He's a friend who to us is someone who has the world in his hands. One who treated us as close friends. Even me, who he only get to know a few months ago. But just in one night, it seems like he lost a big part of it. Its saddening. Especially when we cant do much to ease his pain. He looked after me, darren and us. I know he truly felt happy for us and headache when we fought. Hope he is able to pull himself together. Because he's really a good guy.

Lots happened last week.

A fight with dar. Which was settled on thursday. Case close. One fight that made me realise how much dar friends cared about us, as in our relationship. They are concern. Especially Alex aka mummy and Gerald. They too accepted me with open arms.

Saturday was mummy's big day. Managed to secure a big sofa seating area for him. But due to that, I had less than 1 hour at Patrick's daught 1st month celebration. But its ok. =) After securing the place, mummy treated ah wong and I to Ah Wok for a quite dinner. And off to party..

Had dinner at home on Sunday and a late night movie turn K-session at bugis. This was arranged to cheer mummy up.

But the night didnt really end good coze we witnessed another couple fighting. The girl was crying.

Relationships seems so fragile. So breakable.. Made me feel even more fortunate that I'm having Darren with me, by my side. We had some ups and downs during this nearly 16th of relationship. And mostly they are ups. We hardly fight. And I know he had given up quite a number of stuffs for me. He is even willing to give up clubbing now. I'm touched. But I cant let him give up so many things for me. Its not fair to him...

Back to work tomorrow. And I'm kind of looking forward to it...

7 more days to my CL exam.

2 more days to dar's camp.

1 more day to meeting polymates.

Less than 20 days to my birthday!!!!!!

Shopping today again!!!!! But with mum @ Chinatown. And guess what, I bought my birthday dress there! =) Another hole burnt in my pocket. Lucky I'm getting my pay in a week time.

Been awhile since dar's and my face appeared here:

Yesterday was bro's gf birthday. Celebrated at my house:

Bought a cake for her. AND bro say its the exact cake he wanted to get for MY birthday! -_-! Dont care. He better think of another cake to buy. HUMMPF!!!! Get me a cake from Big O. haha.

yet another hole burnt

Charlie's sis went Korea and asked her to help me buy some stuffs from The Face Shop. A total of 7 items - 2 shower cream, 1 serum, 1 eye serum, 2 sleeping mask and 1 sun screen. $100....

Total spending this month:
4 tops from last wk - $140
birthday dress - $99
The face shop - $40 + $100
Chinese medicine for period - $42
Chinese medicine for dar dad - $25
Over $400!!!!!!!

At least its all happy buys... except for one top that I can actually not buy since I'm not really happy with it now. -_- And theres some new clothes that I didnt wear before and doesnt want anymore. yes yes.. waste of money.

1 month to my birthday party!!!! Invitation sent out. Catering menu decided. Decoration decided. Just need to do the ordering for the catering and decoration now. =) Can do them after my exam...

Examation for Commerical Law in two weeks time. Big sighz..

Our dog doesnt love me anymore!!!!!!!!!!

Bag my bag somemore... Sob.

Dar claim because the dog hardly sees me at all, thus the unfriendly treatment. Or some will call it a treatment too friendly.

The only place I'm safe from the dog is in dar's room because theres dar and his bro to keep the dog out of the room. Lucky me.

Going to NUH in awhile to visit dar's dad.

This week had been really chaotic. Hardly have time for anything else. Super lack of sleep issnt helping either. Though dar had been really sweet about it. Making sure I have my dinner.

Somehow losing my voice again. No idea why.

I miss dar and mummy...

i'm guilty..
hadnt been a good gf nowadays.
coze of work, period
short temper.
thinking too much.
though bf didnt say anything nor take it to heart.
i know i hadnt been an understanding gf

dar... sorry for making you work so hard during this period. having to spend most of your free time with me because of the various reasons. you had been really sweet to me. making breakfast, coming down to have dinner with me, waiting for my school to end to send me home. and today, sending dinner to my home because i wont eat otherwise. thank you for feeding me and making me melt these few days..

darren, thank you for loving me.
you have no idea how touched i had been yesterday and today.

Shopped alone today and bought 4 tops in total.

All in the colours of white and black.

2 from city link, 2 from jp.

Somehow I'm going back to these two colours again.

Or maybe its just today.

Anyway..

Schedules are packed again! With modules that I cannot skip classes till Dec. Sucks.

4 days of schooling each week.

Body aching now. Played badminton with bf, bro and bro gf yesterday. Playing again two weeks later.

Feels good to sweat.

i almost forgotten the joy of having new clothes..

Please do not act as if there arent any manuals for you to follow or guide you through the system. When I took the system over, there wasnt any manuals AT ALL and I have to figure my way through. And please, you had been with me to a few training sessions and even for briefing. You wanted training, fine. We had two sessions as of today. Did you seriously sit down and hands-on? Did you refer to the manuals for assistance?

You should know better than anyone else to relay all the knowledge on one person. Yet this did not stop you from only learning the system NOW. What about all those trainings and briefings you went with me through out this one year plus?

And when I try to link the problem back to something you are aware of, suddenly it became alien to you. Please enlighten me as to how can this be?

1) You commited something you have no control over.
2) You did not support me when I need it. All because you do not bother to know the system and hence, not able to do so.
3) Various reasons (excuses) are given to the delay of my request from you. But I learnt later the true reasons behind and they are not excuses at all! Any idea what assume stands for?
4) Updatings wasnt brought to my attention at times. Which prevented me from answering to the clients at times.
5) Busy with other stuffs arent you? But should the system be something you should know in the first place since this is your 'core business'?
6) And more than once, words and agreements are just words and agreements with no action taken.

Stop dragging stuffs.

I wish and want to move on from here.

My transfer got APPROVED!!!!!! =)

On Friday Alex invited bf and me to Powerhouse again. And as of that day, Alex shall b known as bf's and mine MUMMY!!!!!

Was yet another enjoyable night of partying and chilling with them. Love it.

Saturday had to woke up earlier to await the arrival of my new furnitures. Sofa set with coffee table and side table and a new set of dining table!

At night bro drove us up to Mount Faber to 'romantic-romantic' a bit.. =X Nice place to enjoy the lightnings in Singapore. And bf stayed up till 3am to stand-by in case I had nightmare and needed him. *sweet*

Had school this morning. Horrible. I was so so so sleepy. Commercial Law. Sucks. Exam on first week of Nov.

And planning for my 21st already!!!! Will be at my house with catering and BALLOONS!!!!!!! Just a small gathering for close friends and family. Ppl... do make yourself available k? See ya!

us in powerhouse

i love him