Trying very hard at work to handle my guys. And myself.
Very tiring to handle work, school and my own life. Trying to find a balance between of these things that is going on in my life right now. But apparently its hard.
Had a meet-up session with alot of my friends over the past 2 weeks.
With both of us working now, work that tired us alot, I cant help but feel the distance. It kinds of hurt. I teared once not long ago. Over what I cant remember. But it was one of the night that I felt so unwanted. Had we been together for too long to remember that sweetness require to maintain a relationship? Had we been so used to each other that we forgotten the closeness we used to share? Had we been so sure that we will get marry that we keep postponing our rare dates? Had we been so busy that we have no time and patient for each other?
Why I decided to finally 'pen' down all these because I felt like I lost myself in the midst of all these things that are now happening in my life. I had been so busy and tired that I feel kind of breathless now. Maybe he had longed forgotten how much I longed to have a warm homecook meal with him.
I hate it when he make fun of me at times. Especially when its something I put my heart in to do. I tried. I really did.
At the end of a long working day, a night of restless schooling, all I need is a few words of comfort. Or simply, a 'good night'.
Maintaining a relationship is not easy. Not when you are tired.