ended up chatting with him for half an hour! After learning that diamond value will increase instead of decreasing like it used to in the past, decided to drop by with boyfriend to see whether is there any new design and to upgrade, taking it as an investment. An expensive investment!

Took a long time to choose my new ring. Hard to find one that please me, till the point Marcus seems a bit scare of us. =X But I need to find one that I like! Ended up we took the ring that he suggested. A diamond resting on 4 heart-shaped crown with heart-shaped at the side of the base. Pretty special. The other one he recommended, I found the base looking like an ice cream cone and the diamond is like a scope of ice cream.

He's customer service is really really good and wonderful! Both of us like him. Whether its marketing strategy or not, at least we seems to really wanna find the best item that suit me. And met all my fussy and funny requests.

Going to upgrade the ring again next year. Cant wait!

Had a trip to A&E on the wee hours of Monday morning due to back ache. Doc say its a muscle sprain. Gave painkiller. It didnt got any better, even got worst. So mum took me to a private clinic. This time round the doc say its gastric flu, coze I vomited, no appetite, tummy damn bloated and I'm having gastric. -_- useless a&e doctor. =X

And guess what. Darren nagged again. Guess he will be forcing me to eat more now. It felt terrible to have gastric related stuffs. Damn uncomfortable and painful..

sighz..

This was most likely my favourite photo throughout the whole trip with boyfriend to Bintan (and theres not much photos to choose from!). Surprisingly, I did not took much photos this time round. Was spending more time doing stuffs rather than taking photos.

We stayed at Bintan Sayang Resort, which was a new resort and some parts are still WIP, but did not affect us. What I like was the resort was away from others resorts. Which means we are really away from the crowd. Though there's no nice sandy beach like Tioman, but the short travelling distance (1 hr ferry and 20 mins drive) win over BIG TIME!!! I will go Bintan anytime without giving much thought about it! Food was reasonably priced too, I guess this is another advantage when the resort is not those chain resorts or crowd with others. I suspected that the kelong eating place and the resort is own by the same boss.

This time round we did snookering which we saw more colourful fishes as compared to Tioman, sunset by the sea, had my first fishing experience which I really caught fishes!, suntan by the pool for an hour plus each day with a book I brought over, relaxing in the big bathtub and also BBQ-ing oversea.

It was a good experience and really an enjoyable trip. Staffs were friendly, food was good (i ate alot there! more rice than I had in Singapore), room was clean and boyfriend let me bought a teddy bear! =D

Cant wait for my next getaway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND!!

Though his birthday, there wasn't much of a celebration besides telling him happy birthday at 12am and dropping him a message on FB.

And nicely, today is also the day of his POP whereby his parents got to put on the 3rd SGT rank on him. I'm so proud of him. Plus, he got the Honors Award as 2nd best performing personnel in his course. *wow* He's my man!! =D

But poor him got sunburn from the hours of rehearsal over the past two days just for the 1 to 2 hours today. But still. I love my man in uniform. Look so smart and emitting a sense of pride.

Got home to rush my assignment. Planned to cab down to his house after Im done with my assignment so that I can optimize my sleeping time. And I'm back to my routine of chicken essence in the morning and coffee at night to last me through the day. Damn tired to rush assignment till 4am in the morning. -_-

I cant stop telling you how proud I am of my boyfriend!!!!

By the way. For this retreat, mum knows Im going with boyfriend. Not a big response of rejection. *heng* I feels better not having to hide from her Im going oversea with him. No worry. He will surely take care of me just like always. But I have no idea how much to bring over!!! *hope the money is sufficient*

Dar, happy birthday. I know today is tiring for you. Rest well tonight and we shall relax over the weekend as a present to ourself.
A little wish from me to you : be good to yourself (and of course to me). And regardless, I will be by your side. (and I know you will do the same to me). May everything you do be smooth sailing!

Its already 23rd Sep! Another 2hours plus and its officially boyfriend 23rd birthday! Its also his Sgt POP. =D I'm so proud of him. Thereafter, we are going oversea to celebrate his birthday.

As for me, Im rushing assignments like mad. This semester the assignments are CRAZY! But I'm trying my best to finish as much as possible before going for the short retreat with boyfriend.

Work is getting slightly better. At least now we have time to breath.

Faceliciouss is also currently on its way to make profit. =D

And, I passed my previous exam! *happy*

Another exciting news, planning a long trip next year!

Im done with my exams!!! *pray hard that i pass all*

During this 2 weeks of the exams period, I kept asking myself what is it that I really wanna do in my life. I love baking, but am I good enough to sell what I bake? Can I earn enough from what I bake? Sarah and I are considering this and thinking to give it a try next year. Boyfriend was rather supportive. Instead of saying how unpractical it is, he asked me to start saving for our mini-venture. Sarah's dad was supportive too. But till then, we can only plan and try the recipes first as we still have another 4months of school to go.

If the mini-venture works out, good for us. But do I wanna quit my job and do that fulltime or parttime? Otherwise, should I get another less demanding job so that I can enjoy pleasure in doing what I really like?

O well, really need to think about it. And weight it against my ever-growing-living-expenses.

On a more light-hearted note, both boyfriend, Sarah and ah boi commented my skin got better. Just in less than a week. Its money well spent! =D Did masks almost everyday, and bought new products from Skin Food which I suspect is the main factor for this improvement. They have this moisturizer that is really very hydrating for my skin. And also the various masks, collagen, tightening of pores, removal of impurity, hydrating. And the best part? NONE of them requires more than 10 minutes of my time! I did all of them in the bathroom along with my hair mask / hair treatment. This is what I call lazy-but-still-wanna-be-pretty. I cant stand doing facial mask that need me to lay on the bed for 20 minutes. The masks that I got from Skin Food are mostly massage and rise off, or massage and leave for 1 minute, the most, massage and leave for 5 minutes. How cool is this? But, I would need to spend 2 hours every month doing my facial at Asian Skin Solutions! O well, at least theres massage invovle and I know my skin and eye bag will be better thereafter.

Boyfriend wasnt happy of the amount of money I spent recently on my face. But he cant deny theres improvement.. *evil smile*

Time to save money and do what I wanna do..

O ya, went Iguana with Sarah and her potential bf right after our last paper. Damn cool! I wanna do it more often. Then we went to find boyfriend camp people across the river. Crazy bunch of people, but its enjoyable. First night life in almost a year. I dont really drink but I enjoy the atmosphere. Give me my life back!!

Boyfriend is currently staying-in again. A one month plus sgt course. Thereafter, his pay and rank will rise! But, I will have to endure this change of not able to contact him as and when I like. I used to be able to call him any time I want to when he got promoted to instructor. Now he's back as trainee, I cant do that. *sighz*

*army boy's girlfriend in the making*

O well, gonna study hard for my exam too. 3 papers.

Recently got very into trying freebies and finding ways to make my skin better. And Sarah was my buddy in this. =D We love taking freebies and trying them. Thinking to make a webby out of this.

And, I just signed up for another package - facial. From Asian Skin Solutions. Boyfriend is complaining about the number of packages I'm currently having, or rather, a sudden interest in them. First my Amore Fitness 1-year package and now, a 5-session facial package. Hopefully they will have the effect it claims to have.

Amore Fitness : Wanna tone and slim down abit after my degree coze I put on and lost my 'figure' during studies, especially exam period and all the late nights. Wanna tune it back and be more healthy. And more exercising since boyfriend is so activity type.

Asian Skin Solutions : I'm not bless with good skin, and I know it. Had been spending quite alot on my facial products in fact, with all the The Face Shop and Skin Food products, I can most likely buy a Burberry bag already. Still finding the correct and suitable way to 'treat' and maintain my skin. Hopefully this will help. Half-believing what the staff said, I signed up for half package. *cross fingers*

Hopefully the money will be well-spent. I don't find trying since money can be earn back, but I just hope things will improve. And I seriously feel that I might be getting into some money issue soon if I continue the way I'm spending now. There's an increase in my expenditures recently. Maybe with all the sales going on. Otherwise I will really think there's something wrong with me, coze I don't use to spend like this.

Boyfriend booking out tomorrow. But I will only be able to see him on Saturday. I miss him.

Suddenly have this urge to try new stuffs to earn extra $$. But kinda tie down with my studies now. Gonna re-plan what I want in life. Think its time to try something new so that I wont have any regrets in the future.